31.01.2006., utorak
good bye lennin...
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depresivna sma i grlim jastuk,jer mi jastuk predstavlja njega,i predstavljao je u svim onim nocima kad sam plakala zbog njega...zamisljala sam da su to njegova prsa i njegova ramena koja grlim....i sad to zamisljam po zadnji put...nema vise...osjetim kad je ncemu kraj,a ovome je kraj...jednom zauvijek... on je negdje vani sa djevojkom koja je i psihicki i fizicki identicna meni(ja sam ofarbana ona nije,mozda je u tom stvar :roll: ) ,a moji prijatelji su vec sitit ove moje price,tako da ja prekidam s ovim sta god da se desi!sta god! skontala sam da je problem bio sto smo previse dobri prijatelji,a kod ove djevojke je drugacije,niko je ne zna,iako im i ne uspij nema veze,niko nece biti previse povrijedjn niti ce se unistiti jedno super prijateljstvo... a dok on (nesvjesno ili svjesno,ne mogu sa siggurnoscu reci) trazi djevojku(tj.nasao je vec) nalik mni,ja idem u rkajnost i nasla sam lika totalno drugacijg... svako to prolazi na svoj nacin... Iako ovo mozda glupo zvuci,ovim sto nismo zajedno sam shvatila da mu je ipak stalo do mne,da me i voli,smao ne onako kako bih ja zeljela...tj. javno... ne voli on mene smao kao sestru,prijateljicu,i moze mi pricati ko sta hoce,ja to osjecam,ali bilo mu je tsko znati sta ja osjecam prema njemu i to isto meni nemoci pokazati... no sad je gotovo.... grlim jastuk i slusam fade into you-Mazzy sisters i pustam zadnje suze koje cu pustit za njim... ujutro c ebiti kao da nista nije bilo...tesko ce biti,ali ce i to brzo proci,znam sebe... |
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28.01.2006., subota
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eto u posljednja dvajsčetri sata... prvo,otisli u kino,gale,emo,zoe i ja.. gale se nabacuje zoe,oboje su moji prijatelji i upoznali se na mom rodjusu,i haj...gledali narniu...pukli od smjeha...ne,ne,film mi je super,mislim ne genijalno odlican,nego super zanimljiv,al mi smo samo umirali od smjeha,provaljivali,glupirali se,a gale hvala Bogu ima svakakvih ideja...dodje lik,pita jel nas sivi bmw,a gale pita emu da nisu zamjenili naseg stojadina...elem,ne mogu vam pricat sta je provaljivao(sta smo provaljivali) ne bi vam bilo ni zanimljivo a kamoli smjesno kad ovak ocitate...elem,nakon toga otisli u slogu,bila svirka,unpluged plug... trebali tek oko pola jedan krenut,kad emo rece da trba u deset krenut zadnji bus mu u jedanaest a nece stari da dodje po njega,jer je on zapalio gepek neki dan u svom autu...no nije bitno...zovnem ja starog,dodj po nas oko jedanaest,i tako...al mi je stari ispo glavni tu...ova dvojica se presrali,mislili da ce im praviti problma(ko sta ce njih dvojica sa mnom samom....),a inace i ja sam se malo plasila,jer je moj stari npredvidim...zna bit dobar ko hljeb u jendom momentu u drugom bi te zaklao...elem...bio je super fin prema njima...i hajd vozimo se mi,kad vidim ja neki likovi u audiu karavn neki noviji...mozda je cak A3 nisma dobro vidjela-mi opel vectra ... i sve ono ko trkali bi se s nama...ja starom..."ovi bi se vamo trkali izgleda",stari:"trkali jel?!" na gas tamo vamo(klizave ulice)oni prestroje u nasu traku,stari na brzinu prestroji u drugu,semafor.crveno.zuto.zeleno.fijuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu...hahahah...ostadose za nama,hahahahahaahahhahaha!!!meni osmjeh do bascarsije, a ona dvojica nazad se uhvatili za sjedista...hahahhahah... elem,kazem starom da je glavni ispo,a vidim drago mu,a i meni drago...odavno nismo nesto uradili zajedno...i danas smo burazu malom pricali o tome... elem... danas trebala ici nesto,nije bitno sta,ne da mi se pisat...ugl. jednog nacelnika ispitivat,krenem ja i stignem do gore,i skontam sta cu beze 2 staa sjediti tu,kad ga nemam sta pitat8nemam nikakve veze s njima,a ima dovoljno drugih tu)i fino produzim rpavac teatar-puno!,marquee-puno!,trasa-jedva nadjem mjesto...neke tri cure su po pravilu trebale tu sjest,i htjele su,al ostadose sekundu da se pozdrave s nekima,i ja hop sjednem,kontam u sebi 'zao mi je.jaci prezivljava,jel',izvadim knjigu,cigare i meracim...javim haverici da navrne po disketu jednu za maturski,tako brbljale bezveze,jedan