Recently, I have come to the earth shattering realization that the closer one is to attaining the age of forty the more one begins to value their own life and livelihood in general. Although I am quickly approaching the “ever dreaded” mid-forty mark I am fully aware that time is running out for me. Everything and everyone meaningful to my existence becomes significant to the third power divided by two. As I have mentioned in previous posts I have come to grips with my own mortality and I now .