srijeda, 26.11.2008.

...

"My Immortal"

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

[Chorus]



...evo opet suze,ni sama se znam što se događa..nešto se promjenilo,nije onako kako je bilo..znam da bi trebala biti sretna što on trenutno spava kraj mene ali ne mogu,neki nemir su uvukao u mene...bojim se da ga ne izgubim..previše mi je stalo do njega,ali imam osjecaj da su se s njegove strane neke stvari promjenile...nema više onog mog osjecajnog Anđela..evo 3 tjedna sam u zg i još ni jednom nismo proveli cijeli dan u krevetu jedno kraj drugog,mazili se...ne to je u mojoj prošlosti i u vremenima kad smo provodili dane u hotelu..bojim se..toliko mi treba i toliko ga volim da on toga nije svijestan...jednostavno imam osjecaj da ne shvaca moju potrebu za njim..sve je postalo tako užurbano..ostaju nam samo noci..i onda šta umorni obadvoje idemo spavat..kad se sjetim onih dana kad smo ostajali budi do tko zna kojih sati dok smo bili u hotelu...boli me..imam osjecaj da se polako zatvara prema meni..da mu polako pocinjem smetat u životu i da shvaca kako ja nisam TA osoba u njegovom životu..ne znam sve mi je cudno...veceras me vidio da placem i ništa poljubio me i rekao da idem s njim unutra i nisam htjela ,a on se pokupio i otišao u krevet..i sad mirna srca spava..ja nikakko ne bi mogla mirno spavati da znam da on negdje sjedi sam i place.
Ne znam..ali toliko mi fali onaj stari Anđel osjecajni,romantici..Anđel koji je bio lud za mnom..koji je uživao u svakoj minuti koju provede samnom..a snu sad kao da mu je ovo sve mucenje i kao da mu je vec pun kurac svega..ne znam sva sam izgubljena u svemu ovom.
Pitao me veceras jel ima veze s njim to što placem rekla sam da nema,lagala sam..jednostavno nisam imala snage mu objašnjavat što je..htjela sam mu reci ali znam što bi bilo,on bi se poceo opravdavat i da onda bi ispalo da to uopce nije istina..ali ja negdje duboko u sebi nešto osjecam,neku negativnu stvar...
Znam da ce vecina vas pomislit da nije problem u meni,da ga ja nisam možda prestala voljet..ne nije..volim ga još više nego što sam a do sad voljela..volim sve na njemu,ali baš sve..i toliko me ubiaj sve ovo..padam u bed a ne želim to..želim uživat u ljubavi,želim se osjcati voljenom kao što sam se i na pocetku psjecala voljenom..teško mi je i trudim se kao nikad u životu,ali mi se cini da mu to nije dovoljno..cini mi se da sam mu postala više navika..a ne želim to,želim da me voli,želim se osjcati njegovom..želim da i on živi za mene kao što i ja živim za njega..strašno me naživciralo kad sam mu neku vecer rekla da ne znam kakav bi bio život da ga izgubim a on mi je na to rekao pa možda bi ti bio bed ispocetka ali zaboravila bi me..ne kuži koliko mi znaci..možda san i ja za to kriva..možda sam za sve ovo ja kriva..ne znam..više ni ne mislim jel ne mogu..ne znam što da mislim više..jadno zar ne?
Toliko sam u bedu da mi i inspiracija pada..ne znam dragi moji samo se nadam da je ovo faza iza koje ce mi reci "živim za tebe mala"..nadam se..
Veceras sam malo kraca...
Volim te Anđele moj..u dobru i zlu..samo tvoja..zauvijek..
pusa svima od "izgubljene u ljubavi"

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Nešto o meni...
-romantična
-18godina
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-lako zavolim ,ali teško zaboravim
-nesretna u ljubavi
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-uvijek dobro raspoložena
-iz Slavonije sam
-volim uživat u životu i u svemu
što mi život pruža


Oni koji mi pomažu kad mi je najteže..



