all i care about is you and me, and us, and now

so my boyfriend seems distant. he has been very quiet around me lately and kind of moody. he hasn't been very affectionate but he hasn't been cold towards me either. i am at a loss. i am slighty annoyed by his presence and yet i long to be around him all the time. i really don't feel the need to be around anyone lately and i don't really want to do much of anything. i feel drained and i think i might be rubbing some of that negative shit off on him. i feel like he is bored with me. like he doesn't need me anymore, or maybe he doesn't love me anymore. i hope to God that he loves me. i think i would die without him. but then i stop and think, well he is going to just end up going back to canada anyways, why not forget it. but he claims that nothing will change. i hope it won't. i don't want to lose him. but i feel like he is slipping away. maybe i am the one who is slipping away....