sladak plavi tip nam trazio cigaru,ja ga nista skontala nisam,i gledala u njega ko tl u sarena vrata,tak kad sam vidjela da haverka vadi cigare iz torbe skontala sma sta je pitao,sretnem lika kojeg sam sinoc upoznala,koji nam je sredio mjesta u slozi(krcato bilo...sta vam je ljudi ovih dana,javili da se odgadja skola pa odmah pojurili da proslavite?!ccc),treba mi jaran iz italije stici oko pola pet,al nije zbog velikog snjega u italiji(kaze da mu j dosta vise i italije i svega :D ),dodjem kuci na mirc...a o tome cemo sutra il kad stignem,da prvo vidimo sta ce bit od toga... eto...nis posebno... odoh spavat....moram sutra bit naspavana,imama mozda najvazniju kafu u ovoj godini,mozda :) dieser weg wird kein leichter sein... manche treten dich,manche lieben dich,manche geben sich fur dich auf... dieser weg wird steinig und schwer... nicht in vielem wirst du dir einig sein,doch dieses leben bietet so viel mehr... |
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07.01.2006., subota
zene u islamu-odg-
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eo pipi,da ti samo skrenem paznju na jendu ili vise stvarcica :) ka prvo ja sam zena,muslimanka,i iz licnog iskustva znam da su zene i muskarci u islamu i pred Bogom ravnopravni.neki pogrsno protumace rijeci Bozije i Poslanikove pa djeluju pogresno,pa tako dolazi do toga da neko sa strane to shvati kao diskriminaciju na osnovu vjere i njenih propisa. ja opet ponavljam da su zene u dobrom polozaju u islamu jer je duznost muskaraca da zenu cuvaju kao malo vode na dlanu...nigdje ne pise kako zena ili bilo koji drugi vjernik treba da se oblaci,pa su tako ovi zarovi i ove "ninja-bule"(bez uvrede) ustvari produkt šovinizma i muških gena... Jedino je savjetovano ljudima od strane poslanika Muhammeda a.v.s. da se oblace pristojno(sto znaci,da pokriju stidne djelove tijela),a u dzamijama je potrebno da pokriju kosu i da budu odvojeni od muskaraca iz jednog razloga: vjera nalaze da se prije klanjanja ocisti tjelo,odjelo i mjesto gdje ce se klanjati.za ciscenje tijela imamo poseban ritual koji se zove ABDEST.Uzimanjem abdesta(cistom vodom se operu ruke do laktova,noge do clanaka,umije se lice,isperu usta i nos,pokvasi se potiljak,opere iza usiju i vrat,uz NIJET(molitva koju izgovaramo da kazemo za nasu namjeru da klanjamo NAMAZ)pripremamo se za namaz,odbacujemo ruzne misli.Covjek,musliman,je najblizi Bogu na namazu.Dozvoljeno je klanjati se samo jednom Bogu,jednom jedinom Kojeg priznajemo. Kada covjek i zena idu u DZAMIJU ili negdje drugo da zajedno klanjaju namaz,potrebno je postaviti bar jednu papucu izmedju njihovih SERDZADA(prostirke na kojima klanjamo,iz higjenskih razloga),ako vec ne mogu biti u razlicitim sobama,a zena mora pokriti glavu i tijelo do clanaka na rukama i nogama.ne smije se vidjeti ni vrat,a pogotovo ne grudni kos ili gola ledja.Da se izrazim ne bas prikladnim ali po mom misljenju jedinim trenutno razumljivim,zargonom za ovakvu vrstu diskusije-To se cini da se muskarac ne bi napalio,pa izgubio ABDEST...tako bi njegovo klanjanje bilo beskorisno,a i ono zenino jer ga je na taj nacin izazvala...i obrnuto... COvjeku je dozvoljeno da voli,i da ako se ne moze oduprijeti svojim nagonima,da ih sacuva u sebi ali ne i da ih na drugima ispoljava,ali to i slicne stvari se niposto ne smiju dogoditi na namazu.Namaz je stajanje pred Bogom,klanjanje njemu...Nije previse ako se od muslimana trazi da samo 5 puta pod 5-10 minuta dnevno bude cistog srca,tjela i uma pred Bogom. No ja ne zelim nikome nametnuti svoje misljenje,jer ovo i nije moje misljenje(osim ove zadnje recenice),nego jednostavno cinjenice za one manje upucene.Ovim zelim samo postici prestanak pogresnog shvacanja nasih obicaja,obreda i odnosa. |
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02.01.2006., ponedjeljak
romantika
