27.09.2005., utorak
[LINK=http://calvin.blog.hr]Happy
I'm sick.
I'm sick of this sad excuse for an existence. I'm sick of this corrupt, rotten world. I'm sick to my bones of the people that make it work, that fuel the fires of hate and fear which cloud our collective judgement. Sometimes, I'm even sick of life. There, I said it.
For you see, the only people who know anything about life are the people who constantly and endlessly complain about it. I'm sure all of you already knew that, and I confess that I really am an idiot who didn't have any idea about this great cosmic fact, up until now.
I've had more than my fair share of problems. I'm no stranger to the bad side of life. Hell, I'm more at home there than in this momentary respite that I enjoy now. But the trials I faced and the demons I slayed haven't made me bitter and angry. They didn't make me lose focus. Nothing can do that to me. Nothing at all. They did the total opposite actually. They strengthend my resolve. They enforced my character. They made me a better person. You can't let your mistakes define your life. You can't be stuck in the past. Life is a beautiful mix of pain and joy, and to ignore either of those aspects means devoiding yourself of life's true meaning.
Optimistic people are often labeled as too carefree, too light in approaching life, too... careless. Please don't do that to us. Don't belittle us just so that we can fit in your narrow perspective of what life is and should be. Don't lash out at us in ager and resentment just becouse we found a balance between the light and the abyss. Our view of life isn't the best, but it certainly isn't the worst. Don't take it upon yourself to judge us. Just becouse you lost your ability to laugh and enjoy the silly little things, doesn't mean you discovered the ultimate truth. It just means you grew up. The bad way. Keep in mind that smiles sometimes hide the deepest scars.
I like to help people. Not becouse I'm some altruistic saint, but for the simple and selfish reason that it makes me feel good. I also like being happy. It's not always easy, but nothing worth doing is. Being happy makes helping people easier. Makes making them happy easier. Come to think of it, being happy makes pretty much everything easier. It'll make the things you like doing easier too. Don't enclose yourselves in cages of your own making. Don't let the negative things in life stick. Focus on the positive. Friends, family, sunshine. A good book. A pet. Whatever you want. Whatever makes you happy.
Don't be afraid of hope. Hope for a better job, a bigger flat, a soulmate. Hope keeps you going. Keeps you young inside. Where it counts. Don't exclude hope from your life. It gives it flavour. So what if sometimes you get dissapointed? That's life. Can't win 'em all. But you sure as hell can try.
I'm sure some of you (and by "some", I mean "all") are wondering what the hell is up with this English thing. It's only temporary, I assure you. Just felt like it, to be honest. For quite some time now. A quaint little blog pushed me over the edge and into this post. You know who you are. Keep up the good work. :) Come next time, it'll be just plain old Croatian again. Have fun. I know I will. [/LINK]
autor napisanog iznad: calvin
autorica napisanog ispod: tatjana
ma, ne znam zashto me se ovo doimalo,kada sam od ustajanja cynic bitter and twisted i bljujem vatru na svakog ko mi kazze neshto.
a drugu polovinu dana provela sam plachucci nad hallmarkovim lifecanbecrueltouseventhoughwearegoodbutthereisgod filmovima.
da, da, drugarica anksiozna depresija is visiting. ali upravo sam se vratila sa yoge i pokushavam da ispravim sranja ovog dana. poljubila mamu, poljubila tatu, nazvala srdu, nazvaccu chedu, poslaccu poruku ccelavom. ne mogu ga kriviti shto se ne trudim da mi zzivot krene nekim od pozzeljnih puteva i shto mi ne ide vecc jako, jako dugo. i shto su mi se iluzije rasprshile i razmazale i obljutavele, i dosadile, bre.
or can i?
shala, shala. prihvatam odgovornost.
hit mantra danas, sutra i dokle god mi ne udje u grudi.
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you did not text him right? (marijana 28.09.2005. 08:29
Post je objavljen 27.09.2005. u 15:12 sati.