Okus slobode

Ležao sam na tvrdom podu u svojoj hladnoj tamnici. Snažan vjetar udarao je o zidine tvrđave moga gospodara. Bio sam užasno iscrpljen, ipak, nisam mogao zaspati. Svaki put kada sam zatvorio oči, čuo sam ih kako me zovu. Njihove mrtve oči bile su uperene u mene, žedne krvi gutale su me živog. Hvatala me panika. Hladan znoj cijedio se s mog mršavog tijela. Drhtao sam kao list na vjetru.
Skvrčivši se koliko god sam mogao buljio sam u prazno. Bilo mi je tako hladno. Nisam dugo mogao ostati na mjestu. Odlučio sam se potajno iskrasti i otići u šetnju da se malo razbistrim. Jedva sam se podigao, noge kao da su mi bile pune olova. Polako sam otvorio svoje malo skrovište u zidu i izvukao ključ koji sam nedavno ukrao jednom stražaru. Tiho poput sjene otvorio sam teška vrata i provirio van. Kao što sam i mislio, stražari su se opet opili u komu. Cijeli je dvorac spavao, nitko me večeras neće smetati.
Kao drogiran tumarao sa mračnim hodnikom. Uskoro sam shvatio da sam se izgubio, no bilo je prekasno da bi se vratio. Više nisam znao put. Glasno hrkanje privuklo je moju pažnju. Odlučio provjeriti od kuda je dolazilo. U ovom hodniku dotada još nisam bio.
Odmah sam primijetio da se ovdje mora nalaziti nešto važno. Hodnik je bio pun skrivenih zamki. No, za mene one nisu predstavljale nikakav problem. (Talent koji me doveo u ovo moje usrano stanje) Tiho sam se prikrao i polako okrenuo kvaku. Onaj koji se nalazio iza vrata očito ih je zaboravio zaključati ili to nije smatrao nužnim. Lagano sam pogurao tešku hrastovinu. Od onoga što sam ugledao zastao mi je dah. Ležao je na velikom krevetu s mnoštvom jastuka i svilenim pokrivačima. On... moj gospodar... moj uzničar... tiranin koji me tjerao da činim sva ta grozna djela. Ležao je tu, spavao, bez zaštite, potpuno bespomoćan, prepušten meni na milost i nemilost...
Koliko sam puta sanjao o ovom trenutku, koliko sam noći tumarao hodnicima tražeći njegove odaje i sada, sasvim nenadano, napokon sam ih pronašao... Bio sam strašno uzbuđen. Srce mi je lupalo tako snažno da sam se uplašio da će ga čuti. Pažljivo sam pogledom preletio po sobi tražeći zamke koje bi mogle spriječiti moj naum, nije ih bilo.
Laganim korakom prišuljao sam se njegovoj postelji. Dvije vitke djevojke, robovi poput mene, ležale su nage, prikovane lancem za zid poput pasa. Pogled na njihova nježna, prebijena tijela ulio mi je dodatnu snagu. Još jednom ogledao sam se po sobi, tražeći pravo oružje za svoj čin. Na zidovima nije bilo niti jedne oštrice koje su aristokrati inače voljeli vješati po svojim zidovima, nikakve figure dovoljno velike za smrtonosan udarac, ničega...
Najednom sam se dosjetio. Jastuk... Drhtavim prstima podigao sam taj nježni, meki, svjetlucavi predmet i polako mu ga prislonio na lice. Odmah se probudio i počeo koprcati. Jedna od djevojki se probudila i počela vrištati, no nisam se mogao obazirati na nju. Ovakva prilika mi se nikad više neće pružiti. Vriskom, probudila je svoju družicu, koja je, umjesto da počne vrištati, svom snagom pokušavala umiriti uznemirenu djevojku.
Onakav umoran, jedva sam uspijevao nadvladati svoju žrtvu. Ne sjećam se da sam ikad u svom bijednom životu bio tako sretan kao u ovom trenutku. Ovaj put ja sam bio nadmoćan. Snažna bol grčila mi je sve mišiće. Pokušavao me obuzdati svojom magijom, ali u panici se nije uspijevao dovoljno koncentrirati. Nakon nekoliko minuta sve je bilo gotovo.
Iscrpljen, ležao sam nepomičan na svojoj žrtvi i duboko disao. Tek tada sam primijetio da je vrisak djevojke, bio je utihnuo, pomislio sam da se napokon smirila. Zadnjom snagom podigao sam se s kreveta i okrenuo prema djevojkama.
Ubrzo sam shvatio zašto je ona uplašena zašutila. Njeno tijelo, ležalo je mlitavo na podu. Tanak mlaz krvi tekao joj je sa tjemena. Ona druga, sjedila je skvrčena i spuštene glave na podu. Jedna djevojka, ubila je drugu. Očito je došlo do borbe dok sam ja bio zauzet. Nisam točno znao kako se to dogodilo. Mogao sam samo nagađati. No, nije bilo važno. Tko sam ja da osuđujem ovu nesretnicu. Ipak je ona samo branila svoj život.
Omamljen, odšetao sam do ormarića na kojem sam ugledao srebrni ključ i oslobodio djevojku. Kako sam se uplašio kada me zagrlila. Bila je tako nježna, tako topla. Drhtala je po cijelom tijelu. Krupne suze potekle su iz njenih tamnih, bademastih očiju. Ne znam koliko dugo smo tako sjedili u tišini. Dvije ubojice, dva prokletnika.
Nakon nekog vremena čuo sam lupanje teških vojničkih čizma na hodniku. Netko je dolazio. Brzo sam otrčao do ormara i izvukao dugu košulju i hlače z djevojku. Izgledala je jadno, no moralo je poslužiti. Hitro sam se uzverao na kroz prozor na krov, kao svaki put kada bih ubio. No, ovaj put nisam bio sam. Lagano sam ju povukao za sobom kroz prozor. Polako smo se vukli po krovu tražeći način kako da se spustimo do dolje. Olujni valovi divlje su udarali o hrid kao da žele urušiti tvrđavu.
Najednom sam čuo vrisak. Djevojka se poskliznula na skliskoj mahovini koja je obrastala krov i sada je polako klizila u svoju smrt. Brzo, ali oprezno spustio sam se do nje i u zadnji tren ju uhvatio za ruku. Točno sam osjećao kako mi polagano klizi. Bio sam iscrpljen nisam imao snage da ju zadržim. Poletjela je uz glasan vrisak prema dolje.
Bez razmišljanja bacio sam se za njom u tamno uzburkano more. Od siline udarca osjećao sam kako mi škripe sve kosti i iz pluća mi se istiskuje dah... Ipak nisam mogao sada izroniti... nisam je smjeo ostaviti... Nešto me tjeralo da ronim sve dublje... sve dalje dok je napokon nisam ugledao...
Nisam si mogao objasniti svoje osjećaje, svu tu privrženost koju sam osjećao prema toj nepoznatoj djevojci. Ali jedno sam znao, gledajući ju kako leži predamnom okupana jutarnjim suncem. Sada sam napokon bio svoj, bio sam slobodan. Sada ću sam moći odlučivati o svojim postupcima, cijeli svijet je bio predamnom i ono, što mi je bilo najvažnije, bilo je saznanje da više nikad ne ću morati za njega ubiti...

