Love Actually Is All Around Us
30.03.2007., petak
Borbe Protiv Osjećaja Su Krvave, A Pobjednici Rijetki
Jeste li ikada bili toliko sretni da imate osjećaj kako biste mogli dotaknuti nebo, a istovremeno toliko tužni da biste mogli propasti u zemlju a ne bi vas bilo nimalo briga. Osjećati istovremeno sreću i tugu, zadovoljstvo i prazninu, ljubav i mržnju... Umjesto da sada filozofiram i iskaljujem ovdje svoje probleme i frustracije, radije se osvrnimo na priču o djevojci nasmijanoj izvana, a praznoj iznutra...Nikada nije pomišljala kako bi joj išta moglo uljepšati dan više od jednog poslijepodneva. Onog poslijepodneva... Da sad ne ulazimo u nebitne detalje, pokušati ću to skratiti što je više moguće, a da ipak ne izgubim cijeli smisao svega. Napokon je ostala sama s njim. Nisu doduše bili posve sami, bilo je ondje ljudi. No, ona nije vidjela nikoga osim njega. Njegov osmijeh ju je ispunjavao, njegov dodir ju je podsjećao na toplu proljetnu kišu, a njegove oči... Bile su dublje od oceana... Pogledi su im se povremeno susretali na što bi ga jedan od njih dvoje uvijek pomicao. Gledala ga je s takvim zanosom, divljenjem, poštivanjem... Bila je sretna. Pokušavala je prikriti blaženi osmijeh koji joj je stalno izlazio na usne i sakriti sjaj u očima dok ga je gledala. Toliko su blistale da bi mu i sam Picasso uspio napraviti besprijekoran portret samo gledajući ga u njezinim očima. Nije joj ništa drugo bilo bitno, samo njih dvoje, ovdje i sada. Uživala je u njegovoj blizini. Više nego što riba uživa u vodi, ptica u zraku... Jedino pitanje koje si je postavljala s vremena na vrijeme bilo je: „Hoće li primjetiti?“ Pitala se hoće li primjetiti kako se gubi u njegovom pogledu, u njegovim očima. Hoće li primjetiti što osjeća prema njemu... Koliko joj je drag... Koliko joj znači... Prije nije bila sigurna. Je li to zaljubljenost? Voli li ga? Uvjeravala je sama sebe da će proći. Ali ne prolazi. Još traje... Traje i svakim je danom sve jače... No, nakon nekog vremena provedenog pored njega, postala je sigurna. Potpuno sigurna da gaji iskrene, čiste i čvrste osjećaje prema njemu. On ju potiče da bude bolja osoba. A znamo da to ne može ništa osim ljubavi... No jedna ju stvar nije prestajala tištiti. Što ako on ne osjeća ništa. Nije znala. A to ju je neznanje uništavalo. Morala je saznati. No kako..? U trenutku kad je na to pomislila u njoj se stvorio neobičan osjećaj. Željela ga je mrziti. Željela je prema njemu radije osjećati mržnju i prijezir nego ljubav. Smatrala je kako bi joj tako bilo lakše nositi se sa cijelom situacijom. Nije željela misliti na njega. Borila se makar je znala da se protiv osjećaja bitke ne dobivaju. Rijetki pobijede, a i onda znamo da je borba bila krvava. Prepustiti se ili ne? Voljeti ili ne? Nije znala. A to ju je ubijalo. No, ipak je odlučila poslušati svoje srce i slijediti osjećaje jer je znala da ih nikada neće uspijeti pobijediti. Oni su takvi. Dođu kada ih ne očekuješ, a odu... Nitko ne zna kada odu, ili ne odu. Zato je sve to toliko nepredvidljivo i teško... Je li pogriješila i hoće li ostati povrijeđena, vrijeme će pokazati... |
29.03.2007., četvrtak
Ljubav, Zar Je To Normalno?
Vjerojatno mnogi, uključujući i mene, nisu mogli a da se ne zapitaju ovo pitanje barem jednom. No, ako ste romantičar kao ja, interