Running before time took our dreams away....

utorak, 03.01.2006.

Evo mene opet



Dugo je vrimena prošlo od mog zadnjeg posta,šta zbog raznih zabrana konekcije zbog moje stalno rastuće ovisnosti o netu,šta zbog moje potpune neinspiracije,tj. nemogućnosti prenošenja misli na papir,u ovom slučaju na ekran PC-a.
Ovog puta mi ne pada na pamet da pišem o školi jer me ta tema,uistinu,navodi na povraćanje.
Pisat ću o mom zabrinjavajuće pesimističnom pogledu na svijet i na ljude koji me okružuju.Ne znam šta je uzrok ovakvom mom razmišljanju kroz zadnje,otprilike,2 godine,a pogotovo kroz zadnjih nekoliko miseci,ali stvarno želim da prestane jer ne mogu funkcionirat normalno.Poprilično sam se povukla u sebe,ne govorim puno(osim kad sam s prijateljima),a kad govorim,to je uglavnom deranje ili rečenice ispunjene sarkazmom,koji mi je,usput,glavna maska kojom se koristim.Iskreno se nadam da je to samo pubertet i da će sve to za koju godinu proć.Zapravo,kad malo bolje promislim,glavi razlog svemu ovome je moja unutarnja frustracija zbog svega šta se u svijetu događa.Ustroj društva u kojem živimo me izluđuje.Kapitalizam je nešto najodvratnije šta sam ja u svom petnaestogoišnjem životu imala prilike vidit.Zbog svega toga sam stvarno tužna i ne mogu ne razmišljat kakav bi bia svijet da je onakav kakvim ga ja zamišljam.Također se bojim da se moj san o glumi neće prominit ni kad budem tribala upisat faks,šta je za nekih 3,5 god.,ako se nije prominia ni u proteklih 10.Također,osim glume,ne mogu se baš zamislit u nekoj drugoj profesiji.Mislim da previše razmišljam i da će mi glava eksplodirat,al bi mi prije eksplodirala da ne razmišljam.
Šta se tiče mog trenutačnog prebivališta,ja sam u Vinkovcima,kod mamine rodice.Ja i parents sutra idemu u Mađarsku,u Pečuh.Ja sam tila i do Budimpešte,al je daleko,pa nećemo.U četvrtak idemo u toplice,bazeni i sl.Dobila sam 1500 kn i ne znam šta ću s njima.Mislim,nije da mi ništa ne triba,nego mi puno toga triba,pa ne znam šta bi.
Pošto je mamina rodica glavna urednica vinkovačkog radija VFM (Vinkovci FM), danas sam od 19:20 do 19:30 pustila dvi pisme.Coldplay - Fix You i Santana feat. Steven Tyler - Just Feel Better.Čula sam je na vh1,fenomenalna je.
Iznenadila sam se kako su dobre pisme na vh1,mislila sam da je taj program okupiran crnačkim hip-hopom ka Mtv,al uopće nije.
Jučer sam napokon gledala Star Trek NEMESIS.Danas sam počela gledat Star Wars:Osveta Sitha,al sam zaspala.Pogledat ću sutra jer je navodno super.Ja sam bolesnica kad su u pitanju Harry Potter,Star Trek,Star Wars,a mislim da će me uvatit i Lord of the Rings manija jer je to srodna tematika.
Usput,zanima me di bi mogla nabavit Star Wars ili Star Trek postere pošto glupi teen časopisi samo objavljuju Jay Z-a,Beyonce,LL Cool fuckin' J i slična sranja?

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Pisme koje su obilježile moj život i koje mi izazivaju
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1. PINK FLOYD

Izvođač: Pink Floyd
Pisma: High Hopes
Album: The Division Bell (1994.)

