One year ago I "met" this guy ( "met" - couse we met online ), and he was perfect. We talked all trough the night and realised that we are very simliar so we kept talking for months to come. The more we talked the more we liked each other and in some time we started loving each other, I couldn't believe that I stared to love someone online becouse it is not me. I am the one who would always say that it is not possible to fall in love online. But this time it was true. We came to know each other and we were in love. We would get sad when we would remember that we can't thold hands, hug, kiss and what not. One day he stared to act like a jerk, he said he didn't want to talk for some time and that got me worried, I sent him more messages but he didn't answer and when he would he would just say that I am annoying and that he doesn't want to talk... I was so sad and worried, I wanted to know what is wrong but there was no way for me to find out other then him telling me. He never did... We came to the point when he said he didn't want to talk to me ever again, and now I feel like I lost it all. I do love him and he knows it but doesn't realise how true and strong my feelings are. I promised him that I would come to him as soon as I could but we both know that that is maybe in 2 years, and to him that is too long to wait. He said once that one day with me would be the death of him becouse he would want me to stay forever and that is not possible and that one day would kill him. Once, sorry not once more times, he told me he loved me, he told me I was the most beautiful and awesome girl in the world, one day he used google translate to tell me that he loved me in my language ( that was the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for me), and I can't help myself to wonder is that the same guy, the one who was so nice, so sweet, the one I love and this one, to who I am annoying, who doesn't want to talk to me ? I think the one I love is burried deep inside becouse he got hurt by someone and now he doesn't trust anyone, not even me, the who he allegedly loved. I hope that when I come to him, when I finally see him in person that he will find himself again, that he will be the one I love. Until then I can only think of him (what I do every day, I even dream about him). Now I can only hope, maybe one day we will finally be together, couse when I lost him I lost it all... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_stEdcZbhMk
Post je objavljen 17.05.2013. u 10:51 sati.