I don't really like my life. It's full of lies. It's broken. I don't wanna be ME anymore. I have crappy parents, they are mad at me all the time. When my father found out that I was smoking, he beated shit outta me. I still smoke tho. Uhm, I'm really weird, I find my happines in guitar. Sometimes, I turn off the light in my room, and I light up a candle, and I just sit on my bed, close my eyes, and I play guitar for hours. Uhm, girls in my city used to like me back when I was cute, but now I'm just one short, ugly weirdo. Noone likes me. My life is fucking complicated. I wish I could just disappear. Everyone would be happy. I'm always fucked up. When I smile, I pretend. When I'm happy, I pretend. When I'm fucked up, I'm fucked up. I'm really emotional guy. Always depresses. I'm perverse tho, but I like being romantic more. I would rather have a girl, and love her, and respect her, then just fuck a girl and get dumped next day. Adis and Safet are my best friends, and my bros. I can tell everything to them, and I know that they won't tell my secrets to anyone. I hate myself, and my life. I don't like people at all, I like only my bros, and probably my sister (she is really annoying). I'm a lonely guy, and every day in my life is lonely day. Everyday before school, I got with Adi in a coffe bar near my house. It's called ''Ghost Rider''. That's the only place where I feel safe. Everyone is same as me there. Every dude in my class is a fucking idiot. And the girl too. The only girl in my class, and shee thinks she's a princess, well eat my dick bitch. I don't like 'em, they are all stupid. Except Safet, I mean he is stupid too, but he is my best friend. I hate when my dad gets on the computer and he playes ''turbo-folk'' music on youtube, and says to me that I have to lear to play that song on my guitar. Cmon dude. I can't play that shit. Rock only dude. But he doesn't understand me. My mom does. Because she listens to Rock n' Roll too. My parents don't believe in me, but I know that one day, I will earn money with my voice and my guitar. I'm an average student. Right now I am writing this in my school, because I'm so bored. I'm sitting alone now, and I'm so fucked up, I'm thinking about older Benjamin, Will I have wife, will I be rich or poor, what will I do, how will I look like? I can't wait 2 more years to move out from my parents house, to leave this fucking city also known as ''The city of stupid people'', but 2 more years, I will wait, it's worth of it. I'm looking at a picture of Adolf Hitler in Paris. Damn History. I hate it. I love only English class, and my English teaches likes me.. I think.. She is female!! WHy is my life so fucked up? I've just lost my friend because of fucking weed. He's my best friend and he smokes weed, and his parents found out that, so step by step, my parents found it out too, so now my parents think that I smoke marijuana too, but I don't, and they don't trust me. Okay, hmm. I don't really want this to be red by someone, but probably I will post it on ask, or on some kind of blog. So, whoever you are, and you are reading this now, thanks man. Because my arms hurts as hell! :( Peace out brother!
I am writing this like 3-4 days, and it's finished now.
Post je objavljen 21.02.2014. u 09:14 sati.