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Today was tiring. Today was fashion show and Erika and I were emcees. Did hair and makeup, everything went well.

After, mom picked me up and went to try out my prom dress again so they can alter it. Its baby pinkish. Then my mom went to color her hair next door in the salon. I just went upstairs and just sat and think about stuff. Yeah, I like to just sit and wonder whats up with me. I'm a wanderer ha.

Then I decided to sleep in the car while waiting for my mom. I was still in my hair and makeup from fashion show haha so I felt very icky. It was already 530pm when I woke up and went home. Had to take shower and went back to the high school with my mom for this Senior Project meeting.

So in order to get BOE recognition like summa cum laude, magna cum laude, cum laude, valedictorian, we students must complete this Senior Project which is making a portfolio and presenting it to a panel of judges.

I'm just surprised to see how much I came through in the long way. Like always, my mom lectured me in the car on the way home...yeah my GPA dropped to 3.97 from 4.0. She ALWAYS does this after we have any school meetings. She compares me to my other friends and how dissapointed she is. Frick, they don't know whats it like to be me. I know I did alot more than my parents and even the teachers when they were in high school. I'm sure their classes weren't as hard as the classes my peers and I are taking. Even though it seems this generation is easy for us with technology, its much complicated than that. This generation is harder because with all these new ideas and concepts we have to go through.

After being all overachiever and having this reputation on me, its so effin hard. So much pressure and so much people expect out of me, they don't know whats it like to be in my position. Even my close peers are experiencing this, I'm not the only one. I already had my breakdowns this month and frick, its hard. It's only junior year, and I can't imagine how Senior year will explode the boulder on me.

I wish I could tumblr, but I can't for my sacrifice to Lent. I hate this pressure. I hate for being involved so much. I hate how plenty people know me because of my academics and stuff. I hate how people look up to me and expect me to be this kind of robot, a perfectionist. I hate the classes I'm taking right now. I'm struggling and breaking down slowly . I hate it.

Now I must say today's proms are a far cry of what we had in my days. Pre-prom party, long dresses, professional makeup and hair, matching accessories, like my son's tie to his girlfriend's dress, limos, hotel rooms, post parties. Quite a production!

The pre prom party is a big affair, where families are welcomed to see their sons and daughter's off to the prom. It's actually a great idea, as you get to see them all dressed up and see their freinds. This year's pre-prom was at one of the biggest farms in our region, where over 500 people gathering for the festivities.

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