mourning palace

četvrtak, 24.08.2006.

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vratila sam se.... na žalost no.. i to pol tjedna prije neg sam trebala... koji je to šok bio za mene. rekli su mi dva dana prije da idemo danas.. popizdila sam burninmad..
dobro.. ajmo od početka. bilo je jebeno thumbup. i puno se toga dogodilo.. obogatila sam se – dobila sam 100 dolara, 50 eura, robu i još neke sitnice (ljubičasti upaljač ko suvenir cerek).. a još bi trebala dobiti para il otić u šoping. kako volim svoj rođendan..
kad smo došli na aerodrom sjetila sam se da sam zaboravila punjač za mp3 headbang. niko nije imao niti malo suosjećanja da me odveze tih 20-ak minuta natrag doma da ga uzmem. tak da sam ovih 2 i pol tjedna furala laptop po kući sam da mogu nekaj slušati. totalno nepraktično.
upoznala sam pun kurac ljudi. i jednog dečka zbog kojeg sam preboljela jednog lika koji mi se totalno predugo sviđao. e pa hvala cerek.. svaku večer sam bila vani i prvih tjedan i pol sam svaku večer pila votku (meni najdražu čistu (iako su me svi gledali ko da nisam normalna jer kak to mogu pit.. e pa mogu..), jako dobru od borovnice (postanem sentimentalna kad je se sjetim.. da.. al nakon što sam popila malu većinu (?) boce mi se zgadila i neću ju više piti.. ovaj mjesec), i naravno džus votku). e onda sam se malo prebacila na tekilu, bambus i sl.. ponovo sam se navukla i na pljuge i to zahvaljujući mom bratiću koji me razmazio i sad ne mogu pušit ništa osim laki strajka i malbora. fensi.. al planiram prestat.. ak sam mogla prošle godine mogu i ove.. ne mogu si pomoć - jednostavno sam preškrta.. a i nemam tolko para..
čak sam dva puta pokisla dok sam se vraćala doma. prvi put mi se frendica napila pa smo ju furali doma (meni je to totalno bilo zabavno.. iako ona ne bi mogla reći isto, jel' da, mala naughty?).. drugi put je bilo još bolje.. frendica (ova ista) je spavala kod mene (mmm naughty) i uhvatio nas je pljusak pa smo došli do mene totalno mokre s još jednim likom i curom (koja je bila relativno dosta pijana i pobjegla je od doma). taj dan smo fakat imale sreće - starci su mi bili budni u sobi do s otvorenim vratima.. da su ušli u sobu trebalo bi mi jako puno vremena da im objasnim situaciju.. hvala bogu nisu skužili.. iako mi nije jasno kak.. taj dan smo nas dvije otišle van s još dva dečka iz požege i pričale s njima do pol 5 ujutro. to mi isto nije jasno kak nisu skužili, al dobro... to bježanje smo opet ponovile al ovaj put s mojim bratićem.. i još dva lika.. sad baš nismo bili te sreće.. mislim, bili smo glupi kaj smo mislili da se ista stvar može ponovit dva puta u jednom tjednu.. dobro, stara me uhvatila i od tad sam kao u kazni.. iako sam prekjučer iskoristila priliku i staru nakon čašice, dvije, tri amara odvela u wc nekog kafića, rasplakala se i rekla kak mi je užasno žao i sve to i... i to je bilo to.. moje suze zlata vrijede.. pustila me van.. i beskrajno sam joj zahvalna na tome.. i fakat mi je žao kaj se tolko uplašila.. jebiga, previše me voli... ko ne bi... mda... volim i ja nju cerek..
u svakom slučaju, prebrzo mi je prošlo.. i još su me fakat zajebali kaj smo išli danas. a ja isplanirala cijeli tjedan.. nisam se ni kupala ni niš.. žnj.. i u petak sam baš htjela ić na hladno pivo i let 3 , ali ne... koju veliku potrebu imam za nekim koncertom... fak.. jedino mi je zbog dvije stvari drago kaj sam se vratila – tamo ima jebenih paukova, škorpiona, gusjenica, stonoga… da skratim – svega onoga kaj ja ne podnosim. jedan dan mi je bio ogromni pauk na torbi. više ju ni štapom ne bi takla. i druga stvar – doma radim kaj hoću a da se ne moram brinut hoću li nekog probudit, hoće li mi neko uletit u kupaonu (da, na moru je strgana brava od wc-a tak da nije zabavno.. uopće), i najvažnije – mogu spavat sa upaljenom linijom cerek.. znači imam svoju slobodu… jej…
i sad sam se ja vratila i dogovorila se s ljudima za van i sve to i dođe mi stara da ne mogu van.. očito sam još u kazni a nisam toga ni svjesna.. a imam potrebu izać.. napokon se malo nakupilo ljudi...
e i još me samo ovo zanima - ZAŠTO ŠKOLA POČINJE ZA TJEDAN I POL??? da bar počne sad odma.. totalno sam nabrijana za štrebanje.. da ziher.. ne mogu ja u školu... ja bi se negdje preselila... bilo gdje... tu mi je glupo..
moji se nekaj sad dogovaraju da bi iduće ljeto otišli do nju jorka.. to bi bilo jako dobro... al onda ne bi mogla bit na moru cijelo ljeto kak sam planirala.. iako mi starci nedaju jer su mi baka i deda kao prestari, a ja idem po noći vani pa im je prenaporno… al naći ću ja način.. ma sad mi se ne da razmišljat.. jedino što me tješi su božićni praznici za koja 4 mjeseca... sad će to brzo.... mah

