Save me.




Save me.

Samodestrukcija. Lakše je zanemariti probleme, trenutno percipirano nerješive (ili bar teže rješive), nego se sabrati i krenuti pravim putem. Pravim putem? Ha! Slobodno šeće mojim umom, bez ikakvih pravila, sakriva se i pojavljuje baš kad ga najmanje očekujem. Ili možda ne. Možda i znam, očekujem, tražim i gledam kad će se pojaviti - i zavaravam se pritom da je sve u redu. Samozavaravanje, kao i uvijek.

Tu je. Govori da nema mjesta zbog drugih, crnih i plavih i ljubičastih, koji ga slijede. Teško diše i slab je, zaostaje u skrovitim mjestima i navodeći druge, izaziva njihovo sve češće preplavljivanje. Zašto se jednostavno ne pojavi i ne zasjeni druge? Jednostavno? Ma, molim te. Trebam pitanja, trebam razgovor, trebam pojave i stvari i misli i emocije. Nije da ne mogu; mogu i bez njih. Ali kad bih ih imala, ne bi se tako često pitala zašto. Valjda. Tražim ideale, prikladnije primjerke, sličnosti, trenutke vječnosti.. Ukratko – očito previše. Zove, pita kako sam, priča o sebi, dalje mišljenja. Komentira, potiče raspravu, razmišlja. Osmjehuje se, osjećam. Kaže da mu nedostajem – ja odgovaram – …

Jutro je, opet. Nikako da ih.. Ma bar podnesem, ako već i ne mogu razviti neko pozitivno mišljenje o njima. Tako su konačna, traže da ih uhvatiš cijele, da se pokreneš, da ispuniš očekivanja (i više), da zaboraviš snove i ideale i sjećanja i kreneš čist dalje. Čist? Bar koliko možeš biti nakon svih posljedica koje su slijedile promišljena ponašanja, a još više ova ne.

Ne mogu otvoriti oči, znaš to. Toliko je teško. Biti sam, razmišljati o zajedništvu. Stvoriti neke iracionalne i besramno divne scenarije i živjeti gledajući kako gore. Dobro da si piroman. Svaki dan sve jače, vruće je i rasplamsava se uokolo. Tu i tamo netko baci par kapi da je spriječi, ali ona se razvija, raste i guta sve pred sobom. Ostavlja samo zaboravljene trenutke koji su se mogli dogoditi. Mogli – možda si ih sanjala. S tobom je to najvjerojatnije.


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Ireth






Neshvatljiva.
Nasmijana.
Voli Silent mana.
Puni mjesec.
Zvijezde.
Prave prijatelje.
A cak i one koji se takvima prave.
Voli vjestice.
Telepatiju.
Dobre knjige.
Iskren razgovor.
Ne prodaje nasmjesenog psa.
I remember you.
Ljubicasto.
Sivo.
I crno posebno.
Trzalicu.
Kaktuse.
Zagrljaje.
Osmjehe.
Brijeg.
Zloduha nastranosti.
Psihologiju.
Narukvice.
Kavu.
Karte.
Svoju sobu.
Svijece.
Crtati.
Zeljeti.
Sanjati.
Pjevati.

Voli voljeti.



Led Zeppelin
Ten Years Gone


Then as it was, then again it will be
An’ though the course may change sometimes
Rivers always reach the sea
Blind stars of fortune, each have several rays
On the wings of maybe, down in birds of prey
Kind of makes me feel sometimes, didn’t have to grow
But as the eagle leaves the nest, it’s got so far to go

Changes fill my time, baby, that’s alright with me
In the midst I think of you, and how it used to be

Did you ever really need somebody, and really need ’em bad
Did you ever really want somebody, the best love you ever had
Do you ever remember me, baby, did it feel so good
’cause it was just the first time, and you knew you would

Through the eyes an’ I sparkle, senses growing keen
Taste your love along the way, see your feathers preen
Kind of makes makes me feel sometimes, didn’t have to grow
We are eagles of one nest, the nest is in our soul

Vixen in my dreams, with great surprise to me
Never thought I’d see your face the way it used to be
Oh darlin’, oh darlin’

I’m never gonna leave you. I never gonna leave
Holdin’ on, ten years gone
Ten years gone, holdin’ on, ten years gone


Pearl Jam
Black


Sheets of empty canvas, untouched sheets of clay
were laid spread out before me as her body once did
all five horizons revolved around her soul
as the earth to the sun
now the air i tasted and breathed has taken a turn
and all i taught her was everything
i know she gave me all that she wore
and now my bitter hands shake beneath the clouds
of what was everything?
all the pictures had all been washed in black, tattooed everything...
i take a walk outside, i'm surrounded by some kids at play
i can feel their laughter, so why do i sear
and twisted thoughts that spin round my head
i'm spinning, oh, i'm spinning
how quick the sun can, drop away
and now my bitter hands cradle broken glass
of what was everything?
all the pictures had all been washed in black, tattooed everything...
all the love gone bad, turned my world to black
tattooed all i see, all that i am, all i'll ever be...
i know someday you'll have a beautiful life, i know you'll be a star
in somebody else's sky, but why
why, why can't it be, why can't it be mine?


Dokken
Alone Again


I'd like to see you in the morning light
I like to feel you when it comes to night
Now i'm here and i'm all alone
Still i know how it feels, i'm alone again

Tried so hard to make you see
But i couldn't find the words
Now the tears, they fall like rain
I'm alone again without you
Alone again without you
Alone again without you

I said stay, but you turned away
Tried to say that it was me
Now i'm here and i've lost my way
Still i know how it feels, i'm alone again

Tried so hard to make you see
But i couldn't find the words
Now the tears, they fall like rain
I'm alone again without you

I tried so hard to make you see
But i couldn't find the words
Now the tears, they fall like rain
I'm alone again without you

Iced Earth
Question of Heaven


The time is close now, the end is near
My walk through the valley, trails of fear
I feel empty, my penance overdue,
I guess it's too late now to be with you
I'm extremely frightened of what will surely be
I sold myself, the death of me
I know you can't forgive me I know I'm on my own,
I've betrayed you I walk alone

What exactly is the meaning of this
Just pawns in your twisted game
Severe pain for the lie I'm livin'
For a love I never could betray

Question me not say the lord unto thee
You have chosen your own fate and your own destiny
Denied of this life is what you are to be
You have chosen your own fate and your own destiny

Lord I pound my fists at you
Won't you just let me die
Would I not suffer enough
No inner peace no after life

I did what I thought was right
All for the love of my life
I know it's sad but true
Something is very wrong
Condemned to suffer so long
For a love so true

The question that lies within
Is so hard to understand
It still tears at me
And in my dying breath
My heart holds no regrets
I wouldn't change a thing

My spirit begins to rise into the heavenly skies
Just to be shunned away by you
Now all I want is to die, no streets of gold in the sky
And I wash my hands of you


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