Blacken The Angel ( back)

10.01.2007., srijeda

Kill me

Ne želim zatvoriti oči a kada njima gledam tako jebeno boli. Ali ja i dalje naivno otvaram srce, šaljem ti ga. Ali tebe nema... Ne mogu ne misliti na tebe i ne mogu reći da sam sretan..
You belong too me my snow white queen....
Ova praksa mi oduzima nešto što najviše volim.. Oduzima mi osobu koju doista nitko ne može zamjeniti..
I ta osoba zna da je ovo o njoj, nije potrebno pisati... Ma ne, možda bi bilo bolje da ne pišem o tome.
Mogao bi pogoršati neke stvari, koje sam samim svojim postojanjem sjebao.
Volio bi da me nikada nitko nije upoznao, samo sranja sa mnom.
Hoti, kiwi, trolek, nesica.... S vama sam najvise pricao od svih ljudi na msn...
Ne, ne znam što da kažem... Da vam kažem koliko mi značite ne bi nikada povjerovale. Da vam kažem koliko vas volim kao svoje sekstre, ne bi nikada u to vjerovale ili mislile da znate onoliko črvsto koliko je to čvrsto. Još samo malo, i vidimo se nadam se.
Pošto imam mnogo toga za pisati, neču ovo previše otezati.
Samo cure, želim da znate da ste sve jako divne cure i da vam doista želim najviše sreće u životu. Dao bi vam i svu svoju kada bi je imao, ako ne mogu to. Dati cu vam svoje prijateljstvo.
Svaka od vas posebna je na svoj nacin, svaka od vas ima nesto posebno, specifično.
Posebne ste i blacken vas voli.

Krenimo sada... Prema nečemu... sjebanijem...

Monotonija je promijenila svoje lice. sada za zamjenu čekanja noći pred kompom radim 8 sati na dan, i dalje spavam jako malo. Tijelo klone, ali ne mogu spavati.
kažu mi, smiri se, oslobodi svoje tijelo.
Smiri se.... Isto kao da mi kazu... Ubi se.. Ja drugačije ne znam...
Evo da vam kažem jedan svoj dan. dakle sve počinje ujutro u 6 kada ustajem. Oblačenje i odlazak na praksu. Odem s prakse s frendom u birc... Onda doma oko 5 - 6... Budem doma do pola 8 - 8.. Odem van.. vratim se oko pola 11 - 11. Budem na kompu do 1 - 2... i onda odem u krevet slusam glazbu do negdije 4... I kada napokon zaspim bude oko 5... I super, ustanem se u 6 i radim.
Danas sam spavao 4 sata to mi je jebeni rekord...
Vani je postalo dosadno, u kući još dosadnije.
Kuda god da se okrenem, tamo ne pripadam.
Gdije ja pripadam???

Dalje.. Da...Imam osjecaj da sto se ljubavi tice da sam postao uklet ili moje srce preglupo.
Uvijek želim ono što ne mogu imati, uvijek težim onome čega nisam dostojan..
I kada kažem sam sebi, odbaci te jebene emocije i ne traži ih više... Uvijek znam, ne možeš to više. Slab si. Slab, slab... Slab sam...

born to be goth, born to be alone...

Kada sam hodao s bivšom stalno sam htio biti sam, a sada kada nisam sam želim nešt uz sebe. shvatio sam, da ni jedno ne valja niti premalo niti previše..
Ma znao sam to i prije ali.. duga priča.
Ponekad se pitam kako je moguče samo tako prestati voljeti, jednostavno onak, odjednom. Ja sam to napravio, u stotinci. Samo je nestalo. I dobro, bar nisam patio.
Ne može me nitko sjebati! Dovoljno sam jak da sve izdržim...

where are you now. my love?

Valjda nemam neka prevelika očekivanja...
Želim samo učiniti nju sretnom a samim time i sebe... U ljubavi je zlo kao poslastica, zlo je tako loše i slabo, u ljubavi jednostavno bol nestaje i sve postaje premalo trnje, kada vas je dvoje.
Kada vaš mač čini ljubav.
zapravo, nisam ni rekao na što mislim. Mislio sam na curu s kojom bi hodao...
Da... hodao.. što već... bio povezan na nešto više od prijatelja...
O jebem ti mater i životu tako brzo umirem a želim se vratiti u svoje 12 - te. želim mjenjati život, iči na bolje jer skrenuo sam u sljepu ulicu. Sada nema povratka, iza mene je smrt kao policajci me gleda. Ali ona če me uzeti, ubiti..
Odvesti u hladnu tamnicu, gdije ču umrijeti, istrunuti...

iznevjerio sam se u tebe bože ako te je ikada bilo, iznevjerio me je čovjek, sve... Samo bol raste as tuga ne nestaje.
Boli... govore mi, sve ce biti ok.. ali ili ne znaju da nece ili jednostavno misle da mi mogu lagati.
Sve je ok, koliko god teško bilo. Uvijek postoji rješenje i ako ga želimo, ne moramo tražiti dopuštenja..
Kill my eyes...

Odem, glup sam..
pozz





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Opis bloga

Pošto je moj blog koji sam imao samo tako nestao eto ja ne mogu bez bloga i pišem novi. Ja sam blacken, neki me znaju neki ne no dobro došli na moj novi blog.
Ovdije možete naći svega. Od isipavanja problema i pisanja sjebanih pjesama do romantićnih tekstova.
Eto to bi bio blagi opis. Stay goth, stay dark dont give a fuck about light!


MSN: blacken-the-angel@hotmail.com
ICQ : 332-137-957

O meni:

- Roden sam 12.3.1989 godine, riba sam u horoskopu.
- Moj život se sastoji od 5 stvari : 1) Ljubav 2) Romantika 3) Glazba 4) Goth 5) Alkohol
- Volim pisati sve oblike tekstova iako su mi tematike slićne i većinom pišem samo o ljubavi
- Vjećni sam pesimist i tako se osjećam neotvoreno za povrijede ( pokušavam bit bolji)
- Volim razgovarati s ljudima preko interneta na duge periode
- Stvaram si vizije svog života, kao i neke snove koje želim dohvatit
- najveći san u životu mi je imati band u kojemu pjevam svoje pjesme
- Nemam nista protiv nikoga tko nema nista protiv mene, tko postuje opcenito svako zensko bice na svijetu

Sve što volim: mjuzu, alkohol, frendove, ljubav, romantiku, nježnost, sanjarenje, snove, noć, zimu, vijetar, tehnologiju, video igre, dugu kosu, goth ljude, sve ljude koji to zasluzuju, ljude na koje globalizacija ne ostavlja utjecaj, nebo, groblje, povucena i tiha mjesta, krv, zivotinje, biljke, kolače, puding am a u biti slatko. Eh, volim se družiti s starijima jer se ne volim osjećati kao glupi klinac, haljine, korzete, kožnu odjeću, svilu, dvorce, vampire, knjige ( iako nemam vise vremena za to), tužne pjesme, vidjeti nekoga sretnim i da učinim nekoga sretnim, finsku i ostale skandinavske zemlje, englesku...

Sve što mrzim: Mrzim hrpu ljudi, mrzim crkve ( nisam sotonjara), mrzim ispiranje mozgova, laži, ne human pristup ljudima, umišljenost, nasilje nad životinjama, ne poštivanje ženskog tijela, ne poštivanje žene kao bića. Cajke!!! Ne da mi se dalje :D

Ovo sam ja

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E sada. Moja omiljena glazba i bandovi

Vrste glazbe koju slusam :
Rock (doma samo modern ali u drustvu mi je ok uvijek), metal, nu metal ( 2 banda mozd 3),
darkwave,ebm,psy trance, cyberpunk, synth pop, goth electro, industral, glam ( kao deathstars)
ambient, dark ambient, dark pop, goth pop, gothic... U biti da ne bi bilo zabune sto se tice ovoga gdje pise pop to nije pop kao jebena britney i slicne kuje vec elektro nabijačine :P

