"Dear heart,
i met a boy today. Prepare to shatter"
HA! thats so fucking true! i think i have a problem. I get to attatched WAY to quickly and thats mostly when the feelings are never returned. but when they are returned before i know how i feel, it confuses me and i dont understand until its to late. And one thing that pisses me off is people saying "Well if you dont go for it you wont know, you need to try things if you dont you'll go no where" Well get this fucking straight as i have said MANY times BE-FUCKING-FORE!!!!! I have tried in my own pathetic attemts and it has ALL ended in fucking pain and i will not let myself go through it again. Yeah if i try it may end up good, but i dont know that and i'm NOT-FUCKING-READY to put myself on the fucking line again! the next time i am hurt like that i know it wont be good, i cant stand it. Every time a peice of me shatters and i can't get that peice back, soon i'm going to run out of peices and then i'm going to be an empty fucking shell so fuck it and fuck you!!! stop telling me what to do and how to do things. I know good and fucking well you dont mean be the way i see it and your only trying to help, but i cant stand being told what to do about it when i am unbelieveably scared to put myself out there. It hurts just to think about doing it. As much as i long for a relationship i am afraid of them because i dont want to hurt others and i surely dont want to get hurt.
Post je objavljen 26.08.2006. u 10:26 sati.