Nothing is real...


I wait in this place - where the sun never shines
I wait in this place where the shadows run from themselves


Malo pražnjenja nakon duljeg vremena…
Sjedila sam i promatrala i pokušavala ući u te tako daleke misli njihove ali ništa nisam ubrala jer njihovi cvijetovi bijahu bez latica…hodala sam dalje pokušavala se zaustaviti međutim nema te siline koja bi mene smiriti mogla, nema tog pogleda koji bi me mogao fiksirati, a da ne skrenem…pogled. uvijek sam to radila bili ljudi poznati ili ne. bile duše daleke ili bliske…i sad stojim na nekoj prekretnici…ponovno i trebala bih zakoračiti ali ne mogu se odlučiti između vratiju na čvoru ovog tako pomahnitalog carstva raznoraznih pogleda, osluškivanja unutar vlastite psihe, podsvijesti, čega već… mnogo već noći nisam usnula spokojno, mnogo je dana prošlo i mene grižnja savjesti i dalje peče nakon svake pogreške u tom tako dobrom uništavanju. Svjesna sam svega, možda čak i previše, možda tu leži taj problem, ali neke stvari nisam u stanju definirati što me dovodi do ludih analiza bez završnog poteza kistom. Proklete metafore već me i one nerviraju…

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Sa druge perspektive stvarnosti
Kad zrcala utihnu svoje vriskove
Dahčem ka novim dverima
Iskoristih sva nastojanja
Usavršavanja kontrole nad materijom
Usnula sam previše svjetova
Dotaknula previše podzemlja
Sanjam u mrtvilu
Poimanja postojanja
Sama.

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Neke stvari je tako teško definirati jer već kad ti to i pođe za rukom pojave se nove totalno izvrnute i opet ostajem u pitanju te traženju odgovora i nema kraja nema ga jednostavno mir u mom svijetu ne postoji…koji je to svijet uopće? Je li stvaran? Ili si opet umišljam? Izgubljena u mislima koje ne mogu prestati rađati…valjda jedina stvar koju mogu dovršiti…ili ipak ne?
Lyricsi ispod izvađeni su iz nekih pjesama i govore više od nekih mojih napisanih riječi.

I fear my heart and fear my soul
Life goes on it surely will

Without me I wonder
Will I ever see light again?
Will I ever see light again?
Life goes on

Just open up and see
Forget what you've been told
I'm existing hopelessly
'Cause I can't reach the sun


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Darkness covers me
My soul has yet to long
I'm looking for serenity
'Cause I can't reach the sun


I can't describe the pain I feel
Outside it's dark inside it's cold
The sun still shines bright
But its time is short

It's freezing hearts
It's freezing souls
Soon icy shades will cover all
It pretends to be alive

It hurts to hold all the pain I feel
The bitter harvest of a dying bloom


samo u snovima postojim potpuno
samo snovi daju mi snagu
samo zamišljeni svjetovi drže moje tijelo
samo moj bolesni um neda mi da budem u potpunosti razumna
umorna sam od potrage
umorna od nastojanja
umorna od života

i kad razmišljam o srednjem vijeku gdje bilo bi mjesta za borbu
ja se ne bih mogla suočiti sama sa sobom

17.07.2007. u 08:29 | 5 Komentara | color in your head | # | ^

war is here make your stand!


"A čega se vi bojite gospo?", upita je on.
"Kaveza", odgovori mu ona. "Da ću ostati iza rešetaka dok navike i godine ne učine svoje, i dok ne izgubim zauvijek svaku priliku i volju da počinim velika djela."


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Before I thought I was dreaming
A strange voice whispers in my ears
You're the rat in the trap
Return, pain will come to you


Sumanuto ispadanje kristala iz zjenica
Iscrpna nadogradnja šupljih tvorevina u sjećanju
Beskonačna grižnja savjesti zbog postojanja
Stalna izmjena praznih šumova vremena kroz ludilo

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Više moje postojanje nije tako lako objašnjivo
Više neizbrisiva volja nema kandže kojima bi me grebla
Ostala sam zarobljena u praznini prokletih sati u svijetu
Kojeg više nemam snage gledati jer me svaka sekunda tjera
Na podrhtavanje unutar koraste sfere neuništivih tragova vaše prisutnosti

Krivo je bilo vrijeme kad si me ispljunula majko u ovaj svijet
Nema mjesta gdje bih mogla boriti se
Zbog neprimjetnosti i bezvrijednosti vlastite psihe
U klupku sunca čekam ruke koje ću stvoriti kako bih se oslobodila sama sebe

Was it really me
I saw in the mirror screaming
I swallowed hate and lies
Through a thousand cries
Someone's sucking out my energy


BLIND GUARDIAN-Follow The Blind
BLIND GUARDIAN-Welcome To Dying
IRON MAIDEN-Childhood's End

I'm a stranger to myself
and I cannot control


02.07.2007. u 15:49 | 3 Komentara | color in your head | # | ^

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