detalji su jedini bitni..
ona i on
Upoznali su se u subotu uvečer u mračnom dijelu disco kluba i razmijenili
brojeve telefona. U ponedjeljak ju je on nazvao i neformalno pozvao na kavu
u utorak u 8 na rivi. Spuštaju slušalicu...
ONA
28 i po sati prije sudara
Zvao je, jebote, zvao je!!! Zove najbolju prijateljicu i melju četiri sata
treba li ici kod frizera, kod pedikera, fakira, psihologa i na barem tri
plastične operacije.
Urla na telefon od adrenalina sve dok je otac (koji od nje ne uspijeva
zaspati) ne počne daviti krvavih očiju.
Priča s mamom do tri ujutro o tome kako je tata dok joj je pjevao serenadu
u Malom Mokrom Lugu pokisnuo i dobio šarlah i još mnoštvo vrcavih
porodičnih tračeva.
Noć provodi besano, hipnotizirajućim pogledom gledajući u ormar ne bi li
joj se 'ukazala' garderobna kombinacija.
Ujutro D-dana odlazi u grad i kupuje potpuno novu odjeću jer je zaključila
da ništa u ormaru nije dovoljno dobro.
10 sati prije sudara
Šizi zbog podočnjaka (pobogu, otkud sad oni, a tako se zdravo hranim?!) i
provjerava što joj nedostaje od šminke. Trči do obližnje parfumerije po olovku
za oči koja će joj pasati uz torbicu.
Olovka je 3 cm veća od torbice pa je sakati očevim kombinirkama i zasere
nove krem hlace koje su joj do te sekunde bile savršene. Ide po nove.
Na putu kući shvati da su joj ispucali vrhovi; placć frizerki duplo da je
primi preko reda, a kad je već upala, stavlja i farbu koja joj ide uz te
pramenove.
Kupuje usput i novi parfem, iako mu tete u radnji još nisu ni cijenu
napisale.
5 sati prije sudara
Počinje s donjim rubljem. Izazovno - ne. Otkačeno - ne. Postupak se
ponavlja kao kod pasijansa, kada otvorite sve karte pa probate ponovo.
Grudnjak joj ipak ne paše uz bluzu. Plače i maskarom zasere hlače. Poluluda
uzima mamine iz njenog ormana.
3 sata prije
Pere se, depilira, striže zube, kida desni. U kadi je 30 centimetara debeo
sloj raznih soli, kiselina, ljekovitog sljunka i izumrlih skoljkaša. Čupa
obrve, puši, uzima cigaretu sa pogrešne strane, psuje, grize na svaki
pokusaj ulaska u kupatilo. Otac od muke piša u kriglu.
1 sat prije
Dobiva mengu i zasere hlače. Skviči, frkče i skida s mame zadnje pantalone
u stanu. Svi joj se miču sa puta jer sije smrt gore od
sifilitičara-triperasa radikala sa hiper-gripom.
10 minuta prije
Poliva se miomirisima, trlja pazuhe borićem iz auta i shvaća da se
zaflekala parfemom po hlacama. Lupa glavom o volan i pokupi bus.
15 minuta poslije termina
Stize na dogovoreno mjesto. Ugleda ga i pomisli: 'O, Bože, kako je lijep!!'
ON
3 sata prije sudara
Gleda TV i čačka nos. Pokusava se sjetiti sta se dogovorio za večeras.
Usred misaonih napora, nježno se gladeći po jajima, shvaća da nije mlatio
majmuna vec dva dana jer se u subotu tako zapio da je tek jučer donekle
došao sebi.
Nakon drkanja se ipak sjeti da ga večeras očekuje kava s jednom od dvije
ženske od subote, kojima se ne može sjetiti ni face, a kamoli imena, ali je
u nedelju našao broj našvrljan na podlaktici.
2 sata prije sudara
Odlazi gladan u kuhinju češkajući se po jajima, kad tamo na stolu čvarci,
slanina i luk. Razmišlja dobre tri sekunde ima li se smisla žrtvovati, a
onda fino posoli glavicu.
