12.05.2005., četvrtak
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kao i obecano nastavljamo dalje... hm...gdje sam ono stala?a... opisivala pomalo grad,i njegove djelove... dobro,to ne mozete ni osjetiti ni zamisliti dok ne vidite... prvih 12 dana se nismo skidali s alkohola... pili smo ujutro,popodne,nnavecer i po citavu noc... opijali se,uzivali i ludovali... nekad se nismo vracali kuci po citavu noc...po danu smo kuci pili amareto,koji ustvaari nisam voljela u pocektu,al se covjek kasnije navikne... pili vodku sa raznim fruc sokovima sto smo donjeli iz bosne,pili porto vinno,i razna piva i mjesavine...pivo-red bull,pivo-cola,pivo vodka,pivo amareto,pivo vino,vino-cola(bambus),vodka-red bull,vodka pivo vino...amareto vino vodka...sve sto smo stigli... stock-cola,stock sam,rum-cola,rum sam,rum amareto,... itd.itr.... mozes da hodas ulicom i pijes viski iz velike flase,niko te nece poprijeko pogledati a akmoli ti sta reci... u U-bahnu(metro),smo saljevali dooley's(bayleys iz supermarketa :) ) i piva,i razna kratka...niko nista... isli smo u McDrive pjeske praveci se da sjedimo u autu(lik koji nas je posluzivao je pukao od smjeha),mrtvi pjani i napuseni... u srijedu je dosla jedna cura u nase drustvo...do tad je nisam vidjala,al cim je dosla,sjela je u sred bjela dana na klupu na stanici i pocela motat joint...nas tri smo htjele da to ispusimo... smotal aje zapalila...i taman kad sam uvukla prvi dim,rekla je da ne pretjerujemo,jer je to amsterdamski shit prskan kokainom i heroinom(kod njih panj kosta 25 eura,po popustu...kod nas 8-10 maraka)...pomislih-ma jebat ga da je prskano urinom,sta sad... i tako...uzeh 5-6 dimova,i bi mi super uz dodatnu kolicinu alkohola...proseco i vodka... + mjesano... bilo je odmah "zvjezda tjera mjeseca...uiiiiii"... nije bilo lose... drugacije nego nasa domaca...ne kontas sta ti se desava dok ne pokusas fokusirati pogled na jednu stvar... e tad skontas da velika kola(zvjezde)odlaze i dolaze... onda krenes da ustanes,al se ne mozes pomaci.... eh,kod naseg shita ti u najboljem slucjaju mjesec bjezi pred nosom... osim kad se donese crni afganac...al elem nejse... Sarah je tu noc morala u wc,i otisla u zbunje(nije htjela ko mi ostali na napustenom puteljku...nego bas u zbunju...)i sjela u zaru... si smo morlai da pipnemo kolko joj je natekla butina...hahahah...joj... elem... jedan mali koji me zna svega dvije sedmice je kontao d ami se moze mjesat u zivot,i ispricao to mom najboljem jaranu... bilo je malo frke,jer njemu ne mogu rec ni odjebi ni ista slicno,jer jedino kad mi on nesto kaze,o tome stvarno i razmislim i uvazim njegovo misljenje...al to je vec sutra dan zaboravljeno...pila sam svaki dan ppivo s njenim starim... bili smo gosti u vjecnici i razgovarali sa zamjenicom nacelnika...dobili besplatne sokove i vodica kroz vjecnicu...koja je btw. super uradjena ... stvarno...vrijedna je pravo... prisustvovali smo izzlaganju u tibetanskom budizmu u narodnom muzeju... sorry,za sve budiste medju vama...ali buddha kaze:odbaciti glupost....ali vece gluposti od onog nisam u zivotu svom cula... sorry,al tako je.... sto moja nana kaze:izvini,al primi ! elem...ispusila sam steku i po za 7 dana(sto je jos i dobro kad se skonta...hehehe),cak sam sa profesoricom arapskog pusila redovno po aerodromima...legenda zena... i razredna se pravila da me ne vdi da pusim...ma i ona je bila dobra pravo tamo fakat....u klubove ispod 18 udjete samo na srecu,i uglavnom ako udjete nakon dvije minute pocne striptizeta plesati oko vas.... kafici su ok... poprilicno...ali i ako ljudi tamo imaju vise love i mogucnosti nego mi,ne znaju zivjeti kao mi...ne znaju bas uzivati u zivotu...nama je i ona obicna tropicana dovoljna da