Everyday, it's a-getting closer, rolling faster than a rollercoaster...
I finally understood who the real hime-sama was.
For months have I been waiting... For the sun. To clear the sky, to make the thick gray clouds to disappear, to illuminate the sky, the roads, the trees... And now, I can even feel the scent of the sea tease my tongue. The constantly moving surface of deep liquid glass feels soft on my fingertips, the sea breeze caresses my face, as if She was brushing it softly, with that nifty smile of hers.
And finally... I can breathe. Opening my eyes, rising from the gray tomb that had me dead for all these months of darkness. I cannot even remember all those... Weeks of coldness and grayness... And now... I soak in the light of the sun. Warming me up, giving me life.
You said once....
That nobody was ever going to love me.
That nobody was ever going to care.
But guess what.
Guess what, Shiroi Tenshou.
I have the love of a Hime-sama. Never is she sad by her own. Never does her cheeriness end. Always nurtured, always taken care of. Always loved. Does she know any of the tortures of the world? Does she know of the darkness, of the filth, of the fires of Hell? She doesn't. Does not even know they exist. She is beautiful. And can be spoiled sometimes...
And she took her rose-colored lenses for me. For me, Tenshou-chan. She abandoned the world where happiness has no boundaries. Where sadness had never crept in. And her face had the expression of a soul whose heart had been ripped from her chest and her lover had cut it in pieces before her. She was sad for me. She didn't have to help me. She didn't have to talk to me, she didn't have to hold me. She just cared. Arigatou, Hime-sama...
I wondered. Instead of telling me how nobody was ever going to love me... Why didn't you just love me?
Usotsuki.
Neh, Tenshou-chan.
I admire those who manage for their thoughts to be flowing in their words the same as they're flowing in their minds. Their poems are eternal, but never heard of. Their stories whisper inaudibly of feelings never to be described by words... And each of their stories is a universe by itself, a universe so perfectly coordinated and set by rules that you float in their abyss... and every move you make is perfection.
Pity I cannot do that.
I talk too much about myself, I guess. I have no talent... But at least I appreciate it more than most of people... and enjoy them. So... People who have the ability to change the reality with their pen... Don't stop writing.
Suki da yo, Fakia-sama...
I can feel the scent of the sea. It's calm, as if trying to reach me with each wave. The sun is sending its last beauties for today, sinking, falling beneath the horizon in a slowly fading glory. The sea softly sings tonight's melody, as the evening breeze plays with my hair. Playful like Her...
I sit here, in my dream, watching my existence, watching the only things I need. Still, I cannot forget. The stone is still there, despite all reason, and I cannot move it. The memories still allude me, even though I realize it might have been all just my imagination. That you never existed in the first place. That you are separate from her, that you've possessed her in my mind. But, i know it is not only that; I have wanted things that are real, outside of my world. I still do... All the broken promises, all the lies. I still cannot fight them, cannot shake them off. After all, I am still a child, right? But lies are everywhere, from everyone. Nothing is really true.
And though wildly my mind beats against them, the soul obeys... and believes them.
Where shall this road take me? How far does it continue? And where to? I don't know.
But... For now... It's been quite a ride. And I'll continue down it... As long as there's sun to warm my back on the way....
Minna-sama e... Kisu! ^___^
12.03.2008. u 14:16
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Dreams, thoghts, hopes and the spirit of a girl once called Hime-sama... Who wants to be one... Who aspires for her life and being to express elegance and art...
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- istinu
- snove
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Snovi (stvarni ili nestvarni):
- postati seiyuu
- pjevati kao Amy Lee
- znati japanski skoro kao materinji
- dobro znati francuski
- dug vijek i puno komentara ovog bloga xD
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- duga jaka lijepa kosa (XD)
- imati klavir za vježbanje
- znati ga svirati xD
- biti sretna
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ANIME:
SHOUJO KAKUMEI UTENA!!!
Air
Basilisk
Fruits basket
Sailor Moon
Kimi Ga Nozomu Eien
Super Gals (dijelom)
Koi Kaze
Aa Megami Sama
Reservoir Chronicle Tsubasa (dijelom)
Pokemon (da xDD)
Digimon (još veæi da xDDD)
Digimon Tamers (što reæi?)
Candy Candy
Dragon Ball (dijelom... xDDD)
Nadam se da æe ova lista narasti veelika... :D
MANGA
Mei-chan No Shitsuji
Princess Ai
Tokyo Mew Mew (arigatou, Onee-chan and Dunja-hime!)
Tsubasa Chronicle (dijelom)
Namida Nochi Happi- Endo (Happy End After the Tears)
Shuffle (dijelom)
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MUZIKA
All time favorites:
~*~
Ogata Megumi-sama
Evanescence
Anime OP&ED
Jean Michel Jarre
The Phantom of the Opera
~*~
Lijep stil i/ili slušam ponekad:
Velvet Underground
Johnny Cash
Nick Cave
Darko Rundek
Vaya Con Dios
Sinead O'Connor
Om
Pink Floyd
I sve što mi zapne za uho...
