utorak, 30.01.2007.

Dan D

....
sva sam neka bez volje....sutra već pišemo ispit...a ja nemam blage ništa a i iskreno mi se neda učit...joh...naporno je to....a i tu je tako lijepo toplo i sunce sja...maaaaaaaaaacool
Vidila sam GA danas....bila sam pre sretna...ali kasnije sam pala u bed....jer ga neću moći više zagrliti,poljubiti,maziti se s njim..fali mi to...fale mi njegove lijepe plavo zelene okice koje su me gledale pune osjećaja i pune ljubavi...fale mi njegove usne,njegove riječi,njegove lijepe poruke,fali mi naši razgovori,naša zezanja...fali mi ON!nonono
Sama sebi idem više na živce s time...ali ne mogu si pomoći...teško je to...jer ga stvarno iskreno volim....i voljet ću ga još dugo...jer sve šta sam ikad radila dok smo bili skupa je bilo to šta sam ga voljela ko nikog do sad!


A i vidila sam njegovu sadašnju curu...ta me očito ne voli,ima ga nešto protiv mene...a i to se i vidi...iako ne znam šta sam joj napravila kad doslovno zbog nje smo i prekinuli...a i da budem iskrena ja tu curu od prije nisam mogla smislit,jer je tipična cura koja misli da može imati sve i svakoga i da je cijeli svijet njezin,da može sve i svašta,a sad naravno još ju manje mogu podnijeti...al samo da čujem da šta sere po meni,pa ću ja pričat s njom...jer neće neka balavica kad me vidi na cesti gledat me i smijati mi se u facu...namcornamcor jer ako ima koji problem riješit će ga s menom...to me danas tako naživciralo,to njezino cerekanje...i joj....
Svi mi govore kako ne kontaju šta ON vidi u njoj i kako može uopće bit s njom...a ma muški su čudna bića smijehroflrofl
Ali mi ipak ne možemo bez njih

30.01.2007. u 16:04 • 2 KomentaraPrint#

nedjelja, 28.01.2007.

Ludnica....

da vidim...od kuda da počnem...
da...petak mi je bio pre dobar da...osjećala sam se pre dobro (nakon puno vremena)ništa i niko mi nije moglo pokvariti to super raspoloženje...Osjećala sam se kao preporođena....zaboravila sam na sve,pa čak i na njega...šta mi inače nije išlo baš...ali u petak iz neznam kojeg razloga uspjela sam zaboraviti na njega...
i moram reći da je osjećaj ODLIČAN.....nisam si razbijala glavu sa glupostima,jednostavno mi je bilo cool : )smijehsmijeh
Tako sam se zajebavala sa svime i svakim,pričala gluposti,radila gluposti...frendice su mislile da sam luda,tj.i dalje to misle ludludlud
A subota....
u početku sam bila sva neka bez volje...grlo me bolilo,spavalo mi se i nije me bilo niša volja...
Onda sam se sjela na šank sa frendicom i sa jednim tipom koji je predobar...meni je taj čovjek zakon...dobar je ko kruh... : )
I on me počeo častiti...pa tako da sam se napila hehepartypartyparty
A prije nego sam izašla van sam popila 2 tablete jer mi je bilo slabo...pa tako da me i brzo udarilo u glavu headbang
I onda se desilo neko opako sranje...Ja sam otišla na možda niti ne 2 minute na wc...i iznutra čujem kako se vani neko dere...mislila sam da se neko zajebava,i izađem ja van,a ono u kafiću kao da je pala atomska bomba...stolice su bile na podu...čaše su letile i sve je billo puno stakla...svi su stojali i bili blijedi i skamenjeni kao da su vidili duha...i onda vidim kako moja frendica miri jednog tipa koji je htio stući nekog drugog...pogledam vani a ono tip sa krvavom glavom stoji i dere se...Nisam se mogla pomaknuti kao da su mi odrezali noge...i još moja frendica miri tipa koji je veći od nje za 3 glave...užas...nekako su ga smirili i svi su se pokupili ca...
kasnije su mi rekli..da je taj tip sta je bio krvav napao jednog drugog.i taj ga je sa čašom po glavi...
meni je žao ovog tipa šta ga je sa čašom...jer mu je bilo žao.i nije ga htio...ali jednostavno automatski je reagiro tako u to trenutku...a stvarno nije ništa napravio...samo je sjedio u kafiću i ovaj ga je iz čista mira napao...kako su ljudi u kurcu ludlud
bilo je užasno...: ( nikad nisam doživila tako nešto...nikad...
divim se svojoj frendici šta je išla mirit tipa koji se umiješao u sve to...svaka joj časat...ja se nebi usudila....možda je tako reagirala jer ih pozna...
uglavno...ispalo je jedno veliko sranje....nono
odo ja učit vozit auto...:)/em>

28.01.2007. u 14:33 • 6 KomentaraPrint#

četvrtak, 25.01.2007.

