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Empty and tired. Floating in the void of my mind, barely feeling the bed underneath me. Sleep calls to me, softly enveloping me with her unseen arms and slowly taking my consciousness away. I'm sad. Nostalgic. Wanting all the bad things to disappear, crawl away with their slimy legs and that all that's left be that void, warm and comforting... The room is lit by a little lamp, throwing guarding shades all over it, giving away the feeling of safety. To me, she is far. Doing something, her serene face shaded by the lamp on the side that I can see her on. She turns slightly, leaning her left arm on the chair, putting her chin on it, calmly looking at me. All peace of the world is in her eyes. All calmness. All elegance. Nothing is out there, nothing exists, except the complexity of the shadows and the things in the room, but even they are blurred together.Slowly she gets up, stirring nothing but the ocean of air drifting around, and glides across the room. As if my soul has been evaporating slowly from me, swirling and dissolving slowly in the heights, like smoke from a fire, I can hardly sense and see her coming, everything slowly seems like a mass of deep, evening-dying colors. Gently, she touches my face, putting her palm on my cheek, and I am gone, giving her my soul, my life as her property. A child unconscious in the arms of a stranger accidentally stumbled upon. For I am too weak too hold myself any more. I float in the void of my mind, barely feeling the bed underneath me, floating next to her, by her command.
She takes my heart and guards it safely, embracing it peacefully, tightly in her arms. Sitting next to me on the bed, softly she draws my head to lie on her chest, and I lose all strength. She now holds me in her arms, complete control over me as an existence. I feel unbreakable poles slide around me, melting together in a tight, secure cage. Nothing can get in now. And in a deadly whisper I hear,
"Sleep."
Post je objavljen 30.11.2007. u 21:36 sati.