*umnei*
*lagana-žena kojoj se divim iz srca*
*djevojka iz sjene*
*she is a bitch so*
*opasna mala*
*otkucaj*
*little words of mine*
*my place,my rule*
*..deedee..*
*odlazni cirkus*
*martonus*
*love joy*
*morwenče*



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Ljubav

Zbog tebe u rascvijetanim vrtovima čeznem
za mirisom proljeća.
Zaboravio sam tvoje lice,ne sjećam se više
tvojih ruku;kako su se tvoje usne našle na mojima?
Zbog tebe ,volim bijele uspavane kipove po parkovima;
bijele kipove bez glasa i bez vida.
Zaboravio sam tvoj glas,tvoj sretan osmijeh,zaboravio
sam tvoje oči.
Poput cijeta sa svojim mirisom ja u seb nosim
maglovito sjećaje na tebe.
Živim sa boli poput rane;dotakneš li me samo,
smrtno ćeš me povrijediti.
Tvoja milovanja me obavijaju ,poput bršljana
na sjetim zidovima.
Zaboravio sam tvoju ljubav,još uvijek išćem obraz
tvog lika u svakom oknu.
Zbog tebe ,teški miris ljeta nanosi mi bol;zbog tebe,
opet tražim oko sebe proročanske znakove nenadanih
želja;padajuće zvijezde,komete...







.. JER SLUČAJNOSTI NE POSTOJE...
Toše Proeski
Rodjen 25.1.1981 = 25 + 1 = 26
Poginuo 16.10.2007 = 16 + 10= 26
2007 - 1981 = 26 godina
Vrijeme smrti: 06:20 = 6 + 20 = 26
Kada zbrojimo 25 + 01 + 1981 = 2007 (god u kojoj je pogodinuo)
2007 - 16 - 10 = 1981 (godina koje je rodjen)
26 * 26 * 26 = 17576 ( 1 + 7 + 5 + 7 + 6 = 26)




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Kako bolno mjesec za mjesecom teće
a srce moje sve me više i više peće!
Peće mene svaki pogled tvoj ,
jer sam svijesna da više nisi moj,
noćima te sanjam u mislima molim
ne znaš i ne slutiš koliko te volim!
Znaš da svaki pogled moj kad prođem
kraj tebe želi reći nešto ,želi a samo
pitam zašto smo se sreli....



Tiho nikad tiše zasvirala je naša pjesma
kao tišina rekla je kraj glasno nikad glasnije
čula sam srce,srce koje plače,hladne ruke
kao da umirem!!
Ti si kao proljeće došao,kao slatko vino me opio,
a ja sam se predala kao da je to samo
jedna noć jedina!
Kao hladan val otopio si me jer srce sam na dlanu
dala a to se ne smije!!


Šta je svrha ljubavi kad tako boli,
zašto srce slomi se kad stvarno voli.
Izgubila sam sav svoje svijet ,ali i dalje
pitam što je svrha ljubavi kad nemam te?
Još uvijek sama sam jednak mi je svaki
dan s tobom ustajem pa opet uranjam u san!
Čin i se kao i prije ali unutra umirem jer oko
što me voljelo zauvijek se zatvorilo!!!


Znala sam da ćeš otići,
ali ne tako brzo.
Znala sam da ću ga se sjecat ,
ali ne tako često.
Znala sam da ću ga voljeti,
ali ne tako dugo....


Ti si razlog što sam tu,
ti me držiš iznad vode ,
ti si mir na jastuku,
ti me gasiš kad gorim,
kad mi dođe da se predam
ti si razlog što se ne dam..


Ljubav je tajna zbog koje se pati,
koliko te volim nikad neceš znati,
želim ti srecu,ne želim ti zlo,
puno te volim upamti to...


Lijepo je znati da postojiš u mom životu.
Nije bitno koliko,od kad,a ni zašto.
Lijepo je otvoriti oci i jednostavno znati
da si blizu..


Ne reci sve što želiš,
ne cini sve što možeš,
ne vjeruj u sve što cuješ,
ne daj sve što imaš,
ne želi sve što nemaš,
samo voli onog tko te voli...


Nikad ne dozvoli da ti se netko suviše približi,
jer sve što je blisko postaje voljeno,
a sve što voljeno poželiš da zadržiš,
a zadržati se ništa ne može zauvijek...


