The devil inside

Ok. Trenutno se nalazim u jaaako čudnoj fazi svog života. Stvari napokon sjedaju na pravo mjesto, nemam se stvarno ni na što požaliti, a opet...Nadam se samo da će brzo proći jer iskreno, toliko je teško sada biti ovdje i u ovoj koži.
Bez ikakvog jasnog razloga konstantno mi se plače, osjećam se ko jebena marioneta, ko da nisam u stanju upravljati vlastitim životom. Guši me to...
Jučer mi je trebao biti stvarno dobar dan, dala sam mrcinu od ispita kojeg sam se bojala cijelu godinu, a ja sam bila euforična otprilike koliko i mrtva jegulja. Plakala cijeli dan. NIje bilo suza, ali plakala sam.
Cijelo mi se vrijeme po glavi vrtila jedna te ista srceparajuća pjesma, koja me uspijeva zdeprimirati i kad sam superturboful dobre volje. Mislim da o njenom jučerašnjem učinku stvarno nema smisla pričati.
Uglavnom, sama tematika pjesme nema nikakve veze s mojim semipsihotičnim stanjem, al nekak uvijek pogodi u bolnu točku... Izvodi ju David Ford, u principu nije nikak moj stil, al jebiga, nekaj i vraga uspije smesti...

I don't care what you call me

I never made time
You never made much sense
We never stood a chance
If we're honest

You were not the first
And I won't be the last
But if it makes it better
You can call me what you will

Get home late
No one's here
Pace around the house
Sit in my chair

And if you think of me
It doesn't mean a thing
Oh, why don't you just tell me
What you really think again

I don't care what you call me
Cause it won't hurt anymore

I know I let you down
And Christ, you let me know
Every time and time again

Just another afternoon
Get drunk and disappear
So call me what you will

Rain it on down
What else can you throw at me
I haven't heard before?

Tear me on down
I am unforgivable
So why don't you just tell me
What you really think of me

Scream me on down
I am so forgettable
Well, yes, I know

Shoot me on down
Don't you think this isn't killing me
It's no more than I deserve

I don't care what you call me
Cause it won't hurt any more...

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