AND BABY TALK DIRTY TO ME

Saturday Update: Visted with Hestia today at the ER vet. She seemed more alert but still has labored breathing. The areas where the fluids have pooled under her skin seem smaller and that is a good sign. And, she is "leaking" whenever she walks or even just stands little drips of the infectious fluids under her skin fall through the bite wounds. That is good as it has to come out and the more it does the less pressure on her bruised lung. Tonight is the first night that I do not have an overwhelming fear that she will die. And for that I am thankful. I will visit her again tomorrow and on Monday morning return her to the regular vet. Every day brings her a bit closer to healing and returning to her wonderful normal self. Thank you for your thoughts and prayers.

Friday Update: Last night the ER vet called at 11:30pm - the first time they have called and I panicked when I saw the missed call from them at 11:45pm (I was asleep). Turns out a new vet was there and wanted permission to do lung x-rays. Okay, I said and administer oxygen if needed. It was difficult to go back to sleep but I did and at 3:30am when I awoke again and called they had done the x-rays but not needed oxygen. Today the regular vet was able to compare last night's x-rays with Wednesday's x-rays and determine there was a little improvement in the lung capacity. Good. We are still not out of the woods, but it was great news that the lung may be improving. Tonight and this weekend, Hestia will be at the ER vet (unless we need the specialist) and they are so wonderful, taking calls and inquiries any time and as often as needed. The assistant this morning told me that she put down a blanket and towel near her workstation so Hestia did not have to stay in a kennel and that Hestia lay nearby rather than in the kennel (she hates kennels). It is a true relief that she has this option. Thank you for your continued support as Hestia nears a turning point we are all on high reserves and your energy helps immensely. Thanks.

Thursday Update: Hestia had excellent care at the ER vet last night with lots of the nasty infectious fluid being pushed from her body out the bite wounds by the fabulous assistants. I called about 3:30am and they told me this was a critical part of her recovery, leading me to wonder if it was being done by her regular vet. The regular vet and I had a very serious discussion about this required and necessary procedure being done by her staff. I was assured and saw evidence of this activity when I picked up Hestia to take her to the ER vet again tonight. She will spend the weekend there as well, getting nearly 24/7 attention. The ER vet documents each activity and someone was working with her and adjusting her to keep her off the bruised lung about every 2 hours from 7pm when she got there until 7:30am when I picked her up this morning. She also got little "treats" of bland medical canned dog food and baby food each time. Our vet says we are looking at a minimum of weeks of recovery, so it will be slow going. If we can just get the infection under control and take the pressure off that lung so the bruising can heal and we can determine if it is punctured or has fluid I will be able to breathe a bit better. Your thoughts and prayers are so much appreciated and needed. Thank you.

Wednesday Update: Hestia spiked a fever this morning and was listless. The vet is concerned she has an infection in her lungs and the x-rays revealed that indeed her left lung is not functioning fully. So, rather than risk her having difficulties tonight alone at our regular vet I transferred her to the ER vet for the night. He will work with her to see if he can get he to lay on the other side, giving the bruised lung some relief. They will also be there to help her if she needs anything. We worked really hard to ensure that she stayed warm and did not move much after being carried to the car and then out of the car - no walking. My heart hurts for my little girl and I was caught off guard by this turn today. Please pray for her lung recovery. Thank you.

Tuesday Update: Bloodwork indicates that Hestia has stopped internal bleeding - that is very good. The vet indicates they need to continue to monitor her skin that has massive bruising to ensure that she does not "loose" the skin (omg I had no idea of this concern). But, the vet does sound hopeful and is pleased with the progression of her healing. When I asked how long she would need to stay the only answer is "we have to wait and see". On a more uplifting note, Eros went with me to visit today. He was happy to see her yet cautiously sniffing her wounds. She greeted him by touching his nose which was about all she could do since she has a cone on her head to keep her from licking her wounds and breaking off the scabs. Your positive thoughts and prayers are bringing little Hestia closer to complete recovery. Thank you.

Monday Update: Hestia can walk! She is able to

The pictures above were taken during my graduation day last year. The graduation day in Japan is so much different compared to Malaysia's. Very simple and boring as well, haha. Terimbau kembali kenangan masa buat preparation course kat UM dulu, betapa happening-nya suasana graduation day masa tu. Seminggu lebih jugak kalau tak silap, dengan pestanya, rehearsalnya, macam2 laa, meriah sungguh! Kalau kat sini, tak sampai 1 hari pun, dah habis. Tak teruja langsung! Dah laa tak ada chance nak naik stage ambil sijil, cet!
That's why I didn't mind at all when my parents didn't come. In fact, most of Malaysia students didn't intrested to attend their own grad day instead! LOL

Update on my Rafiqh...