Suze su poput ruže ; svaka suza zadaje bol

Zašto plačemo?
Čemu služi uopće plakanje?
Kad nam to neće pomoći,kad ćemo i dalje osjećati bol,kad nam one neće pomoći zaboraviti,kad se stvari popravit neće a niti promijeniti....
Zašto puštamo te slane kapljice,kad kasnije se samo osjećamo još gore.
One nas vuku u još veći ponor...
Al bez obzira na sve te stvari i dalje plačemo...i dalje tugu zalijevamo...a sve šta se zalijeva raste samo još više!!!!
Ja plačem zbog dečka koji mi je 3.puta slomio srce,ja sam mu svaki put sve oprostila i prešla preko svega,ali on bi ponovo napravio isto...Volio me,u to sam uvjerena...ali baš zato šta me volio zašto me tako povrijedio sva 3 puta...
Da mi se sad ponovno želi vratiti ja bi mu to dopustila,jer ga volim i to jako...jer mi je do njega jako stalo,znam da je to glupo ali kad razmišljam sa srcem a ne sa pameti...
Sad 3.put kad smo prekinuli,rekao mi je,tj.napisao mi je:"volim te,ali najbolje je za tebe da prekinemo"nije se uopće htio naći s menom...
i onda...nakon niti 2 tjedna vidim ga sa drugom kako zagrljeni hodaju...i kad me vidio samo se odmaknuo od sadašnje cure,kao da nije ništa između njih...nisam mogla vjerovati...tako sam pala u bed...to me tako boli...nonono
Evo baš danas kad sam išla u školu srela sam ih...i točno su prošli pored mene...cijeli dan mi se pokvario...pala sam u teški bed... : (
Drago mi je ako je on sretan...iako ja patim...jer sad ona ima ono šta sam nekad imala ja..no
Ali zašto mi je rekao da me voli a da bi ja saznala da ima drugu?
zašto?nono
I tako ja sad plačem,a znam da mi ga to neće vratiti i da će stvari ostati takve kakve su sada...
Ali ipak plačem i dalje!!!
l


Svaka je suza boljela,jer sam te ludo voljela.
I iako ne želim i dalje te volim.
Ali sada manje boli,jer moje srce naviklo je na boli...
Kad tebe voli...



I wish I could gather all my tears,
So I could fucking drown YOU in them!

25.01.2007. u 19:26 • 3 KomentaraPrint#

It´s hard to be alone...

Bit sam...užasan osjećaj....
nema ničeg goreg od ostati sam,zaboravljen od svih!Kad se iznutra osjećaš jadno i prazno,kad nitko ne mari za tebe i tvoje osjećaje...kad te svi ostave kad se ti utapaš u toj samoći!
Ja se tako osjećam već neko vrijeme....samo!
imam frendice koje su super i koje su uz mene kad mi to treba i bit ću im zahvalna na tome....ali opet meni nešto nedostaje,opet se osjećam samo!
Nedostaje mi ljubavi....
Nedostaje mi voljena osoba koja bi mi tu ljubav dala....
Vidim toliko sretnih parova po gradu,a na njima vidim onaj sretan osmijeh kojeg sam i ja nekad imala...NEKAD!
Nedostaje mi ON!i to jako...
Zbog njega sam tako usamljena,nije me volja ništa...stara mi kaže da nije on jedini na svijetu,i da ga prebolim više,ali ja nemogu a i neželim ga ni zaboraviti ni preboliti...Za njega me veže puno toga i samo ljepe stvari i uspomene i zbog toga se tako osjećam samo!
To je tako
teško


Samo i ostavljeno na ivici pakla,
Slomilo se jedno srce kao da je od stakla.
Ugasio ga jecaj,
Ubile ga boli.
Jer je voljelo nekog,
Ko ne zna da voli

25.01.2007. u 10:50 • 3 KomentaraPrint#

Sreća je san koji traje sve dok se ne probudiš...

hm...za mene riječ SREĆA ne postoji...
Nit imam sreće u obitelji,nit sa frendovima a ljubav neću niti spominjat
Mislim da je i ona kriva zbog sve te moje tuge sad...
prije dok sam bila mala bilo je lako,nisam kužila neke stvari,ali sad kad ću još malo napuniti 18 godina sve te stvari su postale jasne....
Osjećam se užasno,jer nema dana kad nisam u bedu,čak sam i počela svakodnevno plakat,mislit ćete kako sam luda,ali ima puno takvih cura na ovom svijetu koje se osjećaju nevoljeno i odbačeno...nažalost!

