It's over :( I don't know why and why it went the way it did, one minute we were happy and all was well and the next it was the end. I feel like you've wanted this for a long time but just didn't have the courage to do it until now. I am sad and I didn't want to end everything so ugly but I know that in the long run it's probably much better than if it would continue.
I would love to have an explanation but I don't think that's ever going to happen. Now I just need to grieve and sort things out properly. I have so many other problems that need to be tackled so I will be busy and hopefully that will make it easier to forget.
Another proof that even numbered years are cursed for me, well I can just hope that 2013 will come quickly...