Jedna noć.. Jedna soba.. Prigušeno svijetlo.. I njih dvije.. Ponovno ulaze u neke konflikte.. Onakve kakve jesu.. Bez imalo pretvaranja.. Suočene jedna s drugom.. I gledaju se u oči.. Mrze se.. Jedna vedra,nasmijana.. uvijek sretna..klasa- optimist.. A druga.. Bijesna, ljuta, puna mržnje, oličenje pesimizma.. I noćas se njih dvije natječu za glavnu ulogu u toj drami Zvanoj "Moj Život"... I htjela bi svaka od njih biti tamo gdje je zastor granica stvarnosti i glumačkog svijeta.. A zajedno ne mogu.. No.. Mogu li njih dvije pronaći nešto zajedničko i stvoriti neku treću osobu.. Onu koja bi bila savršena glavna uloga.. a istovremeno bi ličila na nešto.. Bila bi normalna.. Smijala bi se.. plakala bi.. Ali.. svakako ne bi dozvolila neke glupe postupke koje si one dozvoljavaju.. I to je nemoguće.. ONE, NJIH DVIJE to ne mogu! Ne znaju.. ne znaju ništa.. Gledaju se pune mržnje u tim plavim očima.. i žele da prestane ta farsa.. žele prestati biti dvije.. a svaka bi htjela da ona bude ta koja će ostati.. jer jedna mora nestati.. jedna mora ispasti u toj utrci za glavnu ulogu glupe drame.. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------- (i vjerujte mi.. uopće mi nije bitno što sam ovo napisala nerazumljivo.. ni što mi je žarulja pregorila onda kad sam trebala svijetlo u ovom mraku.. i..više mi nisu bitne ove kutijice u kojima je moj takozvani -život-.. više mi to nije bitno.. jer još uvijek sam živa.. a to mi je bitno... ) ----------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
U meni čuči toliko strahova.. Previše strahova.. Sama sebi stvaram pressing kojeg ne bi smjelo biti... Ali.. Takva sam.. Razmišljam previše o stvarima koje su nebitne u mom, previše bitnom,životu.. Gubim se u nekoj gomili ispisanih rečenica bez redosljeda,bez gramatičke točnosti... Bojim se gubitka,samoće,mraka... Same sebe.. Zato i spavam još uvijek sa svojm medvjedićem.. Strah me.. Da će ona osoba,koja me u ovom trenutku voli cijelim svojim srcem, Već sljedeći trenutak zamijeniti tu svoju ljubav nekom hladnoćom.. U meni se krije dijete dovoljno snažno da savlada sve svoje strahove I one zlobnike koji mu trgaju medvjedića iz ruku.. U meni čuči,rekao bi Netko Meni Jako Važan, mala dišpetoža.. Ja dodajem..-okrutna.. I umorna od vječnog natezanja sa svojim životom koji je tek na samom početku... Možda i nisam toliko okrutna... Samo se branim od svojih strahova.. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ *bojiš se? Čega? # gubitka se bojim.. *gubitka čega? Koga? # (tihim šapatom) tebe.. *(zagrli snažno i šapne tiho na uho)- mene nikada nećeš izgubiti.. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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"Torn"
I thought I saw a man brought to life
he was warm he came around like he was dignified
he showed me what t was to cry
Well you couldn't be that man I adored
you don't seem to know - or seem to care what your heart s for
I don't know him anymore
there's nothing where he used to lie
my conversation has run dry
that's what's goin' on
nothing's fine
I'm torn
I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
lying naked on the floor
illusion never changed
into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
you're a little late
I'm already torn
so I guess the fortune teller's right
I should have seen just what was there and not some holy light
but you `crawled beneath my veins and now I don't care, I have
no luck
I don't miss it all that much
there's just so many things
that I can't touch
I'm torn
there's nothing where he used to lie
my inspiration has run dry
that's what's goin' on
nothing's right I'm torn...
"...Znam da sam ja u svakom životu prije ovoga tražila tebe.ne nekog sličnog tebi,nego tebe,jer su se moja i tvoja duša morale uvijek naći.a onda smo,iz nekog razloga,koji nije bio jasan ni tebi ni meni,bili prisliljeni da se rastanemo.Ali,ako se nikada više ne vidimo i ako je ovo doista rastanak zauvijek,znam da ćemo se opet sresti u nekom drugom životu.." (Zima za dvoje)
*silli-My precious...
*Luči-Cinta:)
*lyla
*luda mala
*dreamer
*shizofrenia
*neshvacena...
*Enie
*nasstassya
*josephmartonus
*lina01
*ragazzina
*ona
*technics
*lovesick
*chiquitta
*skladateljica snova
*Aurora
*wildchic
*anna
*EnlightenedPhoenix
*ivy-slatkica@
*forgotten girl
THE TROUBLE WITH LOVE IS
Love can be a many splendored thing
Can't deny the joy it brings
A dozen roses, diamond rings
Dreams for sale and fairy tales
It'll make you hear a symphony
And you just want the world to see
But like a drug that makes you blind,
It'll fool ya every time
The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See, you got no say at all
Now I was once a fool, it's true
I played the game by all the rules
But now my world's a deeper blue
I'm sadder, but I'm wiser too
I swore I'd never love again
I swore my heart would never mend
Said love wasn't worth the pain
But then I hear it call my name
The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See, you got no say at all
Every time I turn around
I think I've got it all figured out
My heart keeps callin' and I keep on fallin'
Over and over again
This sad story always ends the same
Me standin' in the pourin' rain
It seems no matter what I do
It tears my heart in two
The trouble with love, yeah
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
(The trouble with love is)
It's in your heart
It's in your soul (doesn't care how fast you fall)
You won't get no control
(and you can't refuse the call)
See, you got no say at all
The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
A QUESTION OF HEAVEN
The time is close now, the end is near
My walk through the valley, trails of fear
I feel empty, my penance overdue, I guess it's too late now
To be with you
I'm extremely frightened of what will surely be
I sold myself, the death of me
I know you can't forgive me
I know I'm on my own, I've betrayed you
I walk alone
What exactly is the meaning of this
Just pawns in your twisted game
Severe pain for the lie I'm livin'
For a love I never could betray
Question me not say the lord unto thee
You have chosen your own fate and your own destiny
Denied of this life is what you are to be
You have chosen your own fate and your own destiny
Lord I pound my fists at you
Won't you just let me die
Would I not suffer enough
No inner peace no after life
I did what I thought was right
All for the love of my life
I know it's sad but true
Something is very wrong
Condemned to suffer so long
For a love so true
The question that lies within
Is so hard to understand
It still tears at me
And in my dying breath
My heart holds no regrets
I wouldn't change a thing
My spirit begins to rise into the heavenly skies
Just to be shunned away by you
Now all I want is to die, no streets of gold in the sky
And I wash my hands of you
Rising to the heavens light
Just to plea for death