utorak, 06.04.2010.
Life as it is
How can I make it stop...the pain..the sorrow...the eternal incontempt..? No matter what I do or who I'm with it always hurts...in some way... Wether if the love I feel is much greater then theirs..or a lot smaller....
All my life I've been trying...addapting to others... and when it comes to love shouldn't we? But for how long...and with what concequences? Should we go agains our own rules and principals just to prove something that can't be proven? When we give, do we asspect to be given back? We should be given back...but do we have the right to be that selfish and asspect it?...Do we make others addapt to us if we truly do love them? Do we set them lines and ultimatums that we realy should respect ourselves but don't?
Is you..your personality...the person you have been worth loosing for the one you love if... if he makes you loose it? If he's not willing to accept you for who you are? The only person that deserves your tears is the one that won't make you cry...so is the person that deserves your love and sacrifes going to make you do things you don't want in order to prove he has them? Is he going to want you to let go of the past if he is still holding on to it? Is he going to want your trust even if he refuses to have any trust in you....because of others?
I do mistakes. I addmit my mistakes. I keep following after I've been pushed away 'cause I'm too week to let go. I bend my rules, I twist my selfastime for someone else to feel better...for them to stay by my side. I sacrifice myself only for the reason that I belive they don't have it in them to appologise and to see thing from my point of view...so I look at things from theirs.
I just don't know how long will they make me go?...How much of the real me will I loose before I crush...or before... they crush me.
