One little fairy's wakening

08.11.2008., subota

Raširila je ruke i pustila munje da bjesne oko nje, ne razmišljajući o tome kako svako djelo ima svoju posljedicu. Čisto onako, jer joj je to odgovaralo... jer se još netko slučajno našao u blizini. Sprži... Samo još jedan u nizu.
Sklopi oči i stisne šake još čvršće... Izgubljena u munjama bijesa, munjama boli... Obavijena svjetlom uništenja, stisne šake... do krvi. Neka gori, sve uokolo, bez milosti, ili traga suosjećanja... Neka gori i nek ne ostane ništa doli pepela i praha. Ništa drugo ionako nije u stanju izdržati ju. Nitko... Zaista nitko...
Otvori oči i shvati što je učinila. Potpuna destrukcija posvuda... I ona, kao centar ,središte uništenja. Drhti, trese se... Ne može zaustaviti erupciju koja izlazi... Podigne ruke još malo više... Prepuna boli, jer je uspjela uništiti sve što je tako dugo gradila... jer je u bijesu uništila i zidove oko sebe, ostajući tako nezaštićena... Bez one zadnje ruke razuma koja bi ju držala na životu, koja bi ju sprječavala da uništi apsolutno sve. Zar je vrijedilo ostaviti išta? Ne... Ako gori, neka gori... sve...
Stisne šake i pusti munje boli da uništavaju apsolutno sve što ju okružuje... Ne misleći kako će nakon toga ostati samo ona, i ništa više, nitko više... Sebično, razmaženo derište, koje je u naletu bijasa uništilo cijeli svoj svijet čisto iz zabave, da bi, shvaćajući što je učinila, dovršila posao... Pola nikada nije nešto... Skupi ruke visoko iznad , usmjeravajući munje na samu sebe... Ali munje bježe, posvuda, nekontrolirano, nesmetano... Samo nju ne pogađaju. Uništenje... Potpuno uništenje svega osim nje same. Ironično.
Napokon je shvatila zbog čega toliki odlasci... Zbog čega joj nisu u stanju vjerovati... Jer su se bojali... da će ih uništiti, dobro znajući da ona to može... Jedino ona nije nikada razumjela kako je to zaista istina... Zdrobiti.. kao kakvu staklenu čašu, u ruci... s kapljicama krvi... Samo tako...

I da je mogla izbaciti dušu, izbacila bi ju. Prodati ju Faustu da on ne mora svoju, samo zato da ne osjeća ništa, da ne boli, da ne misli... Dati ju... samo da zaboravi.
Ali ponekad ni vrag ne dolazi kada mu nude dušu... Kapljice krvi polagano kaplju na pod... miješajući se s kišom koja prati njen bijes, nošene jugom u njenoj duši....
Opusti ruke i pogleda što je učinila... Osvrne se o sebe, ne vjerujući...
Spusti ruke na lice i gorko zaplače. Ovaj put je zaista uspjela...


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Christina Aguilera - The Voice Within

Young girl don’t cry
I’ll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl it’s alright
Your tears will dry, you’ll soon be free to fly

When you’re safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing’s harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

When there’s no one else, look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just trust the voice within
Then you’ll find the strength that will guide your way
You’ll learn to begin to trust the voice within

Young girl don’t hide
You’ll never change if you just run away
Young girl just hold tight
Soon you’re gonna see your brighter day

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It’s so hard to stand your ground when you’re so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you look outside look inside to your soul


Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you’re learning
You’ll find all you’ll ever need to know
(be strong)
You’ll break it
(hold on)
You’ll make it
Just don’t forsake it because
No one can tell you what you can’t do
No one can stop you, you know that I’m talking to you

Young girl don’t cry I’ll be right here when your world starts to fall





Pain Of Salvation - Undertow

Let me go
Let me go
Let me seek the answer that I need to know
Let me find a way
Let me walk away
Through the Undertow
Please let me go

Let me fly
Let me fly
Let me rise against that blood-red velvet sky
Let me chase it all
Break my wings and fall
Probably survive
So let me fly
Let me fly...

Let me run
Let me run
Let me ride the crest of chance into the sun
You were always there
But you may lose me here
Now love me if you dare
And let me run

I'm alive and I am true to my heart now - I am I,
but why must truth alwas make me die?

Let me break!
Let me bleed!
Let me tear myself apart I need to breathe!
Let me lose my way!
Let me walk astray!
Maybe to proceed...
Just let me bleed!

Let me drain!
Let me die!
Let me break the things I love I need to cry!
Let me burn it all!
Let me take my fall!
Through the cleansing fire!
Now let me die!
Let me die...

Let me out
Let me fade into that pitch-black velvet night




Matchbox 20 - Unwell


All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

Hold on
Feeling like Im headed for a breakdown
And I dont know why

But Im not crazy, Im just a little unwell
I know right now you cant tell
But stay awhile and maybe then youll see
A different side of me
Im not crazy, Im just a little impaired
I know right now you dont care
But soon enough youre gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me

Im talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know theyve all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow Ive lost my mind

But Im not crazy, Im just a little unwell
I know right now you cant tell
But stay awhile and maybe then youll see
A different side of me
Im not crazy, Im just a little impaired
I know right now you dont care
But soon enough youre gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Ive been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon theyll come to get me
Yeah, theyre taking me away

But Im not crazy, Im just a little unwell
I know right now you cant tell
But stay awhile and maybe then youll see
A different side of me
Im not crazy, Im just a little impaired
I know right now you dont care
But soon enough youre gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Yeah, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, Im just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
Im jus