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Stajala je pred ogledalom satima.Razmisljala sta da obuce.Da li da obuce maicu sa dubokim izrezom da bi on vidio njen divne bujne grudi,ili da se napravi nevinasce i skopca do grla.A mozda da ipak obuce siroku maicu?!Obukla je svoj najljepsi crveni,chipkani grudnjak,i donji ves...Uzivala je u tom spremanju,ocekujuci dogadjaj koji treba da pamti citav svoj zivot.Uzivala je i razmisljala...Zamisljala kako je ljubi,i polahko skida...Njezno joj sapce na uho najsladje i najintimnije stvari,pa joj mazi grudi i ljubi stomak...Spremala se satima,sminkala se,i presvlacila nekoliko puta...Zeljela je da sve bude perfektno. Govorili su mnogo puta o tom,ali to nisu planirali.Znala je da se on nada da ce se uskoro desiti,i zeljela ga je iznenaditi.Blistala je od srece i uzbudjenja.Pozvonila je na vrata,a on je otvorio i uveo je u stan,ne skidajuci pogled sa nje. Ocekivala je vino,neku njeznu muziku i romantiku.Sjela je na kauc,otkopcao je pantole,podigao joj suknju.Nakon nekoliko minuta izustio je: „Mala,bila si super.“ Uzeo daljinski u ruku,i nastavio gledati utakmicu. Toliko o romantici... |
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no name-just pain
    (ta 'pomenuta' scena iz filma 'sanjari')     Bendovi(i artisti) koje volim i cije cd-ove i mp3-ce trenutno forsiram maximalno Aqualung Tonic Turtles Blur Sufjan Stevens Adam green Oasis Imogine heep Jive Eles dios malos doves ellen ten dammme Dido Nelly furtado Negativ Juli sentenced iced earth nirvana placebo anathema lost prophets evanescence on thorns i lay lacuna coil guano apes alanis morisette papa roach(lovehatetragedy-u znak dobrih starih vremena:-)) van gogh i et...to e to trenutno... TRENUTNO CITAM 11 Minuta - citam... Choices - Nancy Toder - procitano Wien um 1900-procitano Oliver twist-na citanju Demijan—precitavam po ko zna koji put Tajna veza-procitana Zamka za snove-S.King=procitano Ponornica-S.Kulenovic-procitan kabinet cudesa-procitano linearni grad-nikako da dovrsim a nema ni 100 strana radije uzmi moga brata(njem.)-procitano citadela-cronin- procitano misterije svijeta-davno predjeno g.g.marquez-ljubav u doba kolere-nikad procitala et...tolko za sad... ...Sweet child in time you'll see the line The line that's drawn between the good and the bad See the BLIND man shooting at the world Bullets flying taking toll If you've been bad, Lord I bet you have And you've not been hit by flying lead You'd better close your eyes and bow your head And wait for the ricochet... evo mojih dosadasnjih googlizama...tj.kako me ljudi nadjose na googlu... -ocu ajvar za cevape(???) -bol u ledjima kod djece -nazif gljiva.mp3(e ovaj mi je najkrvaviji bez sumnje) -Lyrics-sheeter feat.amy lee -blog sam uradila -pjesma za spavanje -jajacki izbori -dnevnik jedne teenager-ke -hand made nakit -pearl jam-voice for change -lektire za malu raju -bajke -srebrenicani slike(obratiti se gdniu Amoru Masovicu,a ne meni...) Guns'n'Roses-Don't Cry If we could see tomorrow What of your plans No one can live in sorrow Ask all your friends Times that you took in stride They're back in demand I was the one who's washing Blood off your hands Don't you cry tonight I still love you baby Don't you cry tonight Don't you cry tonight There's a heaven above you baby And don't you cry tonight I know the things you wanted They're not what you have With all the people talkin' It's drivin' you mad If I was standin' by you How would you feel Knowing your love's decided And all love is real An don't you cry tonight Don't you cry tonight Don't you cry tonight There's a heaven above you baby And don't you cry tonight I thought I could live in your world As years all went by With all the voices I've heard Something has died And when you're in need of someone My heart won't deny you So many seem so lonely With no one left to cry to baby An don't you cry tonight An don't you cry tonight An don't you cry tonight There's a heaven above you baby And don't you cry Don't you ever cry Don't you cry tonight Baby maybe someday Don't you cry Don't you ever cry Don't you cry Tonight Cold Heritage-Lacuna Coil Don't tell me why I'm so near to commit a crime When I stay alone here in front of you (I'm here) Illusion falls when you're not honest about the way I feel I know I need only your voice Saving all my words only for you Forgive me Saving all my words only for you I don't know why There's a limit to defy With the vision of the future at my feet (I'm here) The night embrace me while The picture simply blows me away I feel I'll