napravimo dernek nezaboaravan(sto smo i uradili kad su bili ovdje),a oni imaju toliko potencijalnih mjesta...a opet nista... kul je bilo kad smo u jednom baru narucivali piva.... konobarica je otvarala pivo i bacala cepove gore...i mi stojimo i gledamo kad ce pasti...a cepova nigdje... a kad smo podigli glave i vidjeli hrpet cepova na plafonu...magnet...kul zar ne? heheh... skupa su pica...sangria,koja je kod nas 3 KM ili 1.5 Euro,kod njih je 5.66 eura...no moze se i jeftinije naci pica i sivh ostalih stvari al treba traziti,i zanti gdje trazitit... medjutim,sto sma vam zzaboravila spomenuti prosli put... ulic au kojoj su samo rock,metal i punk shopovi...dakle sve stvari od bedzeva,preko maica,postera,naljepnica,tangica sa likovima poznatih frontmena,do figurica bendova... sve,sve,sve... i smao su takvi shopovi i kafici tu su u tomm fazonu,gdje god udjeete super muzika... al cim krocite dva koraka iz te ulice,vidi se balkan...tj. cuje se stoja,indira,ceca,i kompanija :) no i to je bilo zabavno...samo se previse putuje javnim prevozom...tj.predugo... grad je ipak ogroman... ima i vecih ,znam,al mene je to u pocetku malo zivciralo...kasnije se naviknes,i iskoristis vrijeme da malo odmoris oci,jer se nocu haman nikako ne spava,a danju ides po raznim manifestacijama pripremljenim programom... bili smo i jedan dan na moru...u travenmuendeu...taman smo shetali plazom,kada je udarila kisa... jaka kisa,ali fina,i vjetar je puhao...usli smo u neki mali bistro,da se ugrijemo...i bar malo osusimo dok prestane kisa...nakon toga je zasijalo sunce...i opet smo hodlai plazom...voda je bila prehladna za kupanje...premd ami je malo falilo da zaplivam...nudili su mi 10 dolara da zaplivam,i 25 da to uradim gola... i kad sam to stvanro htjela uraditi,nisu htjeli dati pare :D ko im je kriv... :P predzadnju noc su bili u kuglani,gdje se meni nije islo,pa nisam ni otisla...kazu da je bilo dobro,al ne zlaim previse...bilo mi je prenaporno putovati dva sata do kuglane,gdje je kuglanje pocinjalo u ponoc...ostat sat dva pa opet nazad... no nije bitno... zadnju noc smo nas sest provele kod cati u njenoj sobi,zajebavale se ko da nam nije posljednja noc(za sad)tu...gledale sve episode happy tree friendsa...jele kaese kuhen(moj najdrazi kolac),razna peciva(stari od moje Sarah je pekar),pjevale,svirale,slusale muziku,zajebavale se...negjd eoko dva ujuto smo marie i ja izasle na terasu da ispusimo...i tad je pocelo...tad je pocelo ono "pa vi sutra idete... :( " onda smo bile tuzne,i oko tri otisle kuci...ujutro me je sarah probudila( a budila me je svako jutro,i smijala mi se,jer je meni uvijek dugo trebalo da skontam gdje se nalazim,i da trebam da ustane i da s erobudim),i rekla"ovo je zandji put da te budim... nije se smijala... ah... obecale smo da necemo plakati na aerodromu... medjutim,zadnjjih 5 minuta smo se pogledale i pocele plakati...bilo je predivno i super se razumijemo i bas to je ono sto je u isto vrijeme i super i sranje... jer da nije tako bilo,ne bi nam bilo tako tesko i tako zao.... rekli su doci na ljeto da idemo zajedno na more,a mi cemo kod njih prvom prilikom opet...mozda na zimskom raspustu,ili iduce lejto... cak sam cula da njihove profesorice pokusavaju uvjeriti sponzora da nam isto ovo sponzorise i iduce godine + 10 osoba vise,sa istim ovim ljudima od sada...ako to uspiju to bi bio supe.r..jer odavde je teko dobiti vizu za njemacku... a oavko je lakse...dosta za sad... ne mogu vise...odoh se pokusat konektovat,al mislim da je stari iskljucio net... |
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no name-just pain
