petak, 10.03.2006.

Pokretanje s mrtve točke...


Izbrisao sam (skoro) sve stare psotove. Nekako, ne znam, imam osjećaj kao da je jedan dio svega toga iza mene. Nije da žalim za nečim, nije da patim za nečim, naprosto, na sve gledam kao na proces razvijanja. Jednostavno mi se sve napisano učinilo suvišnim ovdje, recimo da bih želio krenuti od početka, bez ikakvih nadovezivanja na prošle događaje, osim ako to ne bude potrebno čisto radi teme posta koji ostavljam.
E pa u duhu svoje dobre stare patetike, ova kiša mi sasvim dobro dođe, možda i opere sva nakupljena sranja i taj neki gusti viskozni fluid u kojem se nalazim, treba mi Sunca i motivacije za rad, inspiracije, organizacije... svega po malo :)

Prebirao sam neki dan s frendicom po ljudskim odnosima, čudno se osjećam, imam osjećaj kao da ulazim u neku čudnu fazu, a niti ne znam želim li se uopće motat po ikakvim fazama (pogoto pošto do sada nisam bio ni u kakvoj fazi, barem ne da sam toga bio svjestan). Svjestan sam toga da moram malo zauzdati svoje hedonističke porive, primiti se posla... a iskreno rečeno nemam volje za to. Nisam u depresiji, sasvim se dobro osjećam, valjda, samo mi je nekakva čudna konfuzija u glavi. Mogao bih za to okriviti južinu, ali mi se to u ovom trenu čini nekako nezrelo.
Hehehehe, definirati vlastite probleme je uvijek najteže. Čudno, ljudi većinom misle da poznaju sami sebe, a onda nas naizgled nebitne istnice iznenade, da ne kažem šokiraju. Neobavezni razgovori, stavovi, prijateljstva, ljubav... ufff, u temu ljubavi neću ni ulaziti... još.

Zapravo trenutno niti ne znam imam li nešto konkretno što bih želio reći, manje-više sam samo htio započeti sa blogiranjem i maknuti se sa mrtve točke. Pa eto i ovo je nešto. Ništa pametno, ali nešto, barem slova na ekranu...

utorak, 07.03.2006.

Nikako da se vratim


Evo upravo jurim u grad, jučer me ponovno oprala nostalgija za ovim mjestom...
Nadam se da ću do večeras imati gomilu materijala za napisati...

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Smisao ljubavi nije tražiti savršenu osobu, već voljeti nesavršenu osobu... savršeno

Coco Chanel: Postoji vrijeme za stvaranje i vrijeme za ljubav... Između toga nema ništa.

John Steinbeck (književnik):
U ovo vjerujem: Da je slobodan, istraživanju sklon um pojedinca, najvrednija stvar na svijetu.
Za ovo ću se boriti: Slobodu uma da ide u kojem god pravcu hoće, bez usmjeravanja.
Protiv ovoga se moram boriti: Bilo koje ideje, religije ili vlade koja ograničava ili uništava pojedinca.

Albert Einstein: Gravity cannot be held responsible for people falling in love.

Lav Nikolajevič Tolstoj: Slobodni mislioci su ljudi koji koriste svoju pamet bez predrasuda i bez straha od razumijevanja stvari koje su u suprotnosti s njihovim običajima, privilegijama ili vjerovanjima. Takvo razmišljanje nije uobičajeno, ali je neophodno za pravilno funkcioniranje uma. Gdje ga nema, rasprava je sklona postati i više nego beskorisnom.

Tekstovi, pjesme i misli...

"Answer"

I will be the answer
At the end of the line
I will be there for you
While you take the time
In the burning of uncertainty
I will be your solid ground
I will hold the balance
If you can't look down

If it takes my whole life
I won't break, I won't bend
It will all be worth it
Worth it in the end
Cause I can only tell you what I know
That I need you in my life
When the stars have all gone out
You'll still be burning so bright

Cast me gently
Into morning
For the night has been unkind
Take me to a
Place so holy
That I can wash this from my mind
The memory of choosing not to fight

If it takes my whole life
I won't break, I won't bend
It will all be worth it
Worth it in the end
'Cause I can only tell you what I know
That I need you in my life
When the stars have all burned out
You'll still be burning so bright

Cast me gently
Into morning
For the night has been unkind



"Building A Mystery"

you come out at night
that's when the energy comes
and the dark side's light
and the vampires roam
you strut your rasta wear
and your suicide poem
and a cross from a faith
that died before Jesus came
you're building a mystery

you live in a church
where you sleep with voodoo dolls
and you won't give up the search
for the ghosts in the halls
you wear sandals in the snow
and a smile that won't wash away
can you look out the window
without your shadow getting in the way
oh you're so beautiful
with an edge and a charm
but so careful
when I'm in your arms

