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petak
ožujak
2006
all i care about is you and me, and us, and now
so my boyfriend seems distant. he has been very quiet around me lately and kind of moody. he hasn't been very affectionate but he hasn't been cold towards me either. i am at a loss. i am slighty annoyed by his presence and yet i long to be around him all the time. i really don't feel the need to be around anyone lately and i don't really want to do much of anything. i feel drained and i think i might be rubbing some of that negative shit off on him. i feel like he is bored with me. like he doesn't need me anymore, or maybe he doesn't love me anymore. i hope to God that he loves me. i think i would die without him. but then i stop and think, well he is going to just end up going back to canada anyways, why not forget it. but he claims that nothing will change. i hope it won't. i don't want to lose him. but i feel like he is slipping away. maybe i am the one who is slipping away....
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srijeda
ožujak
2006
SO its been a while
alrighty guys.
so it has been like forever and a day since i have written on here and let me tell you lots has changed. i have been making a lot of changes in my life that are very drastic...
i am no longer going to be at st francis i will be attending northern illinois university next year and i won't be playing volleyball anymore. which is kind of sad but you know me i will get over it. i have been dating my amazing croatian boyfriend for almost six months now, and i love him more than anything in the world!
I am going to get a new job this summer and i will possibly be in Zagreb in late june to early july, i think, but highly doubtful this summer. i have been going to a therapist to help me deal with the numerous problems i have been having with my mom and she is helping so much. i love her. mom and i are starting to do better so thats cool.
I have lost a few friends in the past few months to stupid shit. stupid shit like tons of back stabbings and lying...they suck anyways so i don't care anymore. and i have been teaching myself how to speak croatian. which isn't really working but my boy is trying to help sp thats cool... i am so much happier than i have been in the past year that it is not even funny.
well thats about it here so i guess i shall be going for now. much love to y'all!!!
pusa ;)
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