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Svakim danom, svakim satom sve se više gubim u ovoj iluziji koju nazivamo svojim postojanjem. Kao sjena bježim pred svijetlom natrag u tamu. Život prolazi pored mene, ne mogu ga zaustaviti. Mogu samo žuriti s vremenom kako ne bi zaostao, zaboravljen. Sve što ostaje iza mene, to su sjećanja. Ona lijepa, ali i ona koja bi svatko od nas najradije zaboravio. Čovjek je smrtan, a time sam i ja. Jednog dana hladna će ruka smrti sve nas povući u grob. Postoji samo jedna stvar koju stvarno moramo, a to je umrijeti...
Gledajući kroz nevina stakla djetinjstva, život nam se čini toliko lijep, pun sreće i radosti, novih avantura... Ali kako odrastamo ta se iluzija polagano raspada i mi počinjemo shvaćati stvarnost. Svi se mi vječno borimo kako bi sebi i svojim voljenima osigurali što ljepši i lakši život. Živimo, patimo i umiremo i za najmanji za trenutak sreće. A ja vas sad pitam, je li vrijedno toliko se boriti za jedan maleni trenutak zadovoljstva? Zar mi moramo toliko patiti, da bismo bili sretni? Na to pitanje još uvijek ne znam dati dovoljan odgovor...
Ipak, nešto sam shvatio. Tek u trenutku spoznaje svoje prolaznosti, čovjek počinje cijeniti ono što ima. Tek u trenutku kad se pomirimo s onim neizbježnim, mi zaista možemo biti sretni.


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Lyrics



Disturbed: Prayer

Another dream that will never come true
Just to compliment your sorrow
Another life that I've taken from you
A gift to add on to your pain and suffering
Another truth you can never believe
Has crippled you completely
All the cries you're beginning to hear
Trapped in your mind, and the sound is deafening

Let me enlighten you
This is the way I pray

[Chorus:]
Living just isn't hard enough
Burn me alive, inside
Living my life's not hard enough
Take everything away

Another nightmare about to come true
Will manifest tomorrow
Another love that I've taken from you
Lost in time, on the edge of suffering
Another taste of the evil I breed
Will level you completely
Bring to life everything that you fear
Live in the dark, and the world is threatening

Let me enlighten you
This is the way i pray

[Chorus]