    (ta 'pomenuta' scena iz filma 'sanjari')     Bendovi(i artisti) koje volim i cije cd-ove i mp3-ce trenutno forsiram maximalno Aqualung Tonic Turtles Blur Sufjan Stevens Adam green Oasis Imogine heep Jive Eles dios malos doves ellen ten dammme Dido Nelly furtado Negativ Juli sentenced iced earth nirvana placebo anathema lost prophets evanescence on thorns i lay lacuna coil guano apes alanis morisette papa roach(lovehatetragedy-u znak dobrih starih vremena:-)) van gogh i et...to e to trenutno... TRENUTNO CITAM 11 Minuta - citam... Choices - Nancy Toder - procitano Wien um 1900-procitano Oliver twist-na citanju Demijan—precitavam po ko zna koji put Tajna veza-procitana Zamka za snove-S.King=procitano Ponornica-S.Kulenovic-procitan kabinet cudesa-procitano linearni grad-nikako da dovrsim a nema ni 100 strana radije uzmi moga brata(njem.)-procitano citadela-cronin- procitano misterije svijeta-davno predjeno g.g.marquez-ljubav u doba kolere-nikad procitala et...tolko za sad... ...Sweet child in time you'll see the line The line that's drawn between the good and the bad See the BLIND man shooting at the world Bullets flying taking toll If you've been bad, Lord I bet you have And you've not been hit by flying lead You'd better close your eyes and bow your head And wait for the ricochet... evo mojih dosadasnjih googlizama...tj.kako me ljudi nadjose na googlu... -ocu ajvar za cevape(???) -bol u ledjima kod djece -nazif gljiva.mp3(e ovaj mi je najkrvaviji bez sumnje) -Lyrics-sheeter feat.amy lee -blog sam uradila -pjesma za spavanje -jajacki izbori -dnevnik jedne teenager-ke -hand made nakit -pearl jam-voice for change -lektire za malu raju -bajke -srebrenicani slike(obratiti se gdniu Amoru Masovicu,a ne meni...) Guns'n'Roses-Don't Cry If we could see tomorrow What of your plans No one can live in sorrow Ask all your friends Times that you took in stride They're back in demand I was the one who's washing Blood off your hands Don't you cry tonight I still love you baby Don't you cry tonight Don't you cry tonight There's a heaven above you baby And don't you cry tonight I know the things you wanted They're not what you have With all the people talkin' It's drivin' you mad If I was standin' by you How would you feel Knowing your love's decided And all love is real An don't you cry tonight Don't you cry tonight Don't you cry tonight There's a heaven above you baby And don't you cry tonight I thought I could live in your world As years all went by With all the voices I've heard Something has died And when you're in need of someone My heart won't deny you So many seem so lonely With no one left to cry to baby An don't you cry tonight An don't you cry tonight An don't you cry tonight There's a heaven above you baby And don't you cry Don't you ever cry Don't you cry tonight Baby maybe someday Don't you cry Don't you ever cry Don't you cry Tonight Cold Heritage-Lacuna Coil Don't tell me why I'm so near to commit a crime When I stay alone here in front of you (I'm here) Illusion falls when you're not honest about the way I feel I know I need only your voice Saving all my words only for you Forgive me Saving all my words only for you I don't know why There's a limit to defy With the vision of the future at my feet (I'm here) The night embrace me while The picture simply blows me away I feel I'll need only your voice And I'm lonely here inside of me Deep inside of me Believe the light in me And I'm lonely here inside of me Deep inside of me Reveal the light in me Saving all my words only for you Forgive me And I'm lonely here inside of me Deep inside of me Believe the light in me And I'm lonely here inside of me Deep inside of me I've never, never felt myself this way before And I want to leave with my tears If you'll disappear Believe in the light in me Saving all my