Welcome To My Life – Simple Plan

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Zaašto??:
-ne mogu biti sretna
-postojim
-nikog ne zaslužujem
-je sudbina mene izabrala za takav način života
-ponovo moram rezat žile
-me nitko ne voli
-živim u crno-bijelom svijetu
-plačem
-nemam onaj iskreni osmjeh
-živim u tuđem tijelu
-mi sreća nije suđena
-živim dan za danom
-nikog ne zanima što ja mislim
-sam nevidljiva
-se osječam tako prazno/iznevjereno
-zašto postavljam pitanja za koje odgovori ne postoje??

People don’t die from suicide,they die from sadness...




Osječam se tako odbačeno I prljavo i ne znam što bih više učinila...
Više se ne mogu skrivati u ovom zmazanom tijelu...
Ne mogu višeeee...
Najrađe bih se nakljukala tabletama I razno raznim drogama...
Ne želim više postojati!!!
Ne mogu više postojati!!!

Prešla sam sve moguče granice...dosta mi je svega...

Jednog dana će mi sve prekipit..i zapitat ću se što ja još uvjek radim ovdje...
Zašto nisam u paklu?
I onda ću nestat...zauvijek..


"My Immortal"

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase[Chorus:]

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

[Chorus]


Ponovo sam napuštena...
Ponovo sam sama...bez prijatelja...bez ikoga...bez duše u ovom zarobljenom tijelu...







Ali..napokon se bliži kraj...osječam to...


Ovaj post bio je najiskreniji post ikad...
Ovaj blog pišem 2 godine...i nikada se nisam usudila napisati nešto tako..iskreno...
Ali eto...danas jesam...i drago mi je...
Ovaj dan ću pamtiti duugo..to je sigurno...
Danas sam saznala da me niko ne voli...
...
danas je 24.11.,dan kada je sa ovoga svjeta otišla osoba koja mi je značila više od svih...
I još uvjek nisam toga svjesna..
Iako je od toga prošlo dve godine..ja se još nisam navikla da te osobe nema...
Kad got se sjetim te osobe...suze počnu teč iz mojih plavih očiju I više nisam sretna...
Ta osoba koja mi je značila I još uvjek znači više od svih je moj deda...
Moj dragi deda..kojeg su svi voljeli....bio je previše drag....i mislio je da ga ne volim...ali volim gaaa...jako...i jako mi nedostajee....
Željela bi ga vidjeti..i reći mu sve...
Reći mu da ga volim,da mi nedostaje...
Želim ga zagrlit..ali ne mogu...sad je kasno...
Imala sam priliku...ali ju nisam iskoristila...
Tad sam bila glupa...i nisam znala što se događa....
Sad lijem suze...
Ostala su samo sječanja u mojoj glavi...
Nema ni slika...ni ničega...
Samo ljepa sječanja u mojoj glavi...
Uvijek ču imati najljepša sječanja o svom dedi...koji je sada samo duhom prisutan kod nas....

Deda volim tee!!!