Obilatu večeru zaliva sa dva piva i podriguje silinom osrednjeg nilskog
konja, sve dok pobjesnjela mater ne uleti u kuhinju.
Žica mater 100 kuna.
Mater ni ne pomišlja da mu da.
Objašnjava materi da ima novu trebu i da bi joj kupio neki cvjetić i
poklončić.
Mater ganuta vadi 40 kn i počne pričati kako joj je tata '56. donio na
sastanak pet ukradenih crvenih ruža, pa ju je htio poljubiti, ali je došao
vlasnik vrta s grabuljama, pa su morali bježati, pa još od tada ima kurje
oko.
Ne dočekavši kraj dobro poznate sage, bježi mahnito iz stana do kafića.
Kupuje pljugu i dva piva od materine love te u kafiću odgleda kraj tekme.
Pola sata prije sudara
Dolazi kuci i suočava se sa vječnom dilemom, tuširati se ili samo oprati
jaja?
Gleda skraćeni snimak druge ženske lige zapad u malom nogometu na pijesku
za veterane invalide i zakljucuje kako ionako sutra ima mali nogomet, pa će
se znojiti te nema smisla da se cijeli pere.
Nevoljno ode zaprati kitu.
Dok desnom rukom perucka onu stvar, lijevom uspjesno rusi sve četkice za
zube u lavabo. To očigledno užasne mater koja je upravo dosla da izvadi veš
iz mašine pa ukopana zbunjeno zuri u prizor pred sobom.
'15 minuta prije
Sjedi na krevetu, vadi čarape ispod kreveta i njuši one koje još uvijek mogu
poslužiti... dok gaće ipak ne mogu. Mogu jedino nekoj gatari i
forenzicarima.
Kreće, ali na vratima mu se prisralo, a to se ne propusta. Grabi Sportske
Novosti, češka se, prducka i meditira sve do zadnje strane.
15 minuta nakon termina
Dolazi na mjesto sastanka igrajući đepni bilijar. Ugleda je i pomisli: 'A,
u kurac! To je ona s manjim sisama.'
novocaine*
Izjeda me, izgaran iznutra. Pokušavan kontrolirat misli bježući od toka svijesti. Pokušavan bit drugačija, suzdržanija. Teško je. I onda dođe dan koji je prije 21 godinu bija nekolicini ljudi jako zabavan i ispunjen. Neki su plakali, neki vikali, neki se opijali, a neki pak nabijali telefonski račun u nadi da će se i ostatak kruga obradovat. Šireg kruga, naravno. Ko da mi je danas sve dopušteno. Iako, deep inside, znan da nije. Vikala san danas na dvoje ljudi koje volin. Bez razloga. Bez razloga san vikala, volin ih s razlogon. 'pače, iz više razloga. Ne znan jesan ih povridila. Ili možda rastužila? Nisu mi to dali do znanja. Možda nisan. A možda su i navikli na moje 'razmažene-ja san centar svita-prilagodite mi se svi' ispade. To nije dobro. Navika stvara monotoniju. Monotonija baca u depresiju. Depresija vodi do suicida. Ne želin uništit divnu, prekrasnu mene. Rekla san prekrasnu? Hm.. tila san reć savršenu. Savršenstvo ne postoji. Znači li to da i ja ne postojin? Ili ne smin bit savršena?
Dužnost zove. Must go.
*Novocaine is a local anesthetic often referred to as procaine. It is used on a wide variety of nerve blocks. It is most commonly used by dentists, when they are pulling out teeth. And it is also used in surgeries so that the patient will not feel any pain while being operated on.
cyclic creation
Nine months in that squishy womb
Nine months without seeing light
Nine months in complete isolation
And then you're finally kicked out
Life was created on that special day
Life was born on a hospital's bed
Life was made in the back of a car
And a creature is here to be fed
Everybody's crying and laughing
Everybody is happy 'cause of you
Everybody wants to touch your skin
And thee just weeps for milky boob
Tears are forced to come when you're out
Tears will follow wherever you go
Tears might make your heart jump
And others will cry when You die, though
Death is to come before you know it
Death makes the circle go round
Death is what's waiting all of us
And there's no point running around
No point believing in reincarnation
No point lying to our own souls
No point making it easier
Because we are all the same
six feet under;
skeletons ate by worms.
osmijeh
Today, give a stranger one of your smiles. It might be the only sunshine he sees all day. ~Quoted in P.S. I Love You, compiled by H. Jackson Brown, Jr.
