Prvo, sretna svima nova godina!
I sa zakašnjenjem, sretan 1. rođenadan mom blogu! (koji je bio 30.12.) :)
Kada se sada osvrnem na prošlu godinu, uglavnom su sve to lijepe uspomene. Ima tu i svađa, suza i ostaloga, ali to je zbilja neizbježan dio života. Ne znam zašto, ali nikad nisam bila osoba koji si je na početku nove godine sastavljala popis stvari koje ću ove godine napraviti. Možda sam trebala.
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Htjela sam da ovaj post bude neki veseo, optimističan, ali jednostavno ne ide. Nisam jedna od ljudi koje svoje raspoloženje uspiju sakriti, makar i samo pišući post.
Osjećam se jadno, strašno jadno.
I sram me je. Same sebe.
Zašto?
Mislim da je dovoljno reći da ponovno lik koji mi se sviđa ima curu.
Neću u detalje. Ova jedna pišljiva rečenica govori više nego što ću vam ja ikad moći opisati. Osobito ovaj dio ponovno.


Hey girl, is he everything you wanted in a man
You know I gave you the world
You had me in the palm of your hand
So why your love went away
I just can't seem to understand
Thought it was me and you babe
Me and you until the end
But I guess I was wrong

Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?

Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
That you were gonna make me cry
It's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find...

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around



Now girl, I remember everything that you claimed
You said that you were moving on now
And maybe I should do the same
Funny thing about that is
I was ready to give you my name
Thought it was me and you, babe
And now, it's all just a shame
And I guess I was wrong

Let me paint this picture for you, baby
You spend your nights alone
And he never comes home
And every time you call him
All you get's a busy tone
I heard you found out
That he's doing to you
What you did to me
Ain't that the way it goes

When you cheated girl
My heart bleeded girl
So it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt
Just a classic case
A scenario
Tale as old as time
Girl you got what you deserved

And now you want somebody
To cure the lonely nights
You wish you had somebody
That could come and make it right

But girl I ain't somebody with a lot of sympathy
You'll see

See?
You should've listened to me, baby
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Because
What goes around comes back around


Sad bi netko možda pitao, pa zašto te sram?
Hm. Ljudi bi očekivali da sam tužna, da plačem, da se čupam za kosu, lupam glavom u zid. Ali ne, ja sam samo jaaaaaaaaaaako ljuta na sebe i sram me sebe, naravno. Kako sam naivna. -.-'' Povjerovat da se nekom sviđam. Svaka mi čast.
Ovo nema smisla. Besmisleno ubijanje tipkovnice, koja zbilja nije kriva u cijeloj priči.
Svejedno ću staviti post, koliko god ne bi, jer tko zna šta će ljudi misliti.
Ako me želite upoznati, nemojte, ponovljam, nemojte čitati moje posteve (ovakve), ili barem nemojte graditi mene kao osobu na osnovu mojih posteva, jer kao što sam već jednom rekla, pišem postove da se negdje ispucam, da to u meni ostane negdje vani, daleko... Katkad pišem gluposti, katkad imam izljeve svakojakih osjećaja, a narjeđe imam normalni post. A trenutno nisam normalna. Jer se osjećam užasno. I nitko i ništa mi neće pomoći.
Vrijeme liječi sve rane.
Nadajmo se da vrijedi, i da ovaj put neće trajati koliko i prošli put.
Jedino mi nije jasno, čime sam to zavrijedila?
Kvragu, zašto se to uvijek događa meni.

pozdrav

P.S. Sad možda bolje razumijete prošli post. Možda.