Dude!

lol no i am not going to talk about boobies! hehe

i am pissed off like no other! I can't take the way my friends are treating me lately. They don't want to fucking hang out with me or even go to the same places i do. they ditch me when i ask them for a ride, they ignore me, don't return my calls and then tell me oh well we couldn't see you or i am way too busy for you but i'll make time for her instead. and to top it off my mother fucking boy ditched me too. I hate this.....

What the fuck did i do to deserve this treatment??!?!?!??!?

SUMMER IS OVER

Good Times With Jessica!



And Angie and Crystal too.....



School Starts today I have class in exactly 40 minutes.....

Damn how time flies....

ahhhh

I am soooo tired.....

the neverending story....

so it is thursday August 18th....

Volleyball has been going on for almost a week now and it sucks... I mean the team is looking totally awesome this year but everything else just sucks. I feel like I am playing horrible and that I am just not in shape enough to even be here. but it is okay..i shall survive I always do.

I got myself a boy so to speak. My mother thinks he is just s rebound from erik, but i really like frank. he is sweet and nice and funny and tall and hot and we can talk about anything. and he really cares about me.

In other news...

I am tired and I need to get to practice in like 20 minutes... so I shall write more later...

PUSA <3 Me

so yeah

so yeah Carolina is back and I am soooo HAPPY!!! I missed her like so fucking much I can't believe it!

I am tired from volleyball and I am ready to sleep now.

Friday I got a ticket for being in a bar under age and Saturday I slept from 7 o'clock until 10:30 this morning. I am dead to the world.

I have been so sore and tired from volleyball...and I don't even have the strength to write. But when classes start next monday I will write you guys all about my ticket and everything else.

Pusa ;)

o yeah

Carolina is home!!!!!!!

Will write back later....

PUSA :)

Turn the Radio loud, I'm too young to be proud...

**Ah the infamous POP TART**



[]The breakfast of CHAMPIONS[]

Have you ever stopped to really look at things? To really think about things, realistically? Have you ever wanted to do something, be something, BETTER?

I know I most definately have. I have always wanted to be just 10 pounds lighter, or a little bit more tan. I have always wanted to be liked by everyone.

But then I stopped and really looked at things. The people I wanted to be 'better' for where supposed to be the beautiful, popular, prissy bitches. But they were only popular because people gave them attention, so I decided to ignored them. They were only beautiful because others said they were, I thought most of them wore way to much makeup. They were always prissy, and almost never anything but bitchy.

Then I realized something. I was trying to impress them because I wanted to be 'popular'. Which is a dumb ass idea. Why would I want to be a bitchy, pot smoking, cigerrette smoking, beer gusling, slut? Because they were drunks, potheads, sluts, and major bitches! And I was none of those things. God high school sucked for me. But then there is college....

And I just realized that I am two out of those four things. A cigarrette smoking, beer gusling bitch. But oh do I have a lot of friends! NOT!! I have three real girl friends and four real boy friends. I have no boyfriend currently because I don't sleep around and I feel like a huge failure. Nothing mattered to me more last semester than to drink, drink, smoke, drink, party, drink, smoke, drink, and drink. I almost flunked out of school. and I am on scholarship too. Which sucks for me if I ever get caught drinking. I could lose everything. But that didn't matter because I was something better than I had been in high school. I wasn't chubby anymore, I was tan (thank you tanning booth) and I was doing what everyone else was doing. And now I feel like shit. I let my mother down, disapointed my father bigtime, and my brothers say they don't even know me anymore.

SO I am putting out a huge amount of advice for you guys. Don't do it. Don't drink and drive, because you think it will make you seem cooler. Don't smoke, because now I can't quit, it is so fucking hard. Don't be what everyone else wants you to be. Fucking be yourself and let them see you for you. Let them decided whether they like the real you or not. Don't pretend to be something they would like just to get them to be your friends. Because realistically, they would probably like the real you much better.

I learned that the hard way. And that is why I only have seven friends. And some of thme don't like each other but they all like the real me and that makes them friends. My personality is what brough them together. If it wasn't for me introducing them my best friend and her current boyfriend wouldn't be together. And then I would have never met my other best friend. As for the guys. They all love to hang out with the tomboy side of me. We play pool and watch footbal and baseball. It is great. Because that is the real me. Even though my bestest guy friend in the world loves the Sox and not the CUBIES! He still likes me because I didn't lie and say hey I love the Sox :::as she gags herself with a spoon::: just so he would like me.



[]Well that's all folks[]

PUSA ;)

Let me run with you tonight, I'll take you on a moonlight ride...

[]Let's see where to begin?[]

.....::::Friday kicked ass, I love the Gin Blossoms!::::.....
[]Saturday was fun, nothing exciting happened[]

***Sunday, BAR-B-Q with the family***
...:::YUMMMMM....Cheeseburger!:::...

[]Monday, went to see the ex, not good times[]

...:::But I am sure we will work things out, we always do:::...
***Don't cry for a man who's left you, the next one may fall for your smile***

[]Tuesday. Met a very nice guy, who used to date an ex-friend of mine. But I hate her now[]

...:::She and I never got along and then she decided to be evil so now I don't like her at all:::...

.....::::He is a nice guy, I have no idea why he went out with her::::....

[]Wednesday. My headhurts[]
***It is immoral to get drunk because the headache comes after the drinking, but if the headache came first and the drunkenness afterwards, it would be moral to get drunk***
....::::I thought that was a funny quote. Though drinking is not why my head hurts. NO more drinking for me, I haven't had a beer in a long time::::....
[]My head hurts because of my damn tooth[]
***But I shall survive***

....::::I am very thirsty today::::....
**Don't know why, seeing as I didn't drink. Perhaps the cigarrettes made me thirsty?**
[]Oh well[]

....::::That is all I have for no folks::::....


P.S. I like this picture it is funny!!! hehehehe