sjetna dusa

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nedjelja, 07.08.2005.

I'm scared...
scared of what's gonna happen now....
scared of not wanting to stay with you....
loving the feeling of being single...
of not having to watch all I do and say...
you'll be here in less than 24 hours...
and then we go back to being the old us...

and I HATE IT!!!!!

I want it to be over....
I don't want to be with you...
I want you to leave me alone...
to stop calling me...to stop looking for me...
I want you to just disappear....

I don't love you anymore...
the only feeling that's between us is 'habit'
we're too used to being with each other not to be...
I think it sucks big time that you're coming back...
I don't like it...
but I want to see you...

I want to see if I'll feel anything when I see you walk through
those airport doors...and how will you feel?
UGGHHHHHHHHHHH
I wish that you had never gone, cuz then none of this shit
would've happened....
and now, I'm too fucking confused to even know what to write or do....

I wanna call you, but I'm gonna hate talking to you...
besides, I really have nothing to say to you....
This shit sucks ass...
and it's all YOUR fault...

I fucking hate you with a passion....

cuz I know that I am still unable to let you go....
and that I still Love you...and am gonna do
everything possible to stay with you...

and I hate even the simple thought of that!!!!

- 19:42 -

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