U ljubav sam se razočarala puno puta i iskreno mislim da neću više biti sretna a i nevjerujem u ljubav više!
I najviše zbog ljubavi patim,zbog dečka koji mi znači sve na ovom svijetu za kojeg sam spremna sve napraviti,patim zbog osobe koja je 3 puta uništila ono najljepše šta smo nekad imali!ali ja ga VOLIM!
To je samo dio cijele moje priče...ostatak ćete saznati ako čitate ovaj blog,jer odlučila sam pisati blog iz razloga šta se nadam da će mi neko pomoći savjetom,jer ja neznam kako dalje više
Počela sam se gušiti u svoj toj tuzi,i ne izdržim više,iznutra svakim danom venem sve više i više...

25.01.2007. u 10:47 • 0 KomentaraPrint#

LJUBAV JE VJEČNO ZAČARAN VRT;U NJEMU SE RAĐAJU BOL,ČEŽNJA I SMRT!!!

Život nije ništa drugo nego putovanje u smrt!

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase




These are eyes that have seen 2 much pain. Even though tears come and pain continues, inside they are dead.



VOLJET ĆU TE KAD SE I POSLJEDNJI VAL MOGA ŽIVOTA BUDE ULIJEVAO U JEZERO SMRTI!!!



Jos pomisljam na najgore,kad vidim da te nema,mozda je tako najbolje i na posljednje se spremam.Moja je ruka sigurna ti nemoj da ju krivis,ali u srce pucat necu jer ti u njemu zivis...


I held you tight to me
But you slipped away
You promised to return to me
And I believed, I believed



Can`t you see me bleeding?
I`m losing control...
Can`t you see me dying?
I`m dying alone...





TEŠKO JE GLEDATI BUDUĆNOST
OČIMA PUNIM PROŠLOSTI!




ALL I NEED FROM YOU,
IS A LETTER...EXPLAINING WHY
YOU HURT ME SO!




Sad we lived sad we die!!!!



LJUBAV JE SAMO SAN KOJI TRAJE DOK SE NE PROBUDIŠ!



AKO ODLUČIŠ DA VOLIŠ,
PRVO NAUČI DA HODAŠ PO SNIJEGU,A DA PRI TOME NE OSTAVLJAŠ TRAGOVE,
JER SAMO TAKO NEĆEŠ NIKOG POVRIJEDITI SVOJIM ODLASKOM!




SICK OF CRYING...
TIRED OF TRYING...
YEAH, IM SMILING...
BUT INSIDE...
IM DYING!





Zbog tebe cu lutati,varati,zbog tebe cu lagati,tudim se osjecajima igrati,lazno se smjeskati,lazna obecanja davati,zbog tebe cu staze sjecanja prekopati,rijeke i jezera isusiti i sva godisnja doba u santu leda pretvorit,zbog tebe cu zivot prokockati ali sta mi vrijedi sve to kad cu te i dalje voljeti!


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Why do we
Crucify ourselves
Every day
I crucify myself
Nothing I do is good enough for you
Crucify myself
Every day
And my heart is sick of being in chains




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Sweet dark
Vidra
Nightwish Girl : )
Eternal Angel
River Of Blood
Gljiva : )

Mjesecevo Dijete

Devil
Infernal Majesty
Oprostite sto sam s vama
Snow White
My dreams will come true
Martina
Hana




Non basta piů il ricordo
Ora voglio il tuo ritorno...




WHY DOES LONELINESS INSIST ON BEING MY FRIEND,
WHEN I`VE SENT HIM AWAY AGAIN AND AGAIN!!!




Why does a rose represent love....
When a rose always dies???




Perché piccolo potresti andartene dalle mie mani
Ed i giorni da prima lontani saranno anni!!




I miss you when I`m sad.
I miss you when I`m lonely.
But most off all,
I miss you when I`m happy!!!




E riconobbi il tuo sguardo in quello di un passante
Ma pure avendoti qui ti sentirei distante




There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back


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*već 18 godina gubim se po ovom svijetu
*vrlo pesimistična
*jako zatvorena osoba
*često u bedu...
*volim slušati druge i pokušati im pomoći

*volim,tj.obožavam EVANESCENCE
*volim ludu vožnju : )


Jedno te molim,molim ko Boga,
Da iz života izađeš moga...
Ne mogu više živjeti ovako,
Bez tebe moram ali neznam kako...
Jedno te molim i ništa više,
Kada ju ljubiš,ljubi ju tiše.
Jer ko da čujem sa kraja grada...
Poljubce vaše upravo sada!