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I *ahem* to je to :D
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C'est le malaise du moment
L'épidémie qui s'étend
La fête est finie on descend
Les pensées qui glacent la raison
Paupières baissées, visage gris
Surgissent les fantomes de notre lit
On ouvre le loquet de la grille
Du taudit qu'on appelle maison
Protect me from what I want
Protect me from what I want
Protect me from what I want
Protect me
Protect me
Protège-moi, protège-moi
Sommes nous les jouets du destin
Souviens toi des moments divins
Planants, éclatés au matin
Et maintenant nous sommes tout seuls
Perdus les reves de s'aimer
Les temps où on avait rien fait
Il nous reste toute une vie pour pleurer
Et maintenant nous sommes tout seuls
Protect me from what I want
Protect me from what I want
Protect me from what I want
Protect me
Protect me
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“There are only two tragedies in life: one is not getting what one wants, and the other is getting it.”
Oscar Wilde
“Illusion is the first of all pleasures.”
Oscar Wilde
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I am stretched on your grave and will lie there forever
If your hands were in mine I'd be sure we'd not sever
My apple tree my brightness, it's time we were together
For I smell of the earth and I'm worn by the weather
When my family thinks that I'm safe in my bed
From night until morning I am stretched at your head
Calling out to the earth with tears hot and wild
My grief for the girl that I loved as a child
Do you remember the night we were lost
In the shade of the blackthorn and the chill of the frost
Oh thanks be to Jesus we did what was right
And your maidenhead still is your pillar of light
The priests and the friars, approach me with dread
Because I still love you, my life and youre dead
I still will be your shelter through rain and through storm
And with you in your cold grave I cannot sleep warm
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“I shall go the way of the open sea, To the lands I knew before you came, And the cool ocean breezes shall blow from me, The memory of your name”
Laurence Hope
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Hisashiburi no kaisei IEROO BODI wa D.I.Y.
Haru no shippo tsukamaeru jyunbi wa OK sa
Yousho ni HANHOKKU ano mori wo mezashiteta hazu ga
"KAANABI" nante ME jyanai! ...mune hattetano wa dare dayo?
Koi nuno youna "GOMEN" no hitomi ni kousansa
Umibe de asonderu RETORIBAA no PORISU ni kikou ka?
AM RAJIO GOKIGEN na sunday yakusoku shite kureteru
Hajikeru youna namishibuki ga bokura no SAUNDO
Shuuni ichido no DEETO sae mama naranu youna futari no
Kiseki no youna kyuujitsu nonbiri kaze makase
Hamabe de shiosai no hizamakura nante no ma ii yo ne
POTTO ni tsumeta koucha wo sarige ni susumeru egao ga
Moshikashitara ichiban haru iro hansoku sa
Umibe de jyarete iru RETORIBAA wo minaratte bokuramo!
MAIPEESU na SHIISAIDO ga HAIUEI tobasu yori niatteru
Masshiro na vacation map kowaki ni kakaete
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A boom boom bâ
Kélé, filla, saba, nani, norou
A boom boom bâ
Can you hear my heart beat in this world?
A boom boom bâ
Do you know that behind all these words
A boom boom bâ
Lies a deep desire Kamélé hé?
A boom boom bâ
Mé kouman mé fora y bamê
Are my dreams to be all I can do?
Lay o lay above, lay o lay below
And he said Annie will show them a new way
Mé kouman mé fora y bamê
Kélé, filla, saba, nani, norou
A boom boom bâ
Can you hear my heart beat in this world?
A boom boom bâ
Do you know that behind all these words
A boom boom bâ
Lies a deep desire Kamélé hé?
A boom boom bâ
Mé kouman mé fora y bamê
Are my dreams to be all I can do?
Lay o lay above, lay o lay below
And he said Annie will show them a new way
Mé kouman mé fora y bamê
Kélé, filla, saba, nani, norou
A boom boom bâ
Can you hear my heart beat in this world?
A boom boom bâ
Do you know that behind all these words
A boom boom bâ
Lies a deep desire Kamélé hé?
A boom boom bâ
Mé kouman mé fora y bamê
Kélé, filla, saba, nani, norou
A boom boom bâ
Aligna donguiri ma digné
A boom boom bâ
Mé kouman mé for a y bâmê
A boom boom bâ
Aligna donguiri ma digné hé !
A boom boom bâ
Mé kouman mé for a y bâmê
Kélé, filla, saba, nani, norou
Can you hear my heart beat in this world?
Kélé, filla, saba, nani, norou
Can you hear my heart beat in this world?
Kélé, filla, saba, nani, norou
Can you hear my heart beat in this world?
Kélé, filla, saba, nani, norou …