He becomes more active nowadays... He will searching for me, comes to me and pulls my clothes every 2-3hours to "recharge his energy" (read: breastfeeding), hahaha. He always refused to be confined in his walker. Asal letak jer melalak! Haiyooo... I always asked him, "walker tu cubit Rafiqh ek?", "walker tu gigit baby yer?", hihihi... He wants me to put him on the floor so that he is able to move freely, he wants to go everywhere without limit! Yes, I mean EVERYWHERE! In and out the bedroom, in and out the living room, in and out the "shop", toilet, entrance and even outside corridor! OMG. I am so tired to chase him. Actually, it is okey to let him plays all by himself but still I need to monitor him closely. Just in case he eats anything that he picks up from the floor, plays with dangerous things, climbs table and chair, so on and so forth!

Almost setiap hari dia dapat "sakit", terhantuk laa, terjatuh laa, tersungkur laa, macam2 ter laa lagi. I memang rasa guilty sangat bila dia nangis sebab sakit, tapi I can't follow him all the time. Tambahan pulak sekarang dah bijak memanjat. He can stand up steadily using his legs now, but it seems not enough to stand only, he really work hard to climb, so everytime he stands up, his leg will merayau2 trying to find something, nak pijak as a base, the victim always be me, my legs, my body or even my face. Kalau dah tak ada apa nak pijak, remote tv pun boleh laa, asalkan boleh tinggi sikit, dia bantai jer. Disebabkan pergerakan yang tak terkawal ni laa, I prefer letak dia dalam walker, selamat sikit rasa!

Kalau dulu, my kejiranan selalu kata our house is quiet, tak dengar bunyi bising pun. FYI, Japanese elergic dengan bunyi bising. We must respect others. Pukul 9 malam dah tak boleh buat bising, nanti polis datang! Yep, POLIS! Biasanya Malaysian tak ambil hal tentang pencemaran bunyi ni, memang biasa suka buat bising, melepak ramai2, buka tv/radio/kom kuat2, haa memang ada cases students Malaysia kena halau! Especially for those who live in "family" apato. Kalau tinggal di kawasan students yang single, biasanya bising pun diorang tak kesah sangat. Kami menyewa apartment family, most of our neighbours adalah orang2 tua pangkat datuk@nenek, oh mereka sangat cerewet! Kalau dulu mereka kata rumah kami sunyi sepi, haa sekarang dah bising dah! Dengan suara Rafiqh menangis laa, suara I menjerit terkejut bila Rafiqh "accident" dan macam2 lagi ler, hehe...

So far, I dah dapat kenalpasti, ada 3 "ubat" untuk hentikan tangisan Rafiqh...
1. Menyusu.
Tanya jer, "baby nak susu?", terus merengek2 manja nak nyusu, hehe. I love to see his reaction. Alahai cair hati keibuanku melihat betapa anakku sangat perlukan susuku. Somehow now he already can understand what I mean. Menyusu adalah ubat paling mujarab untuk banyak "penyakit" bagi bayi, seperti rasa insecure, marah, sedih, sakit dan banyak lagi laa...
2. YouTube.
Tengah2 nangis bila pasang lagu2 yang dia suka, terus diam!
3. Sejadah.
Haa part ni pelik sikit. Both of us tak faham betul kenapa laa dia suka sangat sejadah! Pantang nampak sejadah terbuka, terkekek2 ketawa merangkak ke sejadah. Sejadah tu lambai2 dia agaknya, hahaha... Setiap kali I solat, dia duduk laa tepi sejadah, tengok I tunggang-tungging, kadang2 dia ketawa2 sambil tepuk tangan, bila I tak tahan, I pun terketawa sama, ampeh jer, tak pasal2 kena ulang balik!
Satu malam tu lepas solat, sebelum sempat nak lipat sejadah, dia dah panjat naik, since dia baru tukar baju dan diaper, I tak kesah laa. Ayahnya ada, so ayahnya cuba nak uji dia. Bila ayahnya kata sujud, terus tertonggeng sujud, cute sangat. Bila suruh bangun, dia bangun siap pegang both tangan ala2 doa gitu. Then ayahnya kata "Rafiqh, sujud Rafiqh", dia sujud balik, tertonggeng2 macam2 arah laa, terbalik pun ada jugak, sebab nak sujud hala kat ayahnya punya pasal. Sakit perut gelakkan dia. Dah siap tu, terus lipat sejadah, hehe... Sejak hari tu, kalau nak solat, kami pakaikan kopiah kat dia, and call him "pak sheikh"...
Besar nanti, rajin2 solat yer sayang...