need only your voice And I'm lonely here inside of me Deep inside of me Believe the light in me And I'm lonely here inside of me Deep inside of me Reveal the light in me Saving all my words only for you Forgive me And I'm lonely here inside of me Deep inside of me Believe the light in me And I'm lonely here inside of me Deep inside of me I've never, never felt myself this way before And I want to leave with my tears If you'll disappear Believe in the light in me Saving all my words only for you Forgive me Falling on me knees only for you Forgive me Bosnia-the Crannberries I would like to state my vision Life was so unfair We live in our secure surroundings And people die out there Bosnia, was so unkind Sarejevo, change my mind And we all call out in despair All the love we need isn't there And we all sing songs in our room Sarejevo erects another tomb Sarejevo! Sarejevo! Sarejevo! Sarejevo! Bosnia, was so unkind Sarejevo! Sarejevo! Sarejevo! Bosnia, was so unkind Sure, things would change If we really wanted them to No fear for children anymore There are babies in their beds Terror in their heads For the love of life! When do the saints go marching in? When do the saints go marching in? When do the saints go marching in? When do the saints go marching in? Rummmpatipum, Rummmpatipum... Traboo, Traboo, Traboo... Watching Over Me-Iced Earth I had a friend many years ago One tragic night he died The saddest time of my life For weeks and weeks I cried Through the anger and through the tears I've felt his spirit through the years I'd swear, He's watching me Guiding me through hard times (chorus) I feel it once again It's overwhelming me His spirit's like the wind The angel guarding me Oh, I know, oh, I know He's watching over me Oh, I know, oh, I know He's watching over me We shared dreams like all best friends Blood brothers at the age of ten We lived reckless, he paid the price But why? Why did he have to die? It still hurts me to this day Am I selfish for feeling this way? I know he's an angel now Together we'll be someday I feel it once again It's overwhelming me His spirit's like the wind The angel guarding me Oh, I know, oh, I know He's watching over me Oh, I know, oh, I know He's watching over Shinead O'Connor-Nothing Compares To You It's been seven hours and fifteen days since you took your love away I go out every night and sleep all day since you took your love away since you've been gone I can do whatever I want I can see whomever I choose I can eat my dinner in a fancy restaurant but nothing I said nothing can take away these blues, 'cause nothing compares nothing compares to you It's been so lonely without you here like a bird without a song nothing can stop these lonely tears from falling tell me baby where did I go wrong? I could put my arms round every boy I see but they'd only remind me of you I went to the doctor guess what he told me guess what he told me he said girl you better try to have fun no matter what you do but he's a fool 'cause nothing compares nothing compares to you All the flowers that you planted momma in the backyard all died when you went away I know that living with you, baby, was sometimes hard but I'm willing to give it another try nothing compares Vader-Whisper Jaunting on maps of our bodies We wandering through vastness of inner and outer space Through and through Immersed in love of will. I am laying on my back And gazing at inky black sky Serpent shapes Moves of your hands The mind is burning Drowned in carnal desires Inflowing pictures Visions of dead world Fancy visions of dead world Gives me shiver when You caresses my body Emptiness beyond We are alone on this earth And all treasures of the world Belong to us The sacrilege of love And sacrificial love Weals are wandering on your skin You are wielding my sword This is the greatest gift We received from mother Earth So let's play this game Bodies surrounded by fire And envy of stars Stimulation of every part Of mind, body and soul Our never-ending ritual Will always go on Like war never ends Like fall always comes Like stars are shining On nightly sky Our love of will Will go on To eternal death Of the human world.
