petak, 02.02.2007.
čini mi se da je ovo još jedan osjećajni post ili tak nekaj, molim vas pročitajte jer možda će vam jednom dobro doći...
aj, vrijeme za prvi post u novom mjesecu... danas nisam baš nekak happy, s početka sam bila, al sad sam cijela gotova, nikakva... posvadila sam se Jurom, a nemam pojma zakaj. nekad se s ljudima bezveze posvadim, a super su mi i onda mi je na kraju žal i ne znam kaj da radim pa sam na kraju u badu i nisam sposobna pričati s drugim ljudima...
sad mi je užasno žal i ne znam kam bi se stavila... no dobro, sama sam si kriva za to. moja "najbolja prijateljica" mi još uvijek neda mira i dođe mi da joj takav šamar stisnem tak da skuži da ju ne podnosim. nek se makne više od mene. neću biti bezobrazna i neugodna i onda ne znam kak da joj pokažem da ju ne podnosim.
nikad mi neće biti žao što želim prekinuti i tu zadnju nit koja nas veže... primjetila sam da sam se u zadnje vrijeme jako promijenila, očito me sve to kaj mi se događa promijenilo, ali dobro se nosim s tim. mislim, na koga ne bi tolko stvari utjecalo... ponovno ludo zaljubljena
, ali opet moralo je biti tu i nešto loše, znači prekidanje "prijateljstva" s Anom
, strgana mama i još puno toga. postala sam strpljivija, ali ipak lako planem, sve mi je smiješno, ali ipak postoje stvari koje me lako rastuže, stalno sam bolesna, svega mi je žao, pokvarila sam se u školi... u svemu tomu činim se nekak izgubljena... i sad kad razmišljam o svemu tomu osijećam se glupo i čudim se sama sebi kolki sam idiot, ne znam zakaj... no ima tu i dosta dobrih stvari zbog kojih mi je ugodno i toplo oko srca. ojačala su mi neka druga prijateljstva (kao npr. s Katarinom i Marijom...), neke stvari mi u školi idu puno bolje i puno me više toga zanima, počela sam razmišljati o posljedicama svega onoga kaj hoću napraviti, naučila sam iskreno voljeti i poštovati... i još jedna malo važnija stvar u kojoj sam se promijenila. u ljudima više ne gledam samo dobre stvari i ne zanemarujem loše kao i prije. ipak mi je to s Anom i malo pomoglo. sada pazim kome ću podariti ono najvrijednije što imam, ljubav i prijateljstvo i u ljudima vidim i loše stvari i razmišljam kako će to utjecati na mene. ljudi promijenila sam se, u meni se probudilo nešto odraslo što me i ne spriječava da budem dijete i da uživam dok još mogu. to nešto je odraslo i pomaže mi, ne odmaže. postala sam iskrenija prema ljudima i sve im kažem u lice da me netko ne bi krivo procijenio i mislio da sam loša osoba. spremna sam pružiti pravo prijateljstvo, kao i prije, ali tek sada onome tko to uistinu zaslužuje... i onome tko je spreman meni to vratiti. možda se nekad se neki ljudi ne čine kao osoba koja bi mogla biti pravi prijatelj, ali svatko može biti pravi prijatelj samo kada to želi i onda kad to jednom isproba uživati će u tomu. ali često ti ljudi naiđu na nekoga kao ja na Anu, nekoga tko nije spreman pružiti pravo, iskreno prijateljstvo i to ih jako povrijedi i oni potonu. zato im kažem, nedajte se, sjetite se da za svakog postoji pravi prijatelj i ako ga još uvijek niste našli, nastavite tražiti možda će to biti netko za koga ste najmanje vjerovali da vam može biti prijatelj. a vi koji imate takvog prijatelja ne dozvolite mu da potone do dna, nego dignite kao pravi prijatelj i budite uz njega u svakom trenutku jer će vam jednom sve to vratiti. nemojte dozvoliti da se utopi u boli i da više nikad ne dozna za sreću, ako ga uistinu volite i ako biste dali sve za njega vi ste pravi prijatelj. na svijetu postoji mnogo takvih ljudi koje suprijatelji vratili na staro i koji su danas sretni, ali postoje i oni koji su potonuli jer se nisu borili i zato što nisu imali prijatelja uz sebe. ako ne želite tako završiti nemojte se predati, nemojte klonuti, i dalje tražite pravog prijatelja. naći ćete ga, a ja vam držim fige... istinsko prijateljstvo je nešto najlijepše što vam se može dogoditi u životu (prijateljstvo i ljubav su tu negdje), a pravi prijatelj je najlijepši dar kojeg možete dobiti. nikakvi skupi pokloni, zlatnina i šta ja znam ne mogu baciti u sijenu pravog prijatelja. zato, potrudite se da nikad ne izgubite svojeg prijatelja, pokažeite mu koliko ga volite i on će vas cijeniti i uvijek će se boriti za vas i vaše prijateljstvo jer ste to vi dvoje gradili. gradili ste to prijateljstvo jako dugo i dosta ste patili zbog toga, ali lako ga je srušiti kao kulu od karata i zato uvijek vjerujte svojem prijatelju, a ne nekom drugom tko vam želi uništiti prijateljstvo...