>TRENUTAK JE DOVOLJAN DA SE UPOZNA,
TRENUTAK JE DOVOLJAN DA SE ZAVOLI,
ALI SAMO TRENUTAK MOŽE RAZORITI,
ONO ŠTA JE TRENUTAK USPIO STVORITI!




LJUBAV JE KAO RAT...
POČINJEŠ KAD HOĆEŠ,
A ZAVRŠIŠ KAD
MORAŠ...



Postoje noći kad suze same teku...
Kad čovjek umire od boli...
Kad nema snage da moli,
A osjeća samo jedno; DA NEKOG VOLI








Jesenjske kiše zalediše snove, snove u kojima moje ime zoveš...spomenari stari, izblijedjele slike...sijećanja na ljubav koje nema...nema je više...



SNOVI POSTAJU NEOSTVARIVI SAMO ZBOG JEDNE STVARI:
STRAHA OD NEUSPJEHA!



KADA IZGUBIŠ ONO ŠTA NAJVIŠE VOLIŠ ONDA I DALJE NASTAVLJAŠ ŽIVJETI MAKAR JE ŽIVOT GORI OD SMRTI!




Jednom sam se rodila, suze sam odmah lila, jer znala sam sa ću ga zavoljeti i da ga nikad neću moći preboljeti. Luda sam bila...Pa se u njega zaljubila, za njim ludila i sve svoje vene sam otvorila i sad sve žalim. I sada sama sebi dobru smrt želim! Jednom sam umrla i u životu samo njega voljela!





One day you`ll cry for me like I cried for you,one day you`ll miss me like I missed you.one day you`ll pain for me like I pained for you.One day you`ll love me but I won`t love you!




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Sweetie last night I wanted to write you a letter,but all I could write was:noh ss!w! it didn`t make a sence until I read it upside down...





EVANESCENCE - BREATHE NO MORE


I've been looking in the mirror for so long
That I've come to believe my soul's on the other side.
All the little pieces falling shattered
Shards of me too sharp to put back together;
Too small to matter,
But big enough to cut me into so many little pieces
If I try to touch her
And I bleed,
I bleed
And I breathe,
I breathe no more.

Take a breath and i try to draw from my spirit's well.
Yet again you refuse to drink like a stubborn child.
Lie to me, convince me that I've been sick forever
And all of this will make sense when I get better.
But I know the difference
Between myself and my reflection.
I just can't help but to wonder:
Which of us do you love?
so I bleed,
I bleed
And I breathe,
I breathe no-
Bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe
I breathe,
I breathe




EVANESCENCE - MY IMMORTAL

i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
but now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me

i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
but though you're still with me
i've been alon all along














EVANESCENCE - THE LAST SONG I`M WASTING ON YOU


Sparkling grey,
Through my own veins.
Any more than a whisper,
Any sudden movement of my heart.
And I know, I know I'll have to watch them pass away

Just get through this day

Give up your way, you could be anything,
Give up my way, and lose myself, not today
That's too much guilt to pay

Sickened in the sun
You dare tell me you love me
But you held me down and screamed you wanted me to die
Honey you know, you know I'd never hurt you that way

You're just so pretty in your pain

Give up my way, and I could be anything
I'll make my own way
Without your senseless hate... hate... hate... hate.

So run, run, run
And hate me, if it feels good.
I can't hear your screams anymore

You lied to me
But I'm older now
And I'm not buying baby

Demanding my response
Don't bother breaking the door down
I found my way out
And you'll never hurt me again
...






EVANESCENCE - ANGEL OF MINE

You are everything I need to see
Smile and sunlight makes sunlight to me
Laugh and come and look into me
Drips of moonlight washing over me
Can I show you what want from me

Angel of mine, can I thank you
You have saved me time and time again
Angel, I must confess
It's you that always gives me strength
And I don't know where I'd be without you

After all these years, one thing is true
Constant force within my heart is you
You touch me, I feel I'm moving into you
I treasure every day I spend with you
All the things I am come down to you

Angel of mine
Let me thank you
You have saved me time and time again
Angel, I must confess
It's you that always gives me strength
And I don't know where I'd be without you

Back in the arms of my angel
Back to the peace that I so love
Back in the arms of my angel I can finally rest
Giving you a gift that you remind me