(chorus)
'cause you're working
building a mystery
holding on and holding it in
yeah you're working
building a mystery
and choosing so carefully

you woke up screaming aloud
a prayer from your secret god
you feed off our fears
and hold back your tears

give us a tantrum
and a know it all grin
just when we need one
when the evening's thin

oh you're a beautiful
a beautiful fucked up man
you're setting up your
razor wire shrine

chorus



"Elsewhere"

I love the time and in between
the calm inside me
in the space where I can breathe
I believe there is a
distance I have wandered
to touch upon the years of
reaching out and reaching in
holding out holding in
I believe
this is heaven to no one else but me
and I'll defend it as long as I can be
left here to linger in silence
if I choose to
would you try to understand
I know this love is passing time
passing through like liquid
I am drunk in my desire...
but I love the way you smile at me
I love the way your hands reach out and hold me near...
I believe...
I believe
this is heaven to no one else but me
and I'll defend it as long as
I can be left here to linger in silence
if I choose to
would you try to understand
Oh the quiet child awaits the day when she can break free
the mold that clings like desperation
Mother can't you see I've got
to live my life the way I feel is right for me
might not be right for you but it's right for me...
I believe...
I believe
this is heaven to no one else but me
and I'll defend it as long as
I can be left here to linger in silence
if I choose to
would you try to understand it
I would like to linger here in silence
if I choose to
would you understand it
would you try to understand...



"Fumbling Towards Ecstasy"

All the fear has left me now
I'm not frightened anymore
It's my heart that pounds beneath my flesh
it's my mouth that pushes out this breath
and if I shed a tear I won't cage it
I won't fear love
and if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love
Companion to our demons
they will dance, and we will play
With chairs, candles, and cloth
making darkness in the day
It will be easy to look in or out
upstream or down without a thought
and if I shed a tear I won't cage it
I won't fear love
and if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love
Peace in the struggle
to find peace
comfort on the way
to comfort
and if I shed a tear I won't cage it
I won't fear love
and if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love
I won't fear love
I won't fear love...



"Possession"

Listen as the wind blows from across the great divide
voices trapped in yearning, memories trapped in time
the night is my companion, and solitude my guide
would I spend forever here and not be satisfied?
and I would be the one
to hold you down
kiss you so hard
I'll take your breath away
and after, I'd wipe away the tears
just close your eyes dear
Through this world I've stumbled
so many times betrayed
trying to find an honest word to find
the truth enslaved
oh you speak to me in riddles
and you speak to me in rhymes
my body aches to breathe your breath
your words keep me alive
And I would be the one
to hold you down
kiss you so hard
I'll take your breath away
and after, I'd wipe away the tears
just close your eyes dear
Into this night I wander
it's morning that I dread
another day of knowing of
the path I fear to tread
oh into the sea of waking dreams
I follow without pride
nothing stands between us here
and I won't be denied
and I would be the one
to hold you down
kiss you so hard
I'll take your breath away
and after, I'd wipe away the tears
just close your eyes...



"Push"

Every time I look at you the world just melts away
All my troubles all my fears dissolve in your affections
You've seen me at my weakest but you take me as I am
And when I fall you offer me a softer place to land

[CHORUS:]
You stay the course you hold the line you keep it all together
You're the one true thing I know I can believe in
You're all the things that I desire, you save me, you complete me
You're the one true thing I know I can believe

I get mad so easy but you give me room to breathe
No matter what I say or do 'cause you're to good to fight about it
Even when I have to push just to see how far you'll go
You wont stoop down to battle but you never turn to go

[CHORUS]

Your love is just the antidote when nothing else will cure me
There are times I cant decide when I cant tell up from down
You make me feel less crazy when otherwise I'd drown
But you pick me up and brush me off and tell me I'm OK
Sometimes thats just what we need to get us through the day

[CHORUS]



"Sweet Surrender"

it doesn't mean much
it doesn't mean anything at all
the life I've left behind me
is a cold room
I've crossed the last line
from where I can't return
where every step I took in faith
betrayed me
and led me from my home

and sweet
sweet surrender
is all that I have to give

you take me in
no questions asked
you strip away the ugliness
that surrounds me
are you an angel
am I already that gone
I only hope
that I won't disappoint you
when I'm down here
on my knees

and sweet
sweet
sweet surrender
is all that I have to give

sweet
sweet
sweet surrender
is all that I have to give

and I don't understand
by the touch of your hand
I would be the one to fall

I miss the little things
oh I miss everything

it doesn't mean much
it doesn't mean anything at all
the life I left behind me
is a cold room

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