the book of pain
04.08.2007., subota
"For the people and their personal issues in life…"
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Any familiar (and personal) issues can get the best of us… even the good guys (like many people believe me to be) have bad and awful days, days where we can’t see beyond our sight and all of the sudden we can make mistakes and hurt everyone else without knowing it… This harm turns into a huge/heavy rock that we will have on our back for the rest of the days like a mortal sin that can never be forgotten and we’ll always keep on remembering for times to come… Sometimes, this thought includes a third person that’s responsible for it (in most cases it won’t be true), and we have to fill a new space in our guilt with an unstoppable grudge against that subject for the rest of our cursed days… Or maybe we are completely guilty and won’t ever accept it… Humans are always guilty (of word and deed) due situations were morality fails, bad decisions are made and personal reasons never mentioned in public are still haunting us… Such things block our minds; cauterizing our conscience from any internal pain we might feel next time we harm somebody because our integrity got between them and our troubles… By suppressing such feelings we start to believe that everybody else is wrong and we are right (we just become victims); so they’re all guilty and shall burn in the flames of hell in eternity paying for their sins whenever they come to our mind… Such defensive attitude makes us vulnerable to pretty much everything and anything… We cannot live peacefully anymore; not now that our so called experience and years of brooding negative thoughts and feelings; simply nullifies our common sense... And we start loosing everything… even God… We become so lost that not even God can help us anymore (or so we think); we are looking for a solution that will never come, and start dying a slow, painful “spiritual” death… We don’t want anything anymore; we might just want to die and rot, so everyone will be sorry for not helping us and then… burn in hell for it… We have an empty death wish… Suddenly even all the people who cared for us don’t seem to care too much about this… Our mind is so confused that we find ourselves nested inside some uncomfortable spot of our chambers… with no possible answer; nor human being who could understand our problems and find solutions for our desperate thoughts… We are losing it… But the answers are out there (dramatically, in the mist)… and the solution is as easy as we only have to find some way to put aside our weak and negative thoughts; our self-made problems … Concentrate on living on the present; we shall fight for the future, not for the past… The past is something we can all drag for the rest of our eternity with no solution for it; as it is already given up by time present... When you give up the past, you give up all of those problems; even when not so many people can do this; many ones have actually done it and live to tell it (like me)… And some keep dying slow deaths which nobody cares about… Growing up blocked to any help and concern that could be given by others… Those people need to wake up; nobody is waiting for them to fix their troubles… But there is always somebody who really cares for them, and is really rooting for them to make a change (and that must be a personal goal) in order to start living the best years of their lives… Not known for problems, unknown to traumatic past experiences that defaced their present or affects their future… These people can start living the best days of the rest of their lives… |