Angel of mine
Let me thank you
You have saved me time and time and time and time again
Angel, I must confess
It's you that always gives me strength
And I don't know where I'd be without you

Angel of mine
Can I thank you
You have saved me time and time again
Angel, I must confess
It's you that always gives me strength
And I don`t know where I`d be without you





EVANESCENCE - THOUGHTLESS



All of my hate cannot be bound
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground I will see you screaming

Going through the pages of my fantasies
Pushing all the mercy down, down, down
I wanna see you try to take a swing at me
Come on, gonna put you on the ground, ground, ground

Why are you trying to make fun of me?
You think it's funny? What the fuck you think it's doing to me?
You take your turn lashing out at me
I want you crying when you're bloody down in front of me

All of my hate cannot be bound
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground
I will see you screaming

Come and fill the pages of my fantasies
I'm above you, smiling at you, drown, drown, drown
I wanna kill and rape you the way you raped me
And I'll pull the trigger And you're down, down, down

Why are you trying to make fun of me?
You think it's funny? What the fuck you think it's doing to me?
You take your turn lashing out at me
I want you crying when you're bloody down in front of me

All of my hate cannot be bound
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
Beat me to the ground I will see you screaming

All my friends are gone,
they died (gonna take you down)
They all screamed, and cried (gonna take you down)
Never gonna forget, never forget, how we hate the world (x4)
(Gonna take you down)

All of my hate cannot be bound
I will not be drowned by your thoughtless scheming
So you can try to tear me down
and Beat me to the ground I will see you screaming



EVANESCENCE - YOU



The words have been drained from this pencil
Sweet words that I want to give you
And I cant sleep, I need to tell you... goodnight

When we’re together I feel perfect
When I’m pulled away from you I fall apart
All that you say is sacred to me
Your eyes are so blue, I can’t look away as we lay in the stillness
You whisper to me, Amy, marry me, promise you’ll stay with me
Oh you don’t have to ask me, you know you’re all that I live for
You know I’d die just to hold you, stay with you
Somehow I’ll show you that you are my night sky
I’ve always been right behind you
Now I’ll always be right beside you

So many nights I’ve cried myself to sleep
Now that you love me I love myself
I never thought I would say that
I never thought there’d be you





JEBEŠ ŽIVOT KAD ČOJEK ČOVJEKA NE MOŽE DA SHVATI.
JEBEŠ ŽIVOT KAD LJUBAV VENE,
KAD ŽIVIŠ OD SAMO JEDNE PROKLETE USPOMENE!





EVANESCENCE - MISSING

(Can you stop the fire?
Can you stand to fight her
You can't stop the fire
You won't say the words)

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"

You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out,
"Isn't something missing?"
"Isn't someone missing me?"

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone...

Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
"Isn't something missing?
Isn`t someone missing me?



WITHIN TEMPTATION - WHAT HAVE YOU DONE

What have you done now?

I know I better stop trying
You know that there's no denying
I won't show mercy on you now
I know I should stop beleiving
I know that there's no retreating
It's over now
What have you done?

What have you done now?

I've been waiting for someone like you
But now you are slipping away
(what have you done now?)
Why? Why does fate make us suffer?
There's a curse between us
Between me and you

What have you done?

Would you mind if I killed you?
Would you mind if I tryed to cause you have
Turned into my worst enemy?
You carry hate that I feel
It's over now
What have you done?

What have you done now?

I've been waiting for someone like you
But now you are slipping away
(what have you done now?)
Why? why does fate make us suffer?
There's a curse between us
Between me and you

What have you done?

I've been fool
Won't let it go
We will be free when it ends

I've been waiting for someone like you
But now you are slipping away
(what have you done now?)
Why? why does fate make us suffer?
There's a curse between us
Between me and you


WITHIN TEMPTATION - SAY MY NAME

Say my name
So I will know you're back you're here again
For a while
Oh let us share
The memories that only we can share
Together

Tell me about
The days before I was born
How we were as children

[Refrain:]
You touch my hand
These colors come alive
In your heart and in your mind
I cross the borders of time
Leaving today behind to be with you again

We breath the air
Do you remember how you used to touch my hair?
You're not aware
Your hands keep still
You just don't know that I am here

It hurts too much
I pray now that soon you're released
To where you belong

[Refrain:]
You touch my hand
These colors come alive
In your heart and in your mind
I cross the borders of time
Leaving today behind to be with you again

Please say my name
Remember who I am
You will find me in the world of yesterday
You drift away again
Too far from where I am
When you ask me who I am

Say my name
These colors come alive
In your heart and in your mind
I cross the borders of time
Leaving today behind to be with you again

Say my name

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