Bandovi ( metal & rock )
Cradle of filth, Deathstars, my dying bride, Children of bodom, disarmundia mundi, dimmu borgir, graveworm, agathodaimon, theatre of tragedy, leaves eyes, angtoria, negative, HIM, bloodpit, STAIND, tiamat, therion, sirenia, sentenced, linkin park, via mistica, Exilia, the gathering, nightwish, after forever, amorphis, fear factory, arch enemy, ashes you leave, darkseed, paradise lost, eternal tears of sorrow, opeth, flowing tears, god deathroned, katatonia, lake of tears, porcupine tree, pain, rotting christ, swallow the sun, the kovenant, vampiria, within temptation. evo nekak sam skratio.

Dark music ( i ostalo)

Velvet acid christ, hocico, gothminister, mortiis, delerium, deathstar assembly, the cruxshadows, betty curse, blutengel, das ich, funker vogt, ayria, asp, diary of dreams, lame immortelle, grendel, killing mirand, girls under glass, galaxy, informatik, mortal love, my chemical romance, NIN, panzer ag, infekktion, The birthday massacre, the frozen autumn, unter null, conjure one, antimatter, christian death, combichrist.

Evo slike mojih najdrazih osoba s scene ( samo par sam ih stavio ne da mi se vise)

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Ovo gore je pjevač negative-a
Ovo dolje je isto to samo iz My dying bride

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Ovo dolje je prelijepa mlada goth curica hehe

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Betty curse :)
Dolje, dani filth, ubio bi za njega

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I napokon. Što god rekli HIM ima predivne tekstove a villeta ne želim zaboravit :)

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Linkovi stranica koje koristim

Tekstovi bandova


lyrics - everything changes



lyrics - for you



lyrics - outside



lyrics - for my fallen angel



lyrics - suicide and other ...



lyrics - saffron's curse



lyrics - tearing the veil f ...



lyrics - forgotten hopes



lyrics - one last goodbye



lyrics - killing me killing you




Evanescence Lithium

Lithium, Don't wanna lock me up inside
Lithium, Don't wanna forget how it feels without
Lithium, I wanna stay in love with my sorrow
Oh but God I want to let it go

Come to bed, don't make me sleep alone
Couldn't hide the emptiness you let it show
Never wanted it to be so cold
Just didn't drink enough to say you love me

I can't hold on to me
Wonder what's wrong with me

Lithium, Don't wanna lock me up inside
Lithium, Don't wanna forget how it feels without
Lithium, I wanna stay in love with my sorrow

Oh don't want to let it lay me down this time
Drown my will to fly
Here in the darkness I know myself
Can't break free until I let it go
Let me go

Darling, I forgive you after all
Anything is better than to be alone
And in the end I guess I had to fall
Always find my place among the ashes

I can't hold on to me
Wonder what's wrong with me

Lithium, Don't wanna lock me up inside
Lithium, Don't wanna forget how it feels without
Lithium, I wanna stay in love with you
Oh I'm gonna let it go


Flyleaf All Around Me

My hands are searching for you...
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips...
My tongue dances behind my lips for you
This fire runs in through my being...
Burning...
I'm not used to seeing you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me,
thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling,
savoring this heart that's healing

My hands float up above me....
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade...
Into our secret place
The music makes me sway...
The angels singing say
We are alone with you...
I am alone and they are too with you

I'm alive, I'm alive


I can feel you all around me,
thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling,
savoring this heart that's healing

And so I cry...
The light is white...
And I see you...

I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive!

I can feel you all around me,
thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling,
savoring this heart that's healing

Take my hand I give it to you
Now you own me , all I am..
You said you would never leave me
I believe you, I beleive...

I can feel you all around me
thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling,

savoring this heart that's healed.


My Dying Bride The Light At The End Of The World

An isle, a bright shining isle stands forever, alone in the sea
Of rock and of sand and grass and shale, the isle bereft of trees.

- Small. A speck in the wide blue sea. 'Tis the last of all the land.
A dweller upon our lonesome isle, the last, lonely man? -

By the Gods he is there to never leave, to remain all his life.
His punishment for evermore, to attend the eternal light.

The lighthouse, tall and brilliant white, which stands at the end of the world.
Protecting ships and sailors too, from rock they could be hurled

Yet nothing comes and nothing goes 'sept the bright blue sea.
Which stretches near and far away, 't is all our man can see.

Though, one day, up high on rock, a bird did perch and cry.
An albatross, he shot a glance, and wondered deeply, why?

Could it be a watcher sent? A curse sent from the Gods,
who sits and cries and stares at him, the life that they have robbed.

Each year it comes to watch over him, the creature from above.
Not a curse but a reminder of the woman that he loved.

- Oh weary night, under stars, he'd lay and gaze.
Up towards the moon and stars. The suns dying haze.
Time and again, Orion's light filled our man with joy.
Within the belt, he'd see his love, remembering her voice -

The twinkle from the stars above bled peace into his heart
As long as she looks down on him he knows they'll never part

One day good, one day bad
The madness, the heat, the sun,
Out to sea, he spies upon land.
His beloved Albion.

Cliffs of white and trees of green
Children run and play, "My home land"
he cries and weeps, why so far away?

Eyes sore and red.
Filled with tears, he runs towards the sea.
To risk his life, a worthy cause, for home he would be.

Into the sea, deep and blue, the waters wash him clean.
Awake. He screams. Cold with sweat. And Albion a dream.

- Such is life upon the isle, of torment and woe.
One day good. One day bad. And some days, even hope.

The light at the end of the world burns bright for mile and mile
Yet tends the man, its golden glow, in misery all the while?

For fifty years he stands and waits, atop the light, alone.
Looking down upon his isle the Gods have made his home -

The watcher at the end of the world through misery does defile.
Remembers back to that single night and allows a tiny smile.

(His sacrifice was not so great, he insists upon the world.
Again he would crime, Again he would pay, for one moment with the girl)

Her hair, long and black it shone,
The dark, beauty of her eyes,
Olive skin and warm embrace, her memory never dies.

'Twas years ago, he remembers clear the life they once did live.
Endless love and lust for life, they promised each would give.

Alas, such love and laughter too, was short as panting breath
For one dark night, her soul was kissed by the shade of death.

(Agony, like none before, was suffered by our man).
who tends the light now burning bright on the very last of land.

(Anger raged and misery too like nothing ever before).
He cursed the Gods and man and life, and at his heart he tore.

- A deity felt sympathy and threw our man a light
'Your woman you may see again, for a single night. -

But think hard and well young man, there is a price to pay:
to tend the light at the end of the world is where you must stay.

Away from man and liufe and love.
Alone you will be. On a tiny isle.
A bright shining isle in the middle of the sea.

- "I'll tend the light, for one more night with the woman whom I love",
screamed the man, with tearful eyes, to the deity above.

And so it was that very night his lover did return.
To his arms and to their bed, together they did turn.
In deepest love and lust and passion entwined they did fall.
Lost within each other's arms they danced (in lover's ball). -

- Long was the night filled with love.
For them the world was done.
Awoke he did to brightest light,
his woman and life had gone.

To his feet he leapt.
To the sea he looked.
To the lighthouse on the stone.
The price is paid and from now on
he lives forever alone.

Fifty years have passed since then and not a soul has he seen.
but his woman lives with him still in every single dream.

'Tis sad to hear how young love has died to know that,
alone, someone has cried. But memories are ours to keep.
To live them again, in our sleep. -


Him In Joy And Sorrow

Oh girl we are the same-we are
young and lost and so afraid-
theres no cure for the past no
shelter fron the rain-all our
prayers seem to fail-in joy and
sorrow-my home is in your arms in
a world so hollow-its breaking
my heart-oh girl we are the same-
we are strong and blessed and so brave
with souls to be saved and faith regained
all our tears wiped away-

Deathstars New Dead Nation

Did you feel how the bullet took you? Did you feel easily your life got shed?
Did you feel how the system shot you, 9 mm through your fucking head!!!

I love it and I hate it and I take it and feed it
I slay it and I fuck it and I suck it and I leave it

The new dead nation
There's no illusion to chase
And each fucking time I get that shot in my face
The new dead nation

So you felt how the bullet got you, and you felt how you vivid dreams fell dead
And you felt how the system hit you filled your heart with fucking lead

Well, I love it and I hate it and I take it and feed it
I slay it and I fuck it and I suck it and I leave it

The new dead nation
There's no illusion to chase
And each fucking time I get that shot in my face
The new dead nation

I have the soul of a hologram, I have the tounge of a slave
We are the preachers of today, nothing true to preach anyway
For this life and for these lies, so suffer the extremeties
Well, I'll kill it for the lies, and death dies

Self-destruction at hand - a way to live and shape your life
But the further it goes the more and more we stretch for the knife

The new dead nation
There's no illusion to chase
And each fucking time I get that shot in my face
The dead nation

Cradle of filth Libertina Grimm

Howitzer glare and spitfire blade
Wooed by Dresden serenades
Her soundtrack now a bombing raid
Bored of vaudeville

God was six days sober
On the night that she was born
To the glistening star of a bible class
An icon now in religious porn
She was Alice through the gloryhole
An ejaculate misconception
Disney-esque, the high priestess
Of greed and deepest dark deception

All best to bury whims
For Miss Libertina Grimm

She, that little red riding crop
Brer Werewold at her stocking tops
Beneath the tightened leather strop
Of the basque of the houndervilles

At the stroke of midnight come
She polished verse and hearses
In a poisonous pen dipped in omen
To her surgeon full of general curses
In the hand of morgue redeemers
Though the dead always pleased her more
Squatting in their coffins
Flirting curtsies to the thirteenth floor

Tip your hats
For sweet Libertina Grimm

Fantasy and candy stores
Snow white and the seven straws
Smoke and mirrors on all fours...
Libertina Grimm

Her brothers grim, her sisters through
The final dance will be the cue
She amputates to fit the shoe
Libertina Grimm

Libertina Grimm

Mystery kindled in a blackened room
Nine candles lit to improve the gloom
She sees the dark as she feels womb
Full of hidden secrets
They haunt her heart, those precious few
Those Count Lestats and Betty Blues
Those tortured souls just like me and you
Full of hidden secrets

No, don’t go
Don’t you leave me
So alone
Libertina
No, don’t you go
Don’t you leave me here
So alone
Where the dead are free to roam

Cradle of filth I Am The Thorn

The needle in the eye of the hurricane
The poison in the font
The nail in the coffin of the profane
I am the lot

Maniacal the fire
That weaves inside my should
When dripping tongues of hate, envenomed, roll
Like carpet bombs in vast bazaars
My blood runs with the beasts
Though no crescent, cross
Or wandering star
Shalt witness my defeat

Born of jackal in the Vatican
To a loathsome flock I have crept behind the drapes
And a wizard there is not
Just a white flag blackened by
Singing weapons that have led
A faith that soon dominions over
Desert kingdoms of the dead

I smell the fleur du malcontent
The hellish stench
Of Judas in the dozens

Bouquets for greed and twisted law
Handmaidens of a holy war
Bring on a thousand roses more
I am the thorn
Tangled are the thickets
That spare the virgin heart
From the waking grasp of rapists in the dark

Mountaineers that strive so far
For a Heaven grown from reach
That love herself is fabled
To be missing from their peaks
Save in one sole tower
Where the presence of a rod
Stays the sleeping beauty
From the prying fingers of the mob

I smell the fleur du malcontent
The hellish stench
Of Judas in the dozens

Bouquets for greed and twisted law
Handmaidens of a holy war
Bring on a thousand roses more
I am the thorn

I am the thorn

I am the Spear of Longinus
The sword of Damocles
Kali up in arms, a bleeding sinus
The hammer of the gods in the prophet’s teeth

Saint Disgustus, President Evil
Great white hopes of a shark-eyed people
Light of the world now flicker and die

Impaled in the race, in the paling face
Where forked tongues pricked the skies
Choking on these words as I slither to their ear
A lightning strikes their blinded mains

I am not the hand of god...
I am the thorn

Territorial thieves
Ever stealing thunder for religious causes
I will bring you all down to your knees

And fuck you over


Evanescence Hello

Playground schoolbell rings again,
rainclouds come to play again,
has no one told you she's not breathing?
Hello.
I am your mind,
giving you someone to talk to.
Hello!

If I smile and don't believe,
soon I know I'll wake from this dream,
Don't try to fix me I'm not broken!
Hello!
I am the lie, living for you so you can hide!
Don't cry.

Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping!
Hello?!
I'm still here!
All thats left of yesterday...

Linkin Park Lying From You

When I pretend, everything is what I want it be,

I look exactly like what you had always wanted to see

When I pretend, I can't forget about the criminal I am

Stealing second after second just cause I know I can, but

I can't pretend this is they way it will stay, I'm just

(Trying to bend the truth)

I can't pretend I'm who you want me to be so I'm

(Lying my way from)



You

(no, no turning back now)

I wanna be pushed aside so let me go

(no, no turning back now)

Let me take me back my life

I'd rather be all alone

(no turning back now)

Anywhere on my own, cause I can see

(no, no turning back now)

The very worst past of you

Is me



I remember what they taught to me,

Remember condescending talk of who I ought to be

Remember listening to all of that and this again

So I pretened up a person who was fitting it

And now you think this person really is me and I'm

(trying to bend the truth )

But, the more I push the I'm pulling away cause I'm

(lying my way from)



You

(no, no turning back now)

I wanna be pushed aside so let me go

(no, no turning back now)

Let me take me back my life

I'd rather be all alone

(no turning back now)

Anywhere on my own, cause I can see

(no, no turning back now)

The very worst part of you, the very worst part of you

Is me



This isn't what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would have you running from me

Like this!

This isn't what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would have you running from me

Like this!

This isn't what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would have you running from me

Like this!

This isn't what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would have you running from me

Like this!



You

(no turning back now)

I wanna be pushed aside so let me go

(no, no turning back now)

Let me take me back my life

I'd rather be all alone

(no turning back now)

Anywhere on my own, cause I can see

(no, no turning back now)

The very worst part of you, the very worst part of you

Is me

Vac - Phunking freak

Murder the feelings all left aside, from all those days you try to hide, you lift out the anger and cut it dry, you soak your tears away, now you can fry. your mind melts away, you go with the flow, you hold it down, but ya can't let go. you try to speak, but you hear no sound, lying again expressed into insanity, where you will never be. cause we're all dead, cause you're all dead, cause we're all dead, cause you're all dead, cause we're all dead, cause you're all dead, cause we're all dead, cause you're all dead. we walk into the night, we cut off the right, we won't feel a thing, we're so insane. disturbed thoughts, distort your mind, you're penetrated, obliterated. we all fake it, we all try to hide, the un-relying, the lie, the feelings, the how, the when, the why. we always lie, we always lie, we always cry, we always die. push away the feeling lef t, so far away, we walked into the sun, and left our hopes astray, we hope to live another day, but when you break it all down. there's really nothing left to say, there's really nothing left to say there's really nothing left to say, so babble away, so babble away.


Graveworm Which Way

So many roads - so many places
A million towns - a milliard faces
It's called: world population
But the appropriate name - world domination
Can someone help me?
Who should I call?

In such time, guns are friends
Never ever you see shaking hands
Even childs are making war
So called freedom is away so far
Can someone help me?
Who should I call?

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I want escape, I wanna fly,
I wanna breath, I wanna cry,
I'll kill myself therefore and so,
I wanna know, where I should go!

Can someone help me?
Who should I call?
The population - is gonna fall

I'm asking - for deliverance
Suggest - I wait for a wise sentence



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