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I've been offline for a bit because my computer died. Of rather Windows decided to have a malfunction and the registry got corrupted. I've tried everything I know to do with no luck. One of my co-workers came through and gave me one of his old computers so right now I'm in Pentium II hell. But hey at least I can get online and read e-mail. Unfortunately what that means is I'm unable to edit my pictures and stuff until I can figure out how to get the other computer running without losing all of my stuff. I was in the middle of backing everything up when it crashed. Luckily I was able to save this one before my Linux drive crashed as well. But the other pictures that go with the group were not so lucky. Oh well.

I've been having too many wtf !@#?! moments lately. More than the usual I think. I always find it curious what people seems to think about me, or rather how that see me. For the life of me I don't really know where some of this stuff comes from but it ranges from really dark to "wow, really?". More often than not I am extremely private and have been actively trying to work on it. So I'm always surprised at the responses I elicit from people. I must not be doing a very good job if I keep mentioning that I'm trying. Heh, heh.

I've had friends comment on the fact that I write a lot with my photos rather than letting my pictures talk for themselves. Yeah, that may be true a little. Sometimes it's just about working out an idea in my head, but sometimes it's more about markers to where I've been more than anything else. There are days when I do the same in my life where I'll just talk and talk. But then there are other days where I'll barely utter 5 words. The latter happens, unfortunately, More than I care to admit. Recently I had a co-worker tell me that talking with me was like having a one-sided conversation because I'm not always responsive. I get that lecture a lot but I think people aren't really paying attention to the fact that I'm actively listening to what they are saying and trying to process. What they really want is a debate I have found. I tend to run from those types of conversations because more often than not they tend to be more emotional than informational. I guess it's just one of my things. I've been told that I have issues.

It's interesting to me how people will treat you based on what they think about you. I had someone tell me once that they were glad that I was born. "I'm glad that you were born". Do you know how powerful those words are? Even my own mother has never said anything resembling that to me. I think I'm more of an embarrassment to her sometimes. But she definitely wishes I was more "Obedient". LOL Not going to happen! I have a history of being surrounded by inflexible people. I also have a bad tendency to cater to other people to make them more comfortable at my own expense. I haven't figured out what lesson I'm supposed to be learning here but it happens often enough that I probably need to pay better attention to figure it out.

Often I am my own worst critic and I have been told that I need to be kinder to myself. But isn't that true for most people? I actually had two people that were worse to me but I had to get them out of my life> I couldn't really see it at the time, but after my life became less complicated without them in it I was able to see many things. These people that I let into my life have no use for me unless I fit into whatever they think I am. Rarely do they see me as a person, let alone my own person I think. Crazy.

I don't know if I mean anything by all of this. It's just where my heads at right now. A lot of random stuff that I'm trying to sort through. I tend to get more introspective the closer to Winter it gets. I've always been that way for as long as I can remember. With a pending family trip to Atlanta in a couple of weeks I have more on my mind than usual. I care about my family deeply but I can't be around them for too long if that makes sense. Too many issues I think and there is this unspoken thing about how they all treat me different. Yeah. Anyway, I imagine being in a car that long with my mom and her sister is going to be a bit of a challenge. Who knows...

Sorry, I tend to ramble sometimes.

Posting something completely different....

The American artist Chuck Close, photographed his subjects first and then copied them in paint onto large..make that HUGE canvases...his goal was to make the paintings resemble a photograph as closely as he could...this is a finished canvas of his friend Frank...

When I was at the Mpls. Institute of Arts and saw how many people stopped and looked....and stayed, I knew I had to capture this iconic scene.

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(MARCH 30: Last week or so I've 'sunk below the surface'......finally bought new lens today after much research and making my local camera store mentor either love or hate me with my many questions, learning CS5 and Lightroom (great buy on the two), need to buy an external drive, and cull/organize better my photos)....and starting the online class I purchased awhile ago......so I'm slowing down on flickr a bit, but will catch up with you folks, groups, postings as I'm able....take care of yourselves in the meantime, and I'll be popping in to see what you're doing....big hugs to you:)........Pat

PS: After looking over Lightroom and viewing some tutorials I think how much simpler iPhoto organization is.....but I've decided to make a transfer (am now shooting in RAW only) with my new photos to LR>external drive....the drive which I still need to purchase. At this point I'm still sticking with Canon, new lens for my XSi....EF-S 2.8 17-85mm.....30 day trial period.....not going to buy a new camera yet.....just making a sideways move:).......am thinking I will go 2.8 70-200 with 2x teleconverter (400mm) for wildlife....2.8 will go up to 5.6 w/teleconverter.


Btw I LOVE CS5.....easier than PSElements in my opinion as far as I have used it although Camera Shop Mentor says that what I'm doing in CS5 for basic editing, I can as easily accomplish in Light Room....maybe so and use CS5 more for creativity....anyone have thoughts, opinions on this?