. . . AlterNativ(k)a . . .
18.01.2006., srijeda
What's going on with me?!?
ne kužim zašto!!!fakat ne mogu razumjeti samu sebe! zašto sam ga opet odjebala??? sjećate se subote kad sam vam obzanila da se sljedeći dan idem nać s jan(chek)om? e, pa nismo se našli. i to zato kaj sam ga odjebala... ali nema nekog posebnog razloga, bili smo već jednom vani i bilo nam je fakat super, i zabavan je i zgodan i ima lijepe zube (to volim :D) i fakat mi je lijepo pričati s njim... neznam zaš sam ga odjebala tad, valjda mi se nije dalo... ok... u ponedjeljak smo se opet trebali nać, pa sam tada nešto izmislila... jučer nije bilo nikakvog dogovora, a danas mi stigne poruka: "ideš van večeras? ak ne, oćemo na cugu? kino? spavanje? :))" kad sam dobila tu poruku bila sam sigurna da ću ić s njim... onda sam se sjetila da sam se dogovorila neš s kety... ali to je bilo lako odgodivo... dobro, baš i nije, jer nas je prošli put monika sjebala pa nismo išle same van... ali mogla sam ja nju odbit da sam htjela... mislim nije to sad neki po životu bitan izlazak. i dobro, nakon nekog vremena ja sjedim s mobitelom u ruci i razmišljam dal da odem s njim van ili ne... da ili ne... i nakon nekog vremena stigne poruka...: "večeras, 21.15., you&me /&bonno/, sijamo se, kety" i ok, ja zaključim da je to bio nekakav znak da moram ić s kety, a ne s njim, danas... moja poruka jancheku: "sorry, mobitel mi je bio u torbi, nisam skužila poruku! već sam se dogovorila s jednom frendicom koju nisam vidjela 100 godina i fakat je nemogu odjebat.. sorry... možemo sutra u neki birc il tak neš? kiss :*" zašto sam ja sad njemu u toj poruci toliko zasrala??? fakat ŽELIM izać s njim, ali muči me onaj neki osjećaj... osjećaj kao da sam s nekim i da sad u podsjvijesti ja mislim da ako izađem s njim da ću ja nekoga prevariti... ali koga??? kaj postoji netko ko mi se sviđa a da ni ja sama to neznam?? fakat mi niš nije jasno!!! e sutra definitivno idem s njim van, majke mi, ubit ću nekog ako me opet neki nagon navede da ga iz neobjašnjivog razloga odjebem... :/ i još se neš čudno sa mnom događa...  naime uzela sam si neku bilježnicu u kojoj pišem sve kaj mi u tom trenu pada napamet - malo stihove, malo besmislene rečenice, malo uspomene... neznam zašto imam potrebu sve zapisivati (čak i na ovaj blog...)... nikad to prije nisam radila... i čak tu bilježnicu nosim u školu i danas sam ispisala cijelu naslovnu stranu stihovima crvene jabuke... baš dobro izgleda... =)) jesam ja normalna??? ima li ko neki savjet, utjehu, lijepu riječ??? sve je dobrodošlo!!! kissssss |
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 - ime mi je AlterNativ(k)a - imam mladolikih (?) 15 godina (:D) - muče me u gimnaziji - visoka sam oko 172 cm i imam (najčešće :D)55 kg - moj mail - alternativka85@net.hr  - obožavam internet i sve povezano s kompom (iako da me vidite, ne biste to pomislili) - obožavam spavati, sanjati, ležati, sjediti i općenito sve vrste odmaranja :) - obožavam jesti (žderem ko stoka a niš mi se ne prima (mršava sam...zapravo više i ne tak ko što sam bila prije)) - imam čudnu opsesiju oko brojeva 5 i 8 (vjerujem da mi je sve što je povezano s njima sretno ili donosi sreću) - mrzim obavljati kućanske poslove i učiti (fakat prezirem to dvoje) - još prezirem i matematiku i njemački  - jako volim chad michael murraya i sean farisa <3 - nemam dečka i jako sam nesretna ovaj čas zbog toga :( - pušim od osmog razreda i namjeravam prestati s tom navikom... ali neznam kad :) - ne dogiram se :) - imam jako jako jako veliku fobiju od igla, pogotovo ovih kojima se fiksa... ne bi to nikada mogla napraviti, užasno mi je to gadno... bojim se i kad me idu cijepiti... - ne volim bube iako ih se ne bojim jer sam ko mala ja ubijala bube umjesto moje stare koja pobjegne iz kuće kad vidi pauka... pa sam se navikla :)  - od alkohola obožavam votku od šumskog voća i votku-juice - slušam apsolutno sve - to je moje slušanje svega počelo time da su sve moje frendice slušale potpune suprotnosti u glazbi pa mi je svaka dala po nešto da preslušam, i meni se jednostavno svidjelo - sve - jako volim starke, iako imam samo jedan par - bež s maslinastozelenom crtom - ali namjeravam čim dođe proljeće kupit crne... već sad čuvam pare za to =) - zanimljivo je to da mi prije nikad nisu baš zapele za oko, tek prije kojih godinu dana kad sam probala jedne sam se zaljubila u njih  *****
. : songs with nice lyrics : .