Brisati netkoga iz memorije na mobitelu je lako,
ali brisati netkoga iz sjecanja nije tako jednostavno,
ako malen djelic duše ponekad okreneš,
hrabro kažeš s glupim ponosom,
da sve što je lijepo kratko traje
i da je ovo joše jedna stranica romana koji
piše život,
da je sudbina kako mora bit,
a ne kažemo da sami zacrtavamo svoje puteve i staze,
a kojim putem krecem je ipak naš izbor...


Približiš li se vidjet ces iskru u mojim ocima,
dotakneš li me ucutit ceš drhtaj od tvog dodira,
predugo sputavana i zaustavljana ,
tebi se otvaram iskrena i stvarna,
vremenom zaustavljana da bi na tebe naišla.
Ja sam beskrajna rijeka,a ti mirna pritoka
Ja sam vjetar,a ti planina koja me umiruje.
Ja sam ona koja ti pruža ruku ,
nemoj me odbiti,
jer ja sam sva pretvorena u ovaj osjecaj,
ja sam ljubav,a ti nježnost i zaborav,
ljubim te nježno..nježno..
zovem te tiho i necujno..
cuješ li me..

*BIG GIRLS DON`T CRY*

The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight
Back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a
Child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps till
I'm full grown, full grown
Fairy tales don't always have a
Happy ending, do they
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a
Child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate
In the school yard
We'll play jacks and Uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my
Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and
Share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a
Child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry






*WICKED GAME*

The world was on fire, no-one could save me but you
Its strange what desire will make foolish people do
Id never dreamed that Id need somebody like you
And Id never dreamed that Id need somebody like you

No I dont wanna fall in love
This world is always gonna brake your heart
No I dont wanna fall in love
This world is always gonna brake your heart
..with you

What a wicked game to play
To make me feel this way
What a wicked thing to do
To let me dream of you
What a wicked thing to say
You never felt this way
What a wicked thing you do
To make me dream of you

No I dont wanna fall in love
This world is always gonna brake your heart
No I dont wanna fall in love
This world is always gonna brake your heart
..with you

The world was on fire, no-one could save me but you
Its strange what desire will make foolish people do
No and I never dreamed that Id love somebody like you
Ill never dream that I lose somebody like you, no

Now I wanna fall in love
This world is always gonna brake your heart
Now I wanna fall in lust
This world is always gonna brake your heart
..with you




*DO YOU KNOW*


Do you know what it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?

If birds flying south is a sign of changes
At least you can predict this every year
Love, you never know the minute it ends suddenly
I can't get it to speak
Maybe if I knew all the things it took to save us
I could fix the pain that bleeds inside of me
Look in your eyes to see something about me
I'm standing on the edge and I don't know what else to give.

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?

How can I love you?
How can I love you?
How can I love you?
How can I love you?
If you just don't talk to me, babe.

I flow through my act
There's a question: Is she needed?
And decide all the man I can ever be.
Looking at the last 3 years like I did
I could never see us ending like this.

Do you know?

Seeing your face no more on my pillow
Is a scene that's never ever happened to me.

Do you know?

But after this episode I don't see
You could never tell the next thing life could be

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?

Do you know?

Do you know what it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away?
Do you know, do you know, do you know, do ya?
Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?


*GOODBYE MY LOVER*


Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.


*APOLOGIZE*

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground,
And I'm hearing what you say,
But I just can't make a sound,
You tell me that you need me,
Then you go and cut me down, away,
You tell me that you're sorry,
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say

That it's too late to apologize,
It's too late,
I said it's too late to apologize,
It's too late,
(Too late)
Ooooooohhh

I take another chance,
take a fall, take a shot for you,
i need you like a heart needs a beat,
But it's nothing new, yeahhh yeahhh
I loved you with the fire red,
Now it's turning blue, and you said
Sorry like the angel,
Heaven let me think was you,
But I'm afraid

It's too late to apologize,
It's too late,
I said it's too late to apologize,
It's too late
I said it's too late to apologize,
(Too late)
I said it's too late to apologize,
(Too late)