Beyond the horizon of the place we lived when we were young
In a world of magnets and miracles
Our thoughts strayed constantly and without boundary
The ringing of the division bell had begun

Along the long road and on down the causeway
Do they still meet there by the cut

There was a ragged band that followed in our footsteps
Running before time took our dreams away
Leaving the myriad small creatures trying to tie us to the ground
To a life consumed by slow decay

The grass was greener
The light was brighter
With friends surrounded
The nights of wonder

Looking beyond the embers of bridges glowing behind us
To a glimpse of how green it was on the other side
Steps taken forwards but sleepwalking back again
Dragged by the force of some inner tide

At a higher altitude with flag unfurled
We reached the dizzy heights of that dreamed of world

Encumbered forever by desire and ambition
There’s a hunger still unsatisfied
Our weary eyes still stray to the horizon
Though down this road we’ve been so many times

The grass was greener
The light was brighter
The taste was sweeter
The nights of wonder
With friends surrounded
The dawn mist glowing
The water flowing
The endless river

Forever and ever

Hello…Is that Charlie?
Hello Charlie…Great!

Izvođač:Pink Floyd
Pisma:Poles Apart
Album: The Division Bell (1994.)

Did you know....it was all going to go so wrong for you
And did you see it was all going to be so right for me
Why did we tell you then
You were always the golden boy then
And that you’d never lose that light in your eyes

Hey you....did you ever realize what you’d become
And did you see that it wasn’t only me you were running from
Did you know all the time but it never bothered you anyway
Leading the blind while I stared out the steel in your eyes

The rain fell slow, down on all the roofs of uncertainty
I thought of you and the years and all the sadness fell away from me
And did you know....

I never thought that you’d lose that light in your eyes....

Izvođač:Pink Floyd
Pisma:Learning to fly
Album:A momentary lapse of reason (198

Into the distance, a ribbon of black
Stretched to the point of no turning back
a flight of fancy on a windswept field
standing alone my senses reeled
a fatal attraction holding me fast, how
can I escape this irresistible grasp?

Can’t keep my eyes from the circling skies
Tongue-tied and twisted just an earth-bound misfit, I

Ice is forming on the tips of my wings
Unheeded warnings, I thought I thought of everything
No navigator to guide my way home
Unlaneded, empty and turned to stone

A soul in tension that’s learning to fly
Condition grounded but determined to try
Can’t keep my eyes from the circling skies
Tongue-tied and twisted just an earth-bound misfit, I

Friction lock - set.
Mixture - rich
Propellers - fully forward
Flaps - set - 10 degrees
Engine gauges and suction - check

Mixture set to maximum percent - recheck
Flight instruments...
Altimeters - check both
(garbled word) - on
Navigation lights - on
Strobes - on
(to tower): confirm 3-8-echo ready for departure
(tower): hello again, this is now 129.4
(to tower): 129.4. it’s to go.
(tower): you may commence your takeoff, winds over 10 knots.
(to tower): 3-8-echo
Easy on the brakes. take it easy. it’s gonna roll this time.
Just hand the power gradually, and it...

Above the planet on a wing and a prayer,
My grubby halo, a vapour trail in the empty air,
Across the clouds I see my shadow fly
Out of the corner of my watering eye
A dream unthreatened by the morning light
Could blow this soul right through the roof of the night

There’s no sensation to compare with this
Suspended animation, a state of bliss
Can’t keep my mind from the circling skies
Tongue-tied and twisted just an earth-bound misfit, I

Izvođač:Pink Floyd
Pisma:Wish you were here
Album:Wish you were here (19

So, so you think you can tell,
Heaven from Hell,
Blue skies from pain,
Can you tell a green field?
From a cold steal rail,
A smile from a veil,
Do you think you can tell?
Did they get you to trade?
Your heroes for ghosts
Hot ashes for trees,
Hot air for cool breeze
Cold comfort for change
Did you exchange?
A walk on part in a war,
for a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish you were here,
We're just two lost souls,
Swimming in a fish bowl
Year after year,
Running over the same old grounds
What have we found?
The same old fears,
Wish you were here….

2.COLDPLAY

Izvođač:Coldplay
Pisma:The Scientist
Album:A rush of blood to the head (2002.)

Come up to meet you, tell you I’m sorry
You don’t know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and ask me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start
Running in circles, coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it’s such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said that it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start
I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it’s such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I’m going back to the start

Oh ooh ooh ooh ooh ohh (x4)