Lemme just write a brief note, i'm enjoying the evening with Natas and the music on the TMF. Natas is just preparing a joint, the first one i'm not going to be able to resist.
I finally bounced today, and I want to thank everyone on the comments that were posted on my blog in recent two weeks (since last i've paid a visit to it).
S-man, i feel you must be someone who knows me in real life. once all this shit is over i hope you will tell me who you are. You say the right things, they make sense (expect for smoking, i've tested myself here rather severely, and trust me i exercise very scroupulous discretion when i'm gonna allow myself a joint -- only when i'm in a good mood). It's tempting to write a long overexplanatory post about whether or not "i did this all to myself". In some ways, you're right -- i was a complicit (suucesnik). My trust in all humanity was (and still is) so shaken that I often choose to open myself unconditionally to any person that i feel deserves it, continuing to issue "maledictions" (invocations of evil) against myself. I'm just so ashamed of how whining a weakling i've become that i feel everybody is so fucking bored of me, including my friends and relatives. I know that i can always turn to them, i'm just keeping them for when the water really threatens to take me under.
/// Svima zahvaljujem na komentarima, mnogo mi znace. Loona, jesil ti ona cura iz amsterdama, beogradjanka koja slika one impresivne slike 'zenskih portala u vjecnost' (da ih tako nazovem). Outofblue, s tobom bih volio i privatni e-mail razmijeniti. Moje prokletstvo je da sam po prirodi sklon introspekciji i samo-analizama. Ignorance is bliss, to osjecam kao jednu od vecih istina, kao sto je Bernard Russell rekao: problem sa svijetom jest taj da su pametni puni sumnji u sebe, a glupi su puni sebe. Za mene nije dobro (uostalom, za nijednog muskarca /osobito/ nije dobro da nista u zivotu ne radi, nego da ima svo to vrijeme da promislja svoju zlu kob. Samo kad bih uspio uspostaviti neku rutinu u zivotu, to bi mi mnogo znacilo. Pokusat cu naci neki intenzivni tecaj nizozemskog da ga konacno ispeglam. Ovdje sam u mnogo cemu svjesno zelio ostati anonimac, ali vrijeme je da se to promijeni, ako si zelim ikakvu buducnost promisljati u ovoj vrlo 'urednoj' drzavi...
HVala vam svima. NAdam se da ce uskoro doci vrijeme kad ce ovakvim cmizdravim postovima odzvoniti i doci novo vrijeme leprsavoj, perceptivnoj ptitchitzi koja zna uzivati u zivotu....
Hey, Natas, I didn't press the left-shift key not ONCE tonight, i really rock (when i rock!), don't you already know it well?
Thank you all, cari amici.
Hvala vam svima!
Post je objavljen 31.05.2008. u 23:27 sati.