words only for you Forgive me Falling on me knees only for you Forgive me Bosnia-the Crannberries I would like to state my vision Life was so unfair We live in our secure surroundings And people die out there Bosnia, was so unkind Sarejevo, change my mind And we all call out in despair All the love we need isn't there And we all sing songs in our room Sarejevo erects another tomb Sarejevo! Sarejevo! Sarejevo! Sarejevo! Bosnia, was so unkind Sarejevo! Sarejevo! Sarejevo! Bosnia, was so unkind Sure, things would change If we really wanted them to No fear for children anymore There are babies in their beds Terror in their heads For the love of life! When do the saints go marching in? When do the saints go marching in? When do the saints go marching in? When do the saints go marching in? Rummmpatipum, Rummmpatipum... Traboo, Traboo, Traboo... Watching Over Me-Iced Earth I had a friend many years ago One tragic night he died The saddest time of my life For weeks and weeks I cried Through the anger and through the tears I've felt his spirit through the years I'd swear, He's watching me Guiding me through hard times (chorus) I feel it once again It's overwhelming me His spirit's like the wind The angel guarding me Oh, I know, oh, I know He's watching over me Oh, I know, oh, I know He's watching over me We shared dreams like all best friends Blood brothers at the age of ten We lived reckless, he paid the price But why? Why did he have to die? It still hurts me to this day Am I selfish for feeling this way? I know he's an angel now Together we'll be someday I feel it once again It's overwhelming me His spirit's like the wind The angel guarding me Oh, I know, oh, I know He's watching over me Oh, I know, oh, I know He's watching over Shinead O'Connor-Nothing Compares To You It's been seven hours and fifteen days since you took your love away I go out every night and sleep all day since you took your love away since you've been gone I can do whatever I want I can see whomever I choose I can eat my dinner in a fancy restaurant but nothing I said nothing can take away these blues, 'cause nothing compares nothing compares to you It's been so lonely without you here like a bird without a song nothing can stop these lonely tears from falling tell me baby where did I go wrong? I could put my arms round every boy I see but they'd only remind me of you I went to the doctor guess what he told me guess what he told me he said girl you better try to have fun no matter what you do but he's a fool 'cause nothing compares nothing compares to you All the flowers that you planted momma in the backyard all died when you went away I know that living with you, baby, was sometimes hard but I'm willing to give it another try nothing compares Vader-Whisper Jaunting on maps of our bodies We wandering through vastness of inner and outer space Through and through Immersed in love of will. I am laying on my back And gazing at inky black sky Serpent shapes Moves of your hands The mind is burning Drowned in carnal desires Inflowing pictures Visions of dead world Fancy visions of dead world Gives me shiver when You caresses my body Emptiness beyond We are alone on this earth And all treasures of the world Belong to us The sacrilege of love And sacrificial love Weals are wandering on your skin You are wielding my sword This is the greatest gift We received from mother Earth So let's play this game Bodies surrounded by fire And envy of stars Stimulation of every part Of mind, body and soul Our never-ending ritual Will always go on Like war never ends Like fall always comes Like stars are shining On nightly sky Our love of will Will go on To eternal death Of the human world.