Return to me, return to me, return to me, turn to me, leave me no one
Turn to me, return to me, return to me, turn to me, cast aside
Return to me, return to me, return to me, turn to me, leave me no one
Turn to me, return to me, return to me, you've made me turn away

[Chorus Variant:]
Living just isn't hard enough
Burn me alive, inside
Living my life's not hard enough,
They take everything from you

[Chorus]






Iced Earth: Melancholy

Make the sadness go away
Come back another day
For years I've tried to teach
But their eyes are empty
Empty too I have become
For them I must die
A sad and troubled race
An ungrateful troubled place

[chorus]
I see the sadness in their eyes
Melancholy in their cries
Devoid of all the passion
The human spirit cannot die
Look at the pain around me
This is what I cry for
Look at the pain around me
This is what I'll die for

Make the sadness go away
Come back another day
The things I've said and done
Don't matter to anyone
But still, you push me to see
Something, I can never be
Why am I their shattered king?
I don't mean anything

I see the sadness in their eyes
Melancholy in their cries
Devoid of all the passion
The human spirit cannot die
Look at the pain around me
This is what I cry for
Look at the pain around me
This is what I'll die for.






Korn: Alone I Break

Pick me up
Been bleeding too long
Right here, right now
I'll stop it somehow

I will make it go away
Can't be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
These feelings will be gone
These feelings will be gone

Now I see the times they change
Leaving doesn't seem so strange
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind
All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?

Cut me off
I'm ready, heart stops
I stand alone
Can't be on my own

I will make it go away
Can't be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
These feelings will be gone
These feelings will be gone

Now I see the times they change
Leaving doesn't seem so strange
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind
All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?

Am I going to leave this place?
What is it I'm running from?
Is there nothing more to come?
(Am I gonna leave this place?)

Is it always black in space?
Am I going take its place?
Am I going to win this race?
(Am I going to leave this race?)

I guess God's up in this place?
What is it that I've become?
Is there something more to come?

More to come

Now I see the times they change
Leaving doesn't seem so strange
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind
All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?

Now I see the times they change
Leaving doesn't seem so strange
I am hoping I can find
Where to leave my hurt behind
All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?





Iced Earth: The Phantom Opera Ghost

[Y:] I feel you, from beyond the walls you speak to me
[M:] Christine my love Paris now will worship you
You will star soon I'll kill to make it sure for you
[Y:] Oh my love, won't you please show yourself to me
[M:] Soon I'll take you in my kingdom you're the queen.
It's dark and peaceful but my face you'll never see, no

[M:] Oh Christine on this eve I will come for you
[Y:] Erik my love, I've waited all my life for you
Please just take me I need to be with you
[M:] Take my hand, through the catacombs my lair awaits
[Y:] Caverns, mazes, the underworld and the blackest lake.
Enticing danger, your passion feeds me I'm your slave

[Y:] Now I've bathed in fear. I will not leave here
[M:] Breathe deep the darkness. Breathe deep the madness
[Y:] I'm so cold inside. Mental suicide
[M:] Breathe deep the darkness. Breathe deep the sadness

[M:] Oh Christine don't you know it's all for you
Carlotta's head and the other death's I planned.
All for you, to have your night in the spotlight.
From now on forevermore you will only sing for me

[Y:] So you are, you are the legend. The Phantom Opera Ghost
[M:] I am what man has made me. With his hate and cruel ways
[Y:] Why are you?
[M:] Why am I?
[Y&M:] The Phantom Opera Ghost
[Y:] I have to see
[M:] You'll never see
[Y&M:] What's behind the mask

[Y:] I'm so torn between love, death, life, and hate
[M:] Don't you doubt me, what we have is just our fate.
I now own you from this day forth; you'll be my slave
[Y:] Oh Dear God for this life I've lost the will
[M:] No this can't be I'd rather you die than spoil my dream.
Myself I'll kill if I can't have you no one will





Disturbed: Hell

[Intro:]
Rrwoooaaaw!
Ahh, Ahhh
Burning now I bring you Hell!

[Post-Chorus:]
Ahh, Ahhh
Oh, burning now I bring you Hell!

Read me tonight, when the warnings said leave a shudder upon you
Running from all that you feared in your life
Soul of the night, when the sun mislead paint a horror upon you
Marking the moment, displaying in my ghost of a life!
And I can't get round the way you left me out in the open
To leave me to die!
So how can I, forget the way you lead me through the path into Heaven
To leave me behind!

[Chorus:]
Now I can't stay behind
Save me, from wreaking my vengeance
Upon you, to killing more than I can tell
Burning now I bring you Hell!

[Repeat Post-Chorus]

Free me tonight, as the animal kings breathe their terror upon you
Caught in the moment, engaging in my
Bloodlust tonight, now I can't control my venom's flow
Get back from me demon, or be exorcised!