true friends are hard to find harder to leave and impossible to forget...
to bi bilo sve, pusa 
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na poljima od snova ne pušta se korijenje...
Malo pjesmica...
Red Hot Chilli Peppers - Snow (Hey Oh)
Come to decide that the things that I tried were in my life just to get high on.
When I sit alone, come get a little known
But I need more than myself this time.
Step from the road to the sea to the sky, and I do believe that we rely on
When I lay it on, come get to play it on
All my life to sacrifice.
Hey oh... listen what I say oh
I got your hey oh, now listen what I say oh
When will I know that I really can't go
To the well once more - time to decide on.
Well it's killing me, when will I really see, all that I need to look inside.
Come to belive that I better not leave before I get my chance to ride,
Well it's killing me, what do I really need - all that I need to look inside.
Hey oh... listen what I say oh
Come back and hey oh, look at what I say oh
The more I see the less I know
The more I like to let it go - hey oh, woah...
Deep beneath the cover of another perfect wonder where it's so white as snow,
Finally divided by a word so undecided and there's nowhere to go;
Inbetween the cover of another perfect wonder and it's so white as snow,
Running through the field where all my tracks will be concealed and there's nowhere to go.
Ho!
Went to descend to ammend for a friend of the channels that had broken down.
Now you bring it up, I'm gonna ring it up - just to hear you sing it out.
Step from the road to the sea to the sky, and I do belive what we rely on,
When I lay it on, come get to play it on
All my life to sacrifice
Hey oh... listen what I say oh
I got your hey oh... listen what I say oh
The more I see, the less I know
The more I like to let it go - hey oh, woah...
Deep beneath the cover of another perfect wonder where it's so white as snow.
Finally divided by a word so undecided and there's nowhere to go
Inbetween the cover of another perfect wonder where it's so white as snow
Running through the field where all my tracks will be concealed and there's nowhere to go.
I said hey hey yeah oh yeah, tell my love now.
Hey hey yeah oh yeah, tell my love now.
Deep beneath the cover of another perfect wonder where it's so white as snow,
Finaly divided by a word so undecided and there's nowhere to go.
Deep beneath the cover of another perfect wonder where it's so white as snow...
Running through the field where all my tracks will be concealed and there's nowhere to go.
I said hey oh yeah oh yeah... tell my love now
Hey yeah yeah... oh yeah.
Green Day - Wake Me Up When September Ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends
like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are
as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends
summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends
ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when september ends
here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are
as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends
like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
Billy Talent - Fallen Leaves
In a crooked little town, they were lost and never found
Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves... on the ground
I hitched a ride, until the coast
To leave behind, all of my ghosts
Searching for something, I couldn't find at home
Can't get no job, can you spare a dime?
Just one more hit, and I'll be fine
I swear to God, this'll be my one last time!
In a crooked little town, they were lost and never found
Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves... on the ground
Run away before you drown, or the streets will beat you down
Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves... on the ground
When it gets dark, in Pigeon Park
Voice in my head, will soon be fed
By the vultures, that circle round the dead!
In a crooked little town, they were lost and never found
Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves... on the ground
Run away before you drown, or the streets will beat you down
Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves... on the ground
I never once thought, I'd ever be caught!
Staring at sidewalks, hiding my track marks!
I left my best friends, or did they just leave me?
In a crooked little town, they were lost and never found
Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves... on the ground
In a crooked little town, they were lost and never found
Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves... on the ground
Run away before you drown, or the streets will beat you down
Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves... on the ground
Run away before you drown!
Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves... on the ground
Run away before you drown!
Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves... on the ground
Ja sam...