Guns N' Roses - Civil War (Slash / McKagan / Rose) Look at your young men fighting Look at your women crying Look at your young men dying The way they've always done before Look at the hate we're breeding Look at the fear we're feeding Look at the lives we're leading The way we've always done before My hands are tied The billions shift from side to side And the wars go on with brainwashed pride For the love of God and our human rights And all these things are swept aside By bloody hands time can't deny And are washed away by your genocide And history hides the lies of our civil wars D'you wear a black armband When they shot the man Who said Peace could last forever And in my first memories They shot Kennedy I went numb when I learned to see So I never fell for Vietnam We got the wall of D.C. to remind us all That you can't trust freedom When it's not in your hands When everybody's fightin' For their promised land And I don't need your civil war It feeds the rich while it buries the poor Your power hungry sellin' soldiers In a human grocery store Ain't that fresh I don't need your civil war Look at the shoes your filling Look at the blood we're spilling Look at the world we're killing The way we've always done before Look in the doubt we've wallowed Look at the leaders we've followed Look at the lies we've swallowed And I don't want to hear no more My hands are tied For all I've seen has changed my mind But still the wars go on as the years go by With no love of God or human rights 'Cause all these dreams are swept aside By bloody hands of the hypnotized Who carry the cross of homicide And history bears the scars of our civil wars We practice selective annihilation of mayors And government officials For example to create a vacuum Then we fill that vacuum As popular war advances Peace is closer ** I don't need your civil war It feeds the rich while it buries the poor Your power hungry sellin' soldiers In a human grocery store Ain't that fresh And I don't need your civil war I don't need your civil war I don't need your civil war Your power hungry sellin' soldiers In a human grocery store Ain't that fresh I don't need your civil war I don't need one more war I don't need one more war Whaz so civil about war anyway Guns N' Roses - November Rain When I look into your eyes I can see a love restrained But darlin' when I hold you Don't you know I feel the same 'Cause nothin' lasts forever And we both know hearts can change And it's hard to hold a candle In the cold November rain We've been through this such a long long time Just tryin' to kill the pain But lovers always come and lovers always go An no one's really sure who's lettin' go today Walking away If we could take the time to lay it on the line I could rest my head Just knowin' that you were mine All mine So if you want to love me then darlin' don't refrain Or I'll just end up walkin' In the cold November rain Do you need some time...on your own Do you need some time...all alone Everybody needs some time...on their own Don't you know you need some time...all alone I know it's hard to keep an open heart When even friends seem out to harm you But if you could heal a broken heart Wouldn't time be out to charm you Sometimes I need some time...on my own Sometimes I need some time...all alone Everybody needs some time...on their own Don't you know you need some time...all alone And when your fears subside And shadows still remain, ohhh yeahhh I know that you can love me When there's no one left to blame So never mind the darkness We still can find a way 'Cause nothin' lasts forever Even cold November rain Don't ya think that you need somebody Don't ya think that you need someone Everybody needs somebody You're not the only one You're not the only one Nirvana - Lithium I'm so happy 'cause today I found my friends They're in my head I'm so ugly, that's okay, 'cause so are you We broke our mirrors Sunday morning is everyday for all I care And I'm not scared Light my candles, in a daze 'Cause I've found god Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah I'm so lonely, that's ok I shaved my head And I'm not sad And just maybe I'm to blame for all I've heard I'm not sure I'm so excited, I can't wait to meet you there And I don't care I'm so horny, that's okay My will is good Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah I like it- I'm not gonna crack I miss you - I'm not gonna crack I love you - I'm not gonna crack I killed you - I'm not gonna crack I like it- I'm not gonna crack I miss you - I'm not gonna crack I love you - I'm not gonna crack I killed you - I'm not gonna crack I'm so happy 'cause today I found my friends They're in my head I'm so ugly, but that's okay, 'cause so are you We broke our mirrors Sunday morning is everyday for all I care And I'm not scared Light my candles in a daze 'Cause I've found god Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah |
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