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Tako, bez ikakvog većeg povoda jučer sam 4 puta za redom preslušala taj album. Prvi put sam bila mirna, četvrti put sam bila u suzama. Tako se osjeća da je svaka pjesma o njemu. Toliko se osjeća da to boli. Boli me slušati ju koliko je tužna i koliko joj on fali. I mislila sam da znam kako joj je, i stalno mislim da znam kako joj je, ali uvijek kada čujem taj album, uvijek otkrijem da joj je bilo još gore. Ne, nisam ga ja vidjela mrtvog. Ne, nemam ja djete s njim. Također nisam ja ona koja se jebala s njim. Ja sam samo osoba koja ga voli i osoba kojoj ta ljubav nikada neće biti uzvraćena. Ona je morala pretrpjeti to da ju je jedina osoba koja ju je istinski voljela ostavila. I on je bio jedini koji ju je vjerojatno ikada voljeo onom pravom ljubavi. Pa eto, pod utjecajem albuma stavljam svoje najdraže djelove pjesama. I da, većina ih je o Kurtu. Zapravo, svagdje ga se može osjetiti. Pogotovo u Playing Your Song koja je definitivno najbolja pjesma na albumu. I ne, nisam ljubiteljica zvuka na albumu. Da, riječi s albuma su savršene.
It's your life, it's your party
It's so awful
Let's start a fire! Let's start a riot!
Yeah, it's awful
It was punk
Yeah, it was perfect
Now it's awful
-Awful-
You're lost, oh, where's your daddy?
It's so awful
-Awful-
If the world is so wrong
Yeah, you can break them all with one song
If the world is so wrong
Yeah, you can take it all with one song
-Awful-
How'd you get so desperate?
How'd you stay alive?
Help me please
Burn the sorrow from your eyes
Oh come on, be alive again
Don't lay down and die
-Malibu-
And I knew love would tear you apart
Oh, and I knew the darkest secret of your heart
-Malibu-
Threw myself on fires for you
Ten good reasons to stay alive
Ten good reasons that I can't find
-Reasons To Be Beautiful-
So sick in his body
So sick in his soul
-Reasons To Be Beautiful-
Love hates you
I live my life in ruins for you
And for all your secrets kept
-Reasons To Be Beautiful-
And they say in the end
You'll get better just like them
And they steal your heart away
When the fire goes out you better learn to fake
It's better to rise than fade away
Hey, you were right
Named a star for your eyes
Did you freeze?
Did you weep?
Turn to gold, baby, sleep
Hey, honey mine
I was there all the time
And I weep at your feet
And it rains and rains
-Reasons To Be Beautiful-
And now I understand
You leave with everything
You leave with everything I am
Withering
And now I know that love is dead
You've come to bury me
There's nothing left here to pretend
Anything
-Dying-
It's the emptiness that follows you down
It's the ache inside when it all burns out
It's poisonous it muscles it aches
It's everything you had when it breaks
It's the emptiness that's all you have left
Too terrified of your frozen breath
It's a bitter mouth it's buttered and knived
It's the awful truth you fight for your life
It might as well it might as well hurt
It might as well it might as well
I went down to rescue you
I went all the way down
Fill your hungry wretched life
Here they come it's closing time
It's the bitter root it's twisted inside
It's the heart you used to have when it died
It's the emptiness it poisons it lies
It's everything that you'll never find
It might as well it might as well hurt
It might as well it might as well
I went down for the remains
Sort through all your blurs and stains
Take your rapture blister burns
Stand in line it's not your turn
All dressed in red, always the bride
Off with her head, all dressed in white
Off with her head
I went down to rescue you
I went all the way down
I went down for the remains
Sort through all your blurs and stains
Ooh, I will follow you
Anytime anywhere
Ooh, when they come for you
Just say you don't care
-Use Once And Destroy-
And I cry and no one can hear
Inhale the blinded eyes that see
The chaos bring the pitiful to me
Even though I'm wide awake
I will in blackest night
And I wait for you
It's cold in here, there's no one left
And I wait for you
And nothing stops it happening
And I knew I'd cherish all my misery alone
-Northen Star-
And they paid, I cry and cry for you
Ghosts that haunt you with their sorrow
I cried 'cause you were doomed
Praying to the wound that swallows all that's cold and cruel
Can you see the trees, charity and gratitude?
They run to the pines
It's black in here, blot out the sun and run to the pines
Our misery runs wild and free
And I knew the fire and the ashes of his grace
-Northen Star-
And I want you
And blessed are the broken
And I beg you
No loneliness, no misery is worth you
Oh, tear his heart out
Cold as ice, it's mine
-Northen Star-
In your endless summer night
I'll be on the other side
When you're beautiful and dying
All the world that you've denied
-Boys On The Radio-
He said he'd never, ever, ever go
And heavens, heavens, heavens know
And never, ever, ever go away
Baby, I've gone away
OVO ZAISTA RASPLAČE:
I will ease your suffering
When the glitter fades in morning
Turn away and you will find my empty eyes
Your beauty blinds
I know that you are rotten to the core
I know that you don't love me anymore
I know that you are rotten to the core
-Boys On The Radio-
Take you to heaven tonight
'Cause I love you for what you are
-Heaven Tonight-
I da, cijela Playing Your Song
Hey you, you're way ahead of me
You're drunk on apathy
You burned right out
Hey you, you're just a cripple now
We sell for millions now
They sold you out
And oh, I had to tell them you were gone
I had to tell them they were wrong
And now they're playing your song
Hey you, don't take it out on me
You're bored of everything
You burned right out
Hey you, so bored and cynical
It's fucking wonderful
They sold you out
And oh, they've bought and sold it all, it's gone
They've taken it and built a mall
And now they're playing your song
Ooh, their innocence tastes like candy, yeah
Get so fat on it, it's a tragedy, yeah
Ooh, I can help you come to me, yeah
Just bring your innocence to me, yeah
Hey you, oh don't you dare blame me
You trusted everything
They sold you out
Hey you, now when they call it cool
It's just so mean and cruel
They sold you out
And oh, they've bought and sold it all, it's gone
And every note of it is wrong
And now they're playing your song
Yeah yeah yeah
Oh, they've bought and sold it all, it's gone
They've taken it and built a mall
And now they're playing your song
They're playing, playing your song

I tako, ako vam se dalo čitati, onda ste se načitali pjesama i išla sam vam naživce s njima, vjerojatno. Ali tako su jebeno dobre i tužne. Volim ih vjerojatno više nego što mislim da ih volim. I znam da ču sada opet otići u krevet i slušati taj album i valjati se pod svoje 3 deke i jorganom. I zatvoriti oči i shvaćati sve, opet. Provela sam sate i sate kada sam išla u Njemačku slušajući taj album. Toliko ga zapravo volim, mada često serem protiv njega i njegove produkcije.
Mia se uključila u naš projekt. Još malo pa možemo osnovati Klub Mrzitelja Mije. Ne one Mije s kojom se družim. Užasne Mije koju ne volim i koju prezirem jer je uvjerena da je tako savršena, a zapravo je užasna. I uz sve to, ni mi nismo dragi njoj. Ali ona valjda misli da joj se divimo dok crta Ninđa kornjače od bundeva. Glupača. Bar se imamo čemu smijati.
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