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Amon Amarth - VICTORIUS MARCH

Ten heavy feet
Walk the bloodsoiled ground
With rhythm these
Five warriors march

No matter how much
The bleeding wounds
From enemy swordcuts
Hurt to the bone

The revenge they sought
Was taken in blood
No mercy was showed
No mercy was showed

They ignore the pain
That hammerlike pounds
From falls, off slain horses,
To the ground

No signs of weakness
No signs of weariness
Not even a glimpse
Of remorse in their eyes

They slew men ruthless
Fed the wolves with flesh
And now they leave
This land side by side

Now they're headed home
Five swordsmen who fought repentlessly
Their story will be told
Of five brave men endlessly

All sorrow is left
For the women to bare
The children cries
They live in fear

No man was spared
No house or farm remains
No christian woman unraped
Their church consumed by flames

Their steel shines red
With enemy blood
It sings of victory
Granted by the Gods
And as they return
Bleeding but proud
The horizon burns
And the song is ringing loud



Children Of Bodom - DOWNFALL

The night of timeless fire is drawing near
I flee... Throughout the years of throe
Watching through a mirror, as I fall apart
I see a wreck, I'm burning

I see angels burning, falling down in ruins
Looking down I see me, I'm my own enemy

Watching myself decaying, falling from high spirits
I flee... Throughout the ruins of me
Longing for finding my way out
Leaving myself, there's nothing left for me
The ruins are about to crumble down.

The flame is dying by shivery winds of jet black skies
It reflects hatred in my eyes

I see angels burning, falling down in ruins
Looking down I see my ashes scattered around my grave

Angels whispering fire, no longer I'm alive
Settled down I'm done with the trip to my kingdom come



Dimmu Borgir - MOURNING PALACE

Daylight has finally reached it's end
As evenfall strikes into the sky
Far away in the dark glimpsing moonlight
Sickening souls cry out in pain

Whispering voices summoning screams
Waiting for Satan to bless their sins
Blackhearted angels fallen from grace
Possessed by the search for utter darkness

Hear the cries from the Mourning Palace
Feel the gloom of restless spirits
Hear the screams from the Mouring Palace
Feel the doom of haunting chants

Eternal is their lives in misery
Eternal is their lives in grief
Abandoned in a void of nothingness
A chain of anger, a fetter of despair

In this garden of depraved beings
This unsacred place of helpless ones
Satan blessed the creatures
Inswathed them in endless night

Whispering voices, summoning screams
Waiting for Satan to bless their sins
Blackhearted angels fallen from grace
Possessed by the search for utter darkness



Iced Earth - DARK SAGA

The deal was rigged
There's darkness in my soul
I want to die again

An empty soul shrouded in darkness
Alone and confused what am I?
Images flash memories jaded
He took my life God damn his lies

Fight spawn of the damned, bring down the heavens
Smash in the gates, burn 'em down
You must accept the fate that you've chosen
You will obey your destiny

I cheated myself for love
Love unconditional
Now just to see her face
I've lost it all

I know there's goodness in me
Though I'm not the same
I will defy the master
I will refuse to be his slave

No, I was betrayed I can't accept this
My future's unclear, it's a lie
I'll follow my heart stand and be counted
The curse will lift I will survive



Iron Maiden - HALLOWED BE THY NAME

I’m waiting in my cold cell when the bell begins to chime
Reflecting on my past life and it doesn’t have much time
Cos at 5 o’clock they take me to the gallows pole
The sands of time for me are running low

When the priest comes to read me the last rites
I take a look through the bars at the last sights
Of a world that has gone very wrong for me

Can it be there’s some sort of error
Hard to stop the surmounting terror
Is it really the end not some crazy dream

Somebody please tell me that I’m dreaming
It’s not so easy to stop from screaming
But words escape me when I try to speak
Tears they flow but why am I crying
After all I am not afraid of dying
Don’t believe that there is never an end

As the guards march me out to the courtyard
Someone calls from a cell God be with you
If there’s a God then why has he let me die?

As I walk all my life drifts before me
And though the end is near I’m not sorry
Catch my soul cos it’s willing to fly away

Mark my words please believe my soul lives on
Please don’t worry now that I have gone
I’ve gone beyond to see the truth

When you know that your time is close at hand
Maybe then you’ll begin to understand
Life down there is just a strange illusion.