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground



*NISI MOJ*

Vracam se iz tvojih snova
potucena do kolena
govoris da sam ona stara
a menjam se iz korena

U suzu me pretvori
kad ljubav krene unazad
al nikad ne dozvoli
da dozivim slobodan pad

Ref.
Nisi moj, odavno, nisi znam
i gledam kako mi kroz prste
klizis dan po dan
nisi moj, al pored mene si
i opet ona stara prica
posle tebe, ti

I posle tebe ponovo ti
i posle nas ponovo mi

Minut je do kraja sveta
tu u mojim ocima
ti uvijek mozes da se vratis
na mesto starog zlocina

U suzu me pretvori
kad ljubav krene unazad
al nikad ne dozvoli
da dozivim slobodan pad



*STOP DIMENTICA*

Uno sguardo che rompe il silenzio
Uno sguardo ha detto ciň che penso
Uno...uno guardo
Uno sguardo puň durare un giorno
La partenza senza mai ritorno
Uno...uno sguardo
E tutto ciň che so te lo dirň
E tutto ciň che non sai dire spiega il mare
Sento qualcosa di grande piů di questa cittŕ
E la bugia che rompe ogni silenzio
Č la bugia che dico solo se non penso
Ti prego non fermarti proprio adesso
Perché dopo non so puň...

stop dimentica
questo silenzio
non vale neanche una parola
né una sola
e quindiI...
stop dimentica perché
tutto il resto andrŕ da sé
dimentica perchč
dimentica per me

Una storia grande come il mondo
Una storia lunga tutto il giorno
Una...una storia
Una bugia di una parola sola
Č la tua piů affascinante storia
Una...la tua storia

stop dimentica
questo silenzio
non vale neanche una parola
né una sola
e quindi...
stop dimentica perché
tutto il resto andrŕ da sé
dimentica perchč
dimentica per me

stop dimentica
questo silenzio
non vale neanche una parola
né una sola
e quindi...
stop dimentica perché
tutto il resto andrŕ da sé
dimentica perchč
dimentica per me
dimentica..

E tutto ciň che so te lo dirň
E tutto ciň che non sai dire spiega il mare
Ti prego non fermarti proprio adesso
Perché dopo non si puň....

stop dimentica
questo silenzio
non vale neanche una parola
né una sola
e quindi...
stop dimentica perché
tutto il resto andrŕ da sé
dimentica perchč
dimentica per me

stop dimentica
questo silenzio
non vale neanche una parola
né una sola
e quindi...
stop dimentica perché
tutto il resto andrŕ da sé
dimentica perchč
dimentica per me

stop dimentica

non vale neanche una parola
né una sola
e quindi...
stop dimentica perché
tutto il resto andrŕ da sé
dimentica perchč
dimentica per me

...stop dimentica



*PERDONO*

Perdono si quel che è fatto è fatto io però chiedo
Scusa regalami un sorriso io ti porgo una
Rosa su questa amicizia nouva pace si
Posa perchè so come sono infatti chiedo
Perdono si quel che è fatto è fatto io però chiedo
Scusa regalami un sorriso io ti porgo una
Rosa su questa amicizia nouva pace si v Posa Perdono

Con questa gioia che mi stringe il coure
A quattro cinque giorni da Natale
Un misto tra incanto e dolore
Ripenso a quando ho fatto io del male
E di persone ce ne sono tante
Buoni pretesti sempre troppo pochi
Tra desideri, labirinti e fuochi
Comincio un nuovo anno chiedendoti....

Perdono.....
Dire che sto bene con te è poco
Dire che sto male con te è un gioco!
Un misto tra tregua e rivoluzione
Credo sia una buona occasione
Con questa magia di Natale
Per ricondarti quanto sei speciale
Tra le contraddizioni e i tuoi difetti
lo cerco ancore di volerti

Perdono.....
Qui l'inverno non ha paura io senza te un pò ne ho
Qui la rabbia è senza misura io senza di te non lo so
E la notte balla da sola senza di te non ballerò
Capitano abbatti le mura che da solo non ce la farò

Perdono.....