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2005
~*I was Thinking*~
I was thinking; perhaps you are all wrong for me.
I was thinking; perhaps it was never meant to be.
I was thinking; perhaps I never really liked you anyway.
I was thinking; perhaps it's better to be just friends.
I was thinking; perhaps it will be better in the end.
3-29-05
Life can be so sad.
It can hurt so much.
People can be so cruel.
And it's not fair.
But that's the way it is.
Life can be so cold.
It can change at a seconds notice.
Things may never be the same.
And it's not fair.
But that's the way it is.
12-2-04
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24
nedjelja
travanj
2005
broken hearted
i'm not gonna lie
your the reason why
i cry all the time
i'm not gonna lie
your the reason why
i want to roll over and die
i'm not gonna lie
your the reason why
i cry all the time
4-24-05
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2005
I'm not gonna lie
I’m not gonna lie
You are the reason why,
I’m happy all the time.
I’m not gonna lie
you are my morning sky,
I rise only to see you.
I’m not gonna lie
You are my only guy,
The one for me, it’s true.
I’m not gonna lie
You are the reason why,
I’m happy all the time.
4-7-05
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14
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2005
Happy all the time
That makes me happy, happy all the time
You make me laugh, laugh all the time
That makes me smile, smile oh so much
You make me feel beautiful, beautiful enough
That makes me happy, happy all the time
You make me feel wanted, wanted all the time
That makes me smile, smile oh so much
You make me want you, want you just enough
That makes me happy, happy all the time
You made me yours, yours for all time
That makes me smile, smile oh so much
You made me yours, and yours is enough
4-7-05
Here Bugenvilija, this is my most recent poem about my boy Cory. I hope you enjoy it. I hope everybody else likes it too. I normally don't like to put my poems like this out so people can read them, i am a very peresonal person. But I am happy all of the time and you guys should know why. I like that I can share my happiness with you all.
Well I guess I shall be going. PUSA <3
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11
ponedjeljak
travanj
2005
MONDAY, What can I say?
Let's see where should I begin?
Well, let's start with the boy situation. I finally have found myself the most perfect, amazing, sweet, intelligent, crazy (just like me) guy in the world. His name is Cory. I met him like a month and a half ago at our bar. We stayed out until 5 am talking and having an amazing time. Then, he left to go to Florida for Umpiring School. (He is training to be a major league baseball referee/ umpire). But we talked on the phone everyday since then. We always end up talking for hours about the craziest things. Last night I called him at about 9:30 pm and we didn't get off the phone until about 12:30! He comes home from Florida tomorrow!! I can't wait! He said we are going to go out and have coffee. Once again I can't wait. He is the hottest guy I think I've ever met, he has the sexiest voice ever and the cutest little laugh. He is 6 feet 5 inches tall, blonde hair, I think blueish green eyes, perfect tan, and built like no other. I am so happy everytime I get to talk to him. He told me that I make him happy and that he can't wait to see me. Which makes me even more happy. I really like him a lot and I'm hoping to GOD that I don't ruin this. Because I would cry forever. But yes, currently Cory is my boy, MINE ALL MINE!!!! And I couldn't be happier!
Now, let's discuss the amazing, wonderful, I don't want a relationship right now boy, also known as Max. Max and I are currently friends. I have no idea how he is taking the whole situation with me and Cory because I don't really talk to him that much anymore. I told him a few weeks ago that I just wanted to be friends and I apologized for freaking out on him that one time (even though I kind of had the right too!) And now I barely see him and I hardly ever get to talk to him. I miss hanging out with him. We used to have so much fun just hanging out and listening to music and talking for hours. But it's okay because now I can talk to Cory for hours. Well, yeah that's what is going on with the boys.
I am doing rather well in school these days. I am kind of stressed out because school will be done in just over two weeks!!!!!! And I have a butt-load of papers to write, but it's okay I'm sure I shall survive. I love school and I am going to miss people when I don't get to be here everyday. :(
I was fighting with my mother a lot for awhile, but things have simmered down and we are getting along. She tends to yell at people a lot and I am normally the one getting yelled at. But we talked a few things out and now we are doing just fine and I am very happy. I love my mommy!
Jessica has gone absolutely crazy. She is hilarious nowadays. She has transformed herself into a mean insane little girl. She has stopped being with Joe and since then has been completely cruel to every guy that talks to us. She actually, NO LIE ON THIS ONE FOLKS, poked a guy in the eye. He was just messing around and we were all teasing each other when suddenly she told him that if he didn't shut up she was going to poke him in the eye. Well, he decided to make a smartass comment anyways, thinking (I'm sure) that Jess wasn't going to poke him in the eye for real. Well, she looked at him and said, "That's it!" And proceeded to poke him in the eye!!!! HA HA HA! :) She has gone mad I tell you. She has no fear it seems like. She doesn't care what anyone says to her or about her. She is happy with the way she is and SOOOOO much better off without the asshole Joe. I am very happy for her.
NOW, Carolina....
She was already crazy! (LOL Volim te sweetie!) She was 'talking' if you want to say that to this guy that we shall call Albama. Well, the other night he was being all lovey dovey with her as he usually was, but then on Friday ha completely ignored her. Which wasn't cool. He then proceeded to leave with two girls. Which made her very mad! (AND ME TOO) Well, one of the girls he left with was my friend Nikki. So I called her yesterday and asked her what happened. She told me that he was afraid to tell Carolina that he didn't want a girl friend right now. You see every single guy that he hangs out with has a girlfriend. And they were all pushing him to go out with her and calling her his girlfriend all of the time. Which really freaked her out because she didn't want to be his girlfriend she just wanted to have fun talking to him and making out. That's it. Well, Nikki told Alabama that he needed to call Carolina and tell her that because knowing her she never thought that anything like that was going to happen. Which is true. So they got that pretty much straightened out. And I am glad. But he didn't have to just ignore her like that. He is lucky I didn't beat his ass big time. He is not a skinny guy he is pretty buff but I am sure I could take him! Well, yeah that's what is going on there.
I really can't think of anything else to tell yous guys right now, so I guess I shall be going.
PUSA <3
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07
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2005
LOVE <3
Love Me
Love me in the Springtime, when all is green and new,
Love me in the Summer, when the sky is oh so blue,
Love me in the Autumn, when the leaves are turning brown,
Love me in the Winter, when the snow is falling down.
Love me when I'm happy, and even when I'm sad,
Love me when I'm good, or when I'm oh so bad,
Love me when I'm pretty, or if my face is plain,
Love me when I'm feeling good, or when I'm feeling pain.
Love me always darlin', in the rain or shining sun,
Love me always darlin', after all is said and done,
Love me always darlin', until all our life is through,
Love me always darlin', for I'll be lovin' you!
- Amanda Nicole Martinez -
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ponedjeljak
travanj
2005
Our Father
In nomine Patris, et Filii, et Spiritus Sancti.
Pater noster, qui es in caelis,
sanctificetur nomen tuum.
Adveniat regnum tuum.
Fiat voluntas tua, sicut in caelo et in terra.
Panem nostrum quotidianum da nobis hodie,
et dimitte nobis debita nostra,
sicut et nos dimittimus debitoribus nostris.
Et ne nos inducas in tentationem:
sed libera nos a malo. Amen.
We will miss you! <3
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