A smile confuses an approaching frown. ~Author Unknown
People seldom notice old clothes if you wear a big smile. ~Lee Mildon
A smile is a curve that sets everything straight. ~Phyllis Diller
Smile. Have you ever noticed how easily puppies make human friends? Yet all they do is wag their tails and fall over. ~Walter Anderson, The Confidence Course, 1997
The world always looks brighter from behind a smile. ~Author Unknown
Start every day with a smile and get it over with. ~W.C. Fields
Before you put on a frown, make absolutely sure there are no smiles available. ~Jim Beggs
A smile is an inexpensive way to change your looks. ~Charles Gordy
Wrinkles should merely indicate where smiles have been. ~Mark Twain, Following the Equator
The robbed that smiles, steals something from the thief. ~William Shakespeare, Othello
A smile is the light in the window of your face that tells people you're at home. ~Author Unknown
If you smile when no one else is around, you really mean it. ~Andy Rooney
If you smile at someone, they might smile back. ~Author Unknown
Always remember to be happy because you never know who's falling in love with your smile. ~Author Unknown
Everyone smiles in the same language. ~Author Unknown
If you don't have a smile, I'll give you one of mine. ~Author Unknown
I've never seen a smiling face that was not beautiful. ~Author Unknown
Wear a smile and have friends; wear a scowl and have wrinkles. ~George Eliot
She gave me a smile I could feel in my hip pocket. ~Raymond Chandler
A smile appeared upon her face as if she'd taken it directly from her handbag and pinned it there. ~Loma Chandler
A laugh is a smile that bursts. ~Mary H. Waldrip
If you don't start out the day with a smile, it's not too late to start practicing for tomorrow. ~Author Unknown
Smiling is my favorite exercise. ~Author Unknown
Wear a smile - one size fits all. ~Author Unknown
No matter how grouchy you're feeling,
You'll find the smile more or less healing.
It grows in a wreath
All around the front teeth -
Thus preserving the face from congealing.
~Anthony Euwer
Every day you spend without a smile, is a lost day. ~Author Unknown
Everytime you smile at someone, it is an action of love, a gift to that person, a beautiful thing. ~Mother Teresa
A friendly look, a kindly smile, one good act, and life's worthwhile. ~Author Unknown
A kind heart is a fountain of gladness, making everything in its vicinity freshen into smiles. ~Washington Irving
Beauty is power; a smile is its sword. ~Charles Reade
A smile is the universal welcome. ~Max Eastman
Keep smiling - it makes people wonder what you've been up to. ~Author Unknown
You're never fully dressed without a smile. ~Martin Charnin
It takes seventeen muscles to smile and forty-three to frown. ~Author Unknown
Of all the things you wear, your expression is the most important. ~Janet Lane
All the statistics in the world can't measure the warmth of a smile. ~Chris Hart
If you would like to spoil the day for a grouch, give him a smile. ~Author Unknown
Peace begins with a smile. ~Mother Teresa
A smile is a powerful weapon; you can even break ice with it. ~Author Unknown
Smile costs nothing but gives much. It enriches those who receive without making poorer those who give. It takes but a moment, but the memory of it sometimes lasts forever. None is so rich or mighty that he cannot get along without it and none is so poor that he cannot be made rich by it. Yet a smile cannot be bought, begged, borrowed, or stolen, for it is something that is of no value to anyone until it is given away. Some people are too tired to give you a smile. Give them one of yours, as none needs a smile so much as he who has no more to give. ~Author Unknown
It takes a lot of work from the face to let out a smile, but just think what good smiling can bring to the most important muscle of the body... the heart. ~Author Unknown
sve je supeeeeer
Kako je dobro
Kad si na vlasti
Jer Vlasta je bogata
I Vlasta te časti