some time ago i met a person.
that person just happend to be of the opposite sex and we happend to end up together.
during our time together i got to know this person, and found her to be the most beautiful person i ever met and most probably ever will.
afler a while i fell in love with her and watched her fall in love with me.
she bacame my reason to get up in the morning...to eat...to breathe...to live...everything i did, i did for her and so did she for me.
for a long time we were truly happy, and i will remember the time i had with her as the the most shining moments of my life.
after some time a dark cloud crept over us and we parted ways as lovers and agreed that we will be friends.
for a day i was happy.
then certain things happend and i was lost...lost and afraid.
and as i stud on the edge of my destruction i talked with her and she pulled me back and saved my life...nothing changed between us...we where still just friends...but i changed...and soon i realized that if i was looking for the guilty i needed only to look in to a mirror.
and i still cant eat nor sleep...and i miss her more than i thought it was possible.
there is a question that i asked her not to hear the answer but to let her know how i feel...i already knew the answer...but that coulden't stop me from hoping that there was hope.
but there is another question to wich i am trying to find the answer.
all my common sense is telling me to let her go...to try to forget everything she ment to me and learn to love her in a different way...and i love her enough to do that.
but everythig i feel in my hart is telling me that she feels the same and if i begged for her forgiveness she would take me back...and i love her enough to do that.
she is still the reason i get up in the morning and her happyness is all that matters to me now.
the queston i'm trying to find the answer to...the question that is going to keep me up all night is do i listen to my common sense or my heart...because i know in my heart that if she knew how i feel, if she knew how sorry i am for every time i made her feel bad and how much i hate my self for every time she didn't feel like she was loved that she would forgive me.
i'm still lost and i'm still afraid...afraid of the answer...and i only hope that in time i will find the courage to find the answer because there is a gigantic void inside me that a simple and honest hug could fill...and for every second that passes and i still don't know the answer i feel her slip just a little bit out of my life...and if i let her slip away...i will die.
Post je objavljen 21.02.2007. u 00:30 sati.