[Repeat Chorus]

All my emotion and all my integrity
All that you've taken from me
All my emotion and all my integrity
All that you've taken from me

Now I can't stay behind
Save me, from wreaking my vengeance
Upon you, to killing more than I can tell
Soul of the night, I know
Now I can't stay behind
Save me, from wreaking my vengeance
Upon you, to killing more than I can tell
Burning now I bring you Hell!






Iced Earth: I Died for You

I can't belive this now
This isn't what I planned
I lived and died and now
I just can't understand
With all the love I feel
I could never leave her
No matter what the cost
My soulds the price to see her

Chorus
Oh how I love you
The pain won't go away
Oh when I need you
You're always so far away
I cry for you
Leaving myself to blame
I died for you
I gave up everything

The pain was just to much
When I finally saw her
She's happy and in love
In love with my best friend
What makes it hurt so bad
Is that I love them both
And they will never know
For love I sold my soul

Repeat Chorus






HIM: Poison Girl

I did it all just for her
I did it all just for her
And love's heart is death
For me and my poison girl

A prey she was for the cruelty of love
While its serpent inside crawled straight towards her heart
The coldest kiss love ceased to exist
While we grew apart like never before

I did it all just for her
I did it all just for her
And love wants us dead
Just me and my poison girl

I did it all just for her
I did it all just for her
And love's heart is death
For me and my poison girl

the fire in her eyes
grew dim and then died
as the poison inside
reached her heart

And the coldest kiss
faith ceased to exist
as we grew apart
like never before

I did it all just for her
I did it all just for her
And love wants us dead
Just me and my poison girl

I did it all just for her
I did it all just for her
And love's heart is death
For me and my poison girl

And the taste of the poison on her lips is of a tomb

I did it all just for her
I did it all just for her
And love wants us dead
Just me and my poison girl

I did it all just for her
I did it all just for her
And love's heart is death
For me and my poison girl

Poison girl [4X]

And love's heart is death
For me and my poison girl
In this poison world...





Iced Earth: Last December

The howling winds blow
On this moonlit night
Eyes locked in fear
With a dark embrace
The bitter cold winds
Freeze the tears that fall
Hands held in grace
As we take the final step

Obsessed with our love
Here is our fate
To need the final call
On this special winter day
A message to our elders
They surely won't forget
Our love must last forever
In death we shall not part

It seems like only yesterday
Our lives together planned
They say it's just a passing phase
We're damned by our youth
Why does no one understand
What we have is real

This is not your average love it's forever

Last December
Mother you have forced us here
Last December
Father now we'll disappear
Last December
One last step we fade away

So we take the final step
Heed the final call
Together we are strong
Divided we must fall
Teenage suicide
Our only way out
Together we might live
Divided we must fall

Last December
Mother you have forced us here
Last December
Father now we'll disappear
Last December
One last step we fade away







Billy Talent:Pins And Needles lyrics

Never understood how she could,
Mean so little to so many
Why does she mean everything to me?

Is it worth the pain, with no one to blame?
For all of my insecurities
How did I ever let you go?

Questioning her good intention
Jealousy's a bad invention
When you push on glass, it's bound to break

Even when she was defensive,
It just gave me more incentive
The more you squeeze, the more it slips away

I never walked so far on a lonely street
With no-one there for me
Is it worth the pain, with no one to blame?
For all of my insecurities
How did I ever let you go?

Accept this confession!
...I'm walking on pins and needles
You're not my possession!
...I'm walking on pins and needles
My conscience is vicious!
...I'm walking on pins and needles
And I'm begging forgiveness!
...I'm walking on pins and needles

I never walked so far on a lonely street,
With no one there for me
It took too long to see her in misery
And now it's clear to me

That it's worth the pain, always take the blame
For all your own insecurities
How did I ever let you go?







Lovex: Anyone anymore

I’m another king and robber
I’m a brother trampling on your dreams
Before they stand in the way of mine

He’s a fighter with a hunger for disaster
A decider chained to the fate of the world
But words are left unheard

Feel the weight on your shoulders
Is there anyone anymore
To slow our fall, yeah
All those people, all that power
Is there anyone anymore
Is there anyone anymore

She’s a lover a true-love mocker
And every dollar she earned at the cost of those
Who believed enough to let it show

In your mirror you will see a winner
A celebrated sinner standing in line with the vain
Those self-appointed modern day saints

Feel the weight on your shoulders
Is there anyone anymore
To slow our fall, yeah
All those people, all that power
Is there anyone anymore
Is there anyone anymore

It’s not about conformity
It’s abuse of individuality
It’s insanity, it’s reality
It’s the promised land of hypocrisy

Feel the weight on your shoulders
Is there anyone anymore
To slow our fall, yeah
All those people, all that power
Is there anyone anymore
Is there anyone anymore...

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