Dok ovo pisem, kapaju mi suze. Ne, one ne teku mojom voljom. Same izlaze iz mojih ociju. Samo beze. Idu od mene. Ni one me ne vole.
Vec 2 dana, razrednica mi prebacuje sto sam bezala. Da, ja sam jedan od ucenika sa najvise neopravdanih ove skolske godine. Ali, sve je to zato jer mrzim svoje odeljenje ....sada, kad se napokon osecam prihvaceno u njemu, onda mi ona sere. Smanjena mi je jos jednom ocena iz vladanja. Losa sam u skoli. Ici cu na razredne ispite. Tako mrzim ovaj zivot ...i onda, odem kod starog(jednom u sto godina)da mi nesto objasni, a on se izdere na mene ...skola je kriva. Skola me unistava. Ceo ovaj zivot. Moj je zivot bio savrsen dok nisam posla u skolu. Volela sam zivot, i da veselo jurcam zelenom livadom u potrazi za sarenim leptiricima. Sada, vise nije to to.
Zasrala se stvar sa Damirom, kojeg volim vise nego sto srce to zeli da prizna. Safet je poceo da prodaje drogu. Emir se povlaci u sebe. Moja Aida je jedina pomalo srecna, ali je dosta ...promenila se. I ona i Helena su. Zakaj se sve to meni desava?!
On top of the roof,
The air is so cold and so calm.
I say your name in silence,
You don't wanna hear it right now.
The eyes of the city,
Are counting the tears falling down,
Each one a promise,
Of everything you never found ...
Da li imam nekog tko ce reci moje ime u mracnoj, praznoj tisini?
I scream into the night for you,
Don't make it true,
Don't jump,
The lights will not guide you through,
They're deceiving you,
Don't jump,
Don't let memories go,
Of me and you,
The world is down there out of view,
Please don't jump ...
Imam li nekoga tko ce mi reci: Ostani tu, trebas mi! Ukoliko pozelim da skocim?!
You open your eyes,
But you can't remember what for,
The snow falls quietly,
You just can't feel it no more,
Somewhere out there,
You lost yourself in your pain,
You dream of the end,
To start all over again,
Ovako se osecam svakog jutra kad se probudim.
I scream into the night for you,
Don't make it true,
Don't jump,
The lights will not guide you through,
They're deceiving you,
Don't jump,
Don't let memories go,
Of me and you,
The world is down there out of view,
Please don't jump ...
Jos jednom se pitam: Hoce li biti sa kojim imam zajednickih uspomena? Hoce li ga biti da me spreci da skocim?
I don't know how long,
I can hold you so strong,
I don't know how long ....
Hoce li biti ikog da me snazno obgrli rukama, da mi ne da da skocim?!
Just take my hand,
Give it a chance,
Don't jump ...
Hoce li biti ikoga da me moli, preklinje ...da ostanem sa njim? Tu gde sam, jer sam mu potrebna ...?
I scream into the night for you,
Don't make it true,
Don't jump,
The lights will not guide you through,
They're deceiving you,
Don't jump,
Don't let memories go,
Of me and you,
The world is down there out of view,
Please don't jump ...
I da zakljucimo na kraju ...ne, nece. Skocicu i bicu samo jos jedna depresivna, anonimna tinejdzerica koja nije mogla da podnese zestoke napade zivota ...
Tokio Hotel-don't jump.
Post je objavljen 08.05.2008. u 22:42 sati.