I had a conversation about this with someone - about this feeling: life is passing you by, you don't have enough time to do what really counts (well those of us schmucks who work for a living LOL) and so you dream of doing something else, getting off the beaten track and so on and so forth.Well, I worked hard to get where I am, (the memory is still fresh in my mind - I chopped and changed a bit before I got my job I have now) but I think some people forget, after many years of boredom in life, how hard they worked to get that job, relationship, or whatever, and they fantasize about having a different life, when it just takes some extra brain effort to block out those feelings and concentrate on the now.I learned something valuable one vacation. I went on a vacation out in the country. (my granny's old house) The hedges were beautiful, not much traffic on the roads... well there was a fair amount, but the countryside was so unspoiled still that it was easy to imagine that there wasn't a soul for miles around. Anyhow, do you know where my parents live now? Out in the country as well, and I drive past lovely countryside when I go visit them. So I had a few moments of imagining that I was on vacation, with the scenery that exists at home. It takes mental effort, but it's fabulous.All that being said, it's Christmas eve, and I'm taking a couple of hours to reorganize my songwriter's messy sheaf of papers to see if I can organize what I have, and start making rough recordings - with no interruption of work or chores (if I wait long enough, the stores will all close MOO HOO HA HA) and still some time to go see the folks tonight. It feels amazing to finally be settling down to work with my music and get it all organized. Fact of the matter is I really don't have enough time to do all teh crap I want to do, but you can't torture yourself with "ah this sucks" type of feelings. I am going to try to book some of my vacation days as an odd Monday or Friday here and there, just to get caught up on stuff and get some mental relief from the stress of it hanging over my head.
Post je objavljen 09.12.2009. u 02:55 sati.