painkillers cooperated
Imaginary-Evanescence i linger in the doorway of alarm clock screaming monsters calling my name let me stay where the wind will whisper to me where the raindrops as they're falling tell a story in my field of paper flowers and candy clouds of lullaby i lie inside myself for hours and watch my purple sky fly over me don't say i'm out of touch with this rampant chaos - your reality i know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge the nightmare i built my own world to escape in my field of paper flowers and candy clouds of lullaby i lie inside myself for hours and watch my purple sky fly over me swallowed up in the sound of my screaming cannot cease for the fear of silent nights oh how i long for the deep sleep dreaming the goddess of imaginary light dreaming my dreams-the Crannberries All the things you said to me today Changed my perspective in every way These things count to mean so much to me Into my faith you and your baby It's out there 3x If you want me I'll be here It's out there 3x If you want me I'll be here I'll be dreaming my dreams with you And there's no other place That I'd lay down my face I'll be dreaming my dreams with you It's out there 3x If you want me I'll be here 2X I'll be dreaming my dreams with you And there's no other place That I'd lay down my face I'll be dreaming my dreams with you oceans-On Thorns I Lay In the magic mirror of my soul, I stare at the person that I love, It's the magical carpet on which, I travel on the erebus, In the land of fairy tales So I close my eyes again Feeling so lonely in the rain The mother of sunrise gives hope She can fly me over green fields And... The great oceans away from Days of hatred and despair... I saw immortal roses And a gold field with giant trees That shined immensely... I saw ancient walls and palaces everywhere... Amidst ancient gardens and magical trees... So I close my eyes again... Whit Bitterness and Joy-Sentenced It has now spread itself all over inside me all the way to the brain and down to my knees My time comes closer with each day it lets me see - with each night the pain keeps me from sleep Life has given me much - maybe taken more but those good times were always worth waiting for When it's time for goodbyes I will leave grieving and yet so relieved with bitterness and joy Pleasure and pain; Heaven and Hell - my memories What a long and strange trip this has been for me What a short and strange life this has been It has given me much - maybe taken more but those good times were always worth waiting for When it's time to take leave of this world I will leave with bitterness and joy What a long and strange trip this has been for me What a short and strange life this has been It has given me much - maybe taken more but those good times were always worth waiting for When it's time for goodbyes I will leave grieving and yet so relieved with bitterness and joy Life has given me much - maybe taken more but those good times were always worth waiting for When it's time to take leave of this world I will leave with bitterness and joy Nothing Else Matters-Metallica So close no matter how far couldn't be much more from the heart forever trusting who we are and nothing else matters never opened myself this way life is ours, we live it our way all these words I don't just say and nothing else matters yea, trust I seek and I find in you every day for us something new open mind for a different view and nothing else matters never cared for what they do never cared for what they know and I know so close no matter how far couldn't be much more from the heart forever trusting who we are and nothing else matters never cared for what they do never cared for what they know and I know never opened myself this way life is ours, we live it our way all these words I don't just say trust I seek and I find in you every day for us something new open mind for a different view and nothing else matters never cared for things they say never cared for games they play I never cared for what they do I never cared for what they know and I know yea, yea, yea so close no matter how far couldn't be much more from the heart forever trusting who we are no nothing else matters Skid Row-Slave To The Grind You got me forced to crack my lids in two I'm still stuck inside the rubber room I gotta punch the clock that leads the blind I'm just another gear in the assembly line-oh no The noose gets tighter around my throat But I ain't at the end of my rope CHORUS 'Cause I won't be the one left behind Can't be king of the world If you're slave to the grind Tear down the rat racial slime Can't be king of the world if you're slave to the grind. Get it? A routine injection, a lethal dose But my day in the sun ain't even close There's no need to waste your prayers on me You better mark my words 'cause I'm history. Yes indeed You might beg for mercy to get by But I'd rather tear this thorn from my side CHORUS They swallowed their daggers by turning their trick They tore my intentions apart brick by brick I'm sick of the jive You talk verbal insecticide CHORUS I said slave to the grind Slave to the grind Slave to the grind |
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