My Dying Bride - MY WINE IN SILENCE

Where are you now my love?
My sweet one.
Where have you gone oh my love?
I'm so alone.

I only think of you.
And it drives me down.
I only dream of you.

Come here
My lover
I'll keep you
I will change you
Come here
My slave
You will live
Forever
Screaming
Crying
My lover
With you
I'm gone
At last

I'll come to you. Take my hand.
Hold me again. Please take my hand

Who are you?!
What were you?!
My beauty
I can't tell
How I feel
How I felt
You have paid
For your
un-kind-ness
With You
I'm done
At last

Please hold me now my love.
Where are you now, oh my sweet love.



Opeth - HARVEST

Stay with me awhile
Rise above the vile
Name my final rest
Poured into my chest

Into the orchard I walk peering way past the gate
Wilted scenes for us who couldn't wait
Drained by the coldest caress, stalking shadows ahead
Halo of death, all I see is departure
Mourner's lament but it's me who's the martyr

Pledge yourself to me
Never leave me be
Sweat breaks on my brow
Given time ends now

Into the orchard I walk peering way past the gate
Wilted scenes for us who couldn't wait
Drained by the coldest caress, stalking shadows ahead
Halo of death, all I see is departure
Mourner's lament but it's me who's the martyr

Spirit painted sin
Embers neath my skin
Veiled in pale embrace
Reached and touched my face

Into the orchard I walk peering way past the gate
Wilted scenes for us who couldn't wait
Drained by the coldest caress, stalking shadows ahead
(Release your grip, let me go, into the night)
Halo of death, All I see is departure
Mourner's lament but it's me who's the martyr



Red Hot Chili Peppers - DON'T FORGET ME

I'm an ocean in your bedroom
Make you feel warm
Make you want to re-assume
Now we know it all for sure

I'm a dance hall dirty breakbeat
Make the snow fall
Up from underneath your feet
Not alone, I'll be there
Tell me when you want to go

I'm a meth lab first rehab
Take it all off
And step inside the running cab
There's a love that knows the way

I'm the rainbow in your jail cell
All the memories of
Everything you've ever smelled
Not alone, I'll be there
Tell me when you want to go

Sideways falling
More will be revealed my friend
Don't forget me
I can't hide it
Come again make me excited

I'm an inbred and a pothead
Two legs that you spread
Inside the tool shed
Now we know it all for sure

I could show you
To the free field
Overcome and more
Will always be revealed
Not alone, I'll be there
Tell me when you want to go

Sideways falling
More will be revealed my friend
Don't forget me
I can't hide it
Come again get me excited

I'm the bloodstain
On your shirt sleeve
Coming down and more are coming to believe
Now we know it all for sure

Make the hair stand
Up on your arm
Teach you how to dance
Inside the funny farm
Not alone, I'll be there
Tell me when you want to go



Smashing Pumpkins - SOMA cerek

Nothing left to say
And all I've left to do
Is run away
From you

And she led me up, down
With secrets I cant keep
Close your eyes and sleep
Dont wait up for me
Hush now dont you speak
To me

Wrap my hurt in you
And took my shelter in that pain
The opiate of blame
Is you broken heart, your heart

So now Im all by myself
As Ive always felt
Ill betray my tears
To anyone caught in our ruse of fools

One last kiss for me...yeah
One last kiss good night

Didnt want to lose you once again
Didnt want to be your friend
Fulfill a promise made of tears
And crawled back to you

Now Im all by myself
As Ive always felt
And Ill betray myself
To anyone, anyone but you

So let the sadness come again
On that you can depend on me
Until the bitter, bitter end
When good sleeps in bliss

And Im all by myself
As Ive always felt
And Ill betray myself
To anyone



Tool - OPIATE

Choices always were a problem for you.
What you need is someone strong to guide you.
Deaf and blind and dumb and born to follow,
what you need is someone strong to guide you..
like me, like me, like me, like me

If you want to get your soul to heaven,
trust in me .
Now don't you judge or question.
You are broken now ,
but faith can heal you.
Just do everything I tell you to do.
Deaf and blind and dumb and born to follow.
What you need is someone strong to guide you.
Deaf and blind and dumb and born to follow.
Let me lay my holy hand upon you.

My Gods will
becomes me.
When he speaks out,
he speaks through me.
He has needs
like I do.
We both want
to rape you.

Jesus Christ, why don't you come save my life now
Open my eyes and blind me with your light

If you want to get your soul to heaven,
trust in me .
Now don't you judge or question.
You are broken now ,
but faith can heal you.
Just do everything I tell you to do.

Jesus Christ, why don't you come save my life now.
Open my eyes, blind me with your light now.

Deaf and blind and dumb and born to follow,
Let me lay my holy hand upon you.

My Gods will
becomes me.
When he speaks,
he speaks through me.
He has needs
like I do.
We both want
to rape you