painkillers cooperated
Imaginary-Evanescence i linger in the doorway of alarm clock screaming monsters calling my name let me stay where the wind will whisper to me where the raindrops as they're falling tell a story in my field of paper flowers and candy clouds of lullaby i lie inside myself for hours and watch my purple sky fly over me don't say i'm out of touch with this rampant chaos - your reality i know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge the nightmare i built my own world to escape in my field of paper flowers and candy clouds of lullaby i lie inside myself for hours and watch my purple sky fly over me swallowed up in the sound of my screaming cannot cease for the fear of silent nights oh how i long for the deep sleep dreaming the goddess of imaginary light dreaming my dreams-the Crannberries All the things you said to me today Changed my perspective in every way These things count to mean so much to me Into my faith you and your baby It's out there 3x If you want me I'll be here It's out there 3x If you want me I'll be here I'll be dreaming my dreams with you And there's no other place That I'd lay down my face I'll be dreaming my dreams with you It's out there 3x If you want me I'll be here 2X I'll be dreaming my dreams with you And there's no other place That I'd lay down my face I'll be dreaming my dreams with you oceans-On Thorns I Lay In the magic mirror of my soul, I stare at the person that I love, It's the magical carpet on which, I travel on the erebus, In the land of fairy tales So I close my eyes again Feeling so lonely in the rain The mother of sunrise gives hope She can fly me over green fields And... The great oceans away from Days of hatred and despair... I saw immortal roses And a gold field with giant trees That shined immensely... I saw ancient walls and palaces everywhere... Amidst ancient gardens and magical trees... So I close my eyes again... Whit Bitterness and Joy-Sentenced It has now spread itself all over inside me all the way to the brain and down to my knees My time comes closer with each day it lets me see - with each night the pain keeps me from sleep Life has given me much - maybe taken more but those good times were always worth waiting for When it's time for goodbyes I will leave grieving and yet so relieved with bitterness and joy Pleasure and pain; Heaven and Hell - my memories What a long and strange trip this has been for me What a short and strange life this has been It has given me much - maybe taken more but those good times were always worth waiting for When it's time to take leave of this world I will leave with bitterness and joy What a long and strange trip this has been for me What a short and strange life this has been It has given me much - maybe taken more but those good times were always worth waiting for When it's time for goodbyes I will leave grieving and yet so relieved with bitterness and joy Life has given me much - maybe taken more but those good times were always worth waiting for When it's time to take leave of this world I will leave with bitterness and joy Nothing Else Matters-Metallica So close no matter how far couldn't be much more from the heart forever trusting who we are and nothing else matters never opened myself this way life is ours, we live it our way all these words I don't just say and nothing else matters yea, trust I seek and I find in you every day for us something new open mind for a different view and nothing else matters never cared for what they do never cared for what they know and I know so close no matter how far couldn't be much more from the heart forever trusting who we are and nothing else matters never cared for what they do never cared for what they know and I know never opened myself this way life is ours, we live it our way all these words I don't just say trust I seek and I find in you every day for us something new open mind for a different view and nothing else matters never cared for things they say never cared for games they play I never cared for what they do I never cared for what they know and I know yea, yea, yea so close no matter how far couldn't be much more from the heart forever trusting who we are no nothing else matters Skid Row-Slave To The Grind You got me forced to crack my lids in two I'm still stuck inside the rubber room I gotta punch the clock that leads the blind I'm just another gear in the assembly line-oh no The noose gets tighter around my throat But I ain't at the end of my rope CHORUS 'Cause I won't be the one left behind Can't be king of the world If you're slave to the grind Tear down the rat racial slime Can't be king of the world if you're slave to the grind. Get it? A routine injection, a lethal dose But my day in the sun ain't even close There's no need to waste your prayers on me You better mark my words 'cause I'm history. Yes indeed You might beg for mercy to get by But I'd rather tear this thorn from my side CHORUS They swallowed their daggers by turning their trick They tore my intentions apart brick by brick I'm sick of the jive You talk verbal insecticide CHORUS I said slave to the grind Slave to the grind Slave to the grind |
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