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četvrtak, 15.05.2008.

You drained my heart, and made a spadeeee!!!

Extreme state of depression... Dođe mi da prvo sadistički izmučim SVE koji su izrekli bilo kakvu sarkastičnu rečenicu o meni, pa da se objesim u zatvoru i da okončam onako kako i zaslužujem. Udri glavom o vrata i razbij glavu ispunjenu gnjevom i tugom... Iscenirao sam suicid s oštricom noža okrenutom prema svom srcu i nekoliko trenutaka stajao s praznim pogledom. Možda ovo što pišem izgleda kao bezuspješni pokušaj privlačenja pažnje, a možda kao krik bespomoćnosti. Osjećam se prazno, a sveprisutni stih "I feel the minute of decay..." opisuje moje trenutno umno stanje. Tanka je granica između zdravog razuma i potpunog ludila.
"your world is killing me,
disassociative..."
Forsira se depresija... Ne želim više biti sretan... To je suvišna emocija. To nisam ja. Hiniti nešto što nije dio moje osobnosti je potpuno nezrelo.
Šta je to prijateljstvo, ljubav...? Big piece of crap!!
Mazohist sam... I ne sramim se toga... Uzeti lanac i gušiti se, udarati se komadom drveta... Fizička bol nije ništa naspram one psihičke... Olupina... Uvijek mislim sve najgore o sebi... I trebam, kad ne činim stvari koje su primjerene mojoj dobi.

"Buried Alive"

I speak in verses, prophecies, and curses [x2]
I hate my life
No miracle is coming
Hate you
It's just a hole
Hate you
Nothing's wrong with you
Hate you
Must maintain control
Hate you
Everyone's asking questions
No place is safe
I'll forfeit resurrection
To escape this pain

I hate my life [x8]

I speak in verses, prophecies and curses
This storm of thorns is growing
Hate me
There's no end in sight
Hate me
Chaos claws my jaw
Hate me
And incites a mental riot
Hate me
I'm in the mouth of madness
With a tongue of poetry
I ate the spine of Atlas
Now the world is crushing me

I hate my life [x6]

Buried alive behind enemy lines
Surrogate child for the sins of all mankind
Hate
Buried alive behind enemy lines, buried alive, buried alive [x3]
For the sins of all mankind

Da... Živ zakopan u sebi samom... eeh... Mogao bih japanski moderniji način samoubojstva izvesti... Miješanje deterdženta i još jednog kuhinjskog/toaletnog proizvoda, ali ne bih htio otrovati i cijelo susjedstvo. To je ipak previše okrutno. Često puta poželim umrijeti. Je li to loše?
Koliko sam jadan...

Evo jedne moje pjesme koja govori o tome kako se osjećam...

"I want to lay in my coffin,
and go to Heaven,
my wounds full of scars
aren't healing.
I'm not breathing,
cause I wanna go to Heaven.
You can stab me, you can rape me,
you can rip off my heart,
cause it isn't loved,
cause it isn't needed!
I just wanna go to Heaven...
You can hurt me, you can fuck me,
you can take out my soul,
cause it isn't wanted,
cause it isn't loved...
You can burn me, you can kill me,
you can steel my self,
cause I don't belong anywhere...
Use my flesh for your lunch,
that's its only purpose..."

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Disposable Teens
by Marilyn Manson
album: Holy Wood (2000),
Lest We Forget: The Best Of (2004)

And I'm a black rainbow
And I'm an ape of God
I got a face that's made for violence and porn
And I'm a teen distortion, survived abortion
A rebel from the waist down
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

I wanna thank you mom
I wanna thank you dad
For bringing this fucking world to a bitter end
I never really hated the one true God
But the God of the people I hated

You said you wanted evolution
The ape was a great big hit
You said you want a revolution, man
And I say that you're full of shit

We're disposable teens
We're disposable teens
We're disposable teens
We're disposable
We're disposable teens
We're disposable teens
We're disposable teens
We're disposable

You said you wanted evolution
The ape was a great big hit
You said you want a revolution, man
And I say that you're full of shit (Yeah, yeah, yeah)
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

The more that you fear us, the bigger we get
The more that you fear us, the bigger we get
And don't be surprised
And don't be surprised
And don't be surprised when you discover it!
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

You said you wanted evolution
The ape was a great big hit
You said you want a revolution, man
And I say that you're full of shit (Yeah, yeah, yeah)

You said you wanted evolution
The ape with the great big hit
You said you want a revolution, man
And I say that you're full of shit (Yeah, yeah, yeah)

We're disposable teens
We're disposable teens
We're disposable teens
We're disposable
We're disposable teens
We're disposable teens
We're disposable teens
We're disposable

System Of A Down - Chop Suey

(wake up)
grab a brush and put on a little make up
hide the scars to fade away the shakeup
(hide the scars to fade away the shakeup)
why'd you leave the keys up on the table
here you go create another fable
you wanted to
grab a brush and put on a little makeup
you wanted to
hide the scars to fade away the shakeup
you wanted to
why'd you leave the keys up on the table
you wanted to
why i dont think you trust in my self righteous suicide
i cry when angels deserve to die


wake up
(wake up)


grab a brush and put on a little make up
hide the scars to fade away the shakeup
(hide the scars to fade away the shakeup)
why'd you leave the keys up on the table
here you go create another fable
you wanted to
grab a brush and put on a little makeup
you wanted to
hide the scars to fade away the shakeup
you wanted to
why'd you leave the keys up on the table
you wanted to
why i dont think you trust in my self righteous suicide
i cry when angels deserve to die
in my self righteous suicide
i cry when angels deserve to die
father father father father
father into your hand i command my spirit
father into your hand why have you forsaken me
in your eyes forsaken me
in your thoughts forsaken me
in your heart forsaken me ohh
trust in my self righteous suicide
i cry when angels deserve to die
in my self righteous suicide
i cry when angels deserve to die


The Sweet - Ballroom Blitz

Oh
it's been getting so hard.
Living with the things you do to me.
Oh my dreams are getting so strange

I'd like to tell you ev'rything I see.
Oh I see a man at the back
as a matter of fact his eyes are as red as the sun.
And a girl in the corner let no one ignore her
'cause she thinks she's the passionate one.

Oh yeh
it was like lightning
ev'rybody was fright'ning
and the music was soothing
and they all started grooving.

Yeh
yeh
yeh
yeh
yeh and the man at the back said
ev'ryone attack and it turned into a ballroom blitz
And the girl in the corner said
Boy I wanna warn ya


it'll turn into a ballroom blitz
ballroom blitz
ballroom blitz...

I'm reaching out for something
touching nothing's all I ever do.
Oh I softly call you over
when you appear there's nothing left of you.
Now the man at the back
is ready to crack as he raisers his hands in the sky.
And the girl in the corner is ev'ryone's mourner

she could kill you with a wink of her eye.

Oh
yes
it was electric
so frightfully hectic
and the band started leaping
'cause they all stopped breathing

Oh yes
it was like lightning...

Yeh
yeh
yeh
and the man at the back said...
Yeh
yeh
yeh
and the man at the back said...