I died, and nobody seems to have noticed. Nobody seems to have notice the dislocation of my identity. Who has seen, who has recognized the new, vampire-like me? Only when you are dead you become capable of understanding the true depth of human estrangement an guile. Only a corpse bride can recognize her own unintentional lies, her farce, her sweet, decaying existence. If you had really known me while I was alive, you would have smelled the rotting flesh of what was once moi.
Imagine how you would feel if you died and nobody noticed. You would be a walking corpse, your putrid stench would ate its way through only one pair of nostrils. What's the point of living if nobody notices that you have died? It's really hard to walk around all dead and smelly and nobody realizes that your organs are like mash potato and your brain is somewhat liquidized. Nobody wants that crap. It really sucks when you say hello to someone and blood is oozing from your ears and that certain someone doesn't seem to heed the blood.
If you try the quick solution, post mortem, you will be very disappointed. There's no use doing things which are out of character, because nobody knew your character when you were alive. Yes. Dying without anybody noticing is real merde. You have to do something in RL. Nothing works, not post mortem. You have to do something before your skin is covered with myriad, fleshy wounds. Hurry up! Chop-chop.
Go out there and let someone meet you. Let someone know who the fuck you are. Meet the hell out of someone. Allow someone to sink inside your being and capture its disturbing essence. Just let the fuck go. Let go. It will be easier for you, later, if you die. Someone will notice then. If you let go, your death will be acknowledged.
Don't W.A.S.T.E. time. Let go. Someone will be at the bottom of the abyss to catch-22 you. I promiss.
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