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It's almost end of the year. It's time to see how this year has come out. Well at least in terms of Jessica.

Might start with the boring part, the Jessica's 2006 Commitments, those things at start of the year one gets to promise that will accomplish by end of the year. Lets see how good Jessica was on doing them.

1.- Keep building the girl wardrobe, Ok this one definitively was a complete success, during the year I got lots, and lots of girl clothes, perhaps way too much, perhaps its even beginning to be problematic. Neeh, a girl can't never have too much clothes.

2.- Loose 15 pounds, Ok bad Jessica, she was supposed to loose weight, and well at some point at middle of the year she was starting to, but then got lazy and slowly stopped doing exercise, and recover whatever might have lost, and I think even got a few bit more. Ok, bad Jessica, no more chocolate for her next year.

3.- Not get a haircut, This was a bit easy, so yes I didn't got a haircut in the whole year, so now my hair is a bit longer than a year ago.

4.- Talk to someone about Jessica, Ok this one is a tricky one, I could just say "well through the blog I talked to the whole word on internet about Jessica", but that was not the deal, I could also say "Hey I talked about Jessica with the other girls I have met even on messenger or the few I met in real life", but that wasn't also the deal, so, that's another that I didn't do, and thinking of it, I don't even think I might be ready to, it's scary to think about it, so better erase this one.

5.- Pierce ears. Ok, this one looked like something of a good idea when I thought about it, basically the point was to be able to wear earrings some time, but since I discovered that there are some kind of earrings that I can use without my ears getting holes, so I can say I managed to did the purpose of it, so I can cross it off the list.

6.- Keep this blog, Ok this one definitively got accomplished, I did blog quite often (sure not daily, but no need to be that way).

7.- Going out at least one time, Ok this one got accomplished in certain conditions, I did went out as Jessica not only once but several times. Yes its possible to argue that they were under some conditions that kind of not exposed Jessica to interact much to other people, but definitively it was more than what I thought at the start of the year.

8.- Get a professional makeup and a photo shoot. And this one also accomplished.


Ok, so the count is
5 done
2 not done
1 that got changed in the way, so I count it as done.

Not bad, plus I got quite some great experiences as Jessica, and as the whole human entity.

Kisses

Spooky Jessica

PS. about the pic, no I am not giving you the bad-eye curse, I just wanted to shoe some of the eye makeups. I love how my eyes look quite evil and cute (or so I think, but as always, it could just be the craziness in me seeing that)

I had to do a photoshoot the other day.

I'm used to being behind the camera, not in front of it, and so it was a bit nervewracking. And by "bit," I mean, "very." I was constantly told how I was doing great, and then every couple of minutes, the hair and makeup person would yell, "Going in!" and would readjust the smallest portion of my hair or throw on another brushstroke of blush.

The photographer mentioned that he wanted me to laugh more, and that I shouldn't worry because if they really thought I was awful or looked bad, they would just say so and the shoot wouldn't be as productive and they would find a new way to go.

I got to thinking about perception. So here are two photos. One is of me one day in a pajama top after haphazardly blowdrying my hair post shower, no makeup, no styling, no angles. Nothing. The second was taken later in the day after my shoot (My lips look awesome. Go Lancome! By the way, tthe makeup was sooo light and bright. I now know how I'd look if I were born Caucasian), and I held the camera up slightly, as I normally do, in that myspacey way so that I look up instead of straight or down.

Somewhere in there, Keats comes to mind: "Beauty is truth, truth beauty..." But what is beautiful when both photos are raw and undoctored, yet so very different, and wherein lies the truth?

I often wonder how I look to other people, versus how I think I look myself. My self image is somewhere in between, a mix of the two. Regardless, it's supremely fascinating to me how a few dabs of color, a tilt of the head, or placing the lens an inch higher can make such a huge difference.

Also, if you see me out and about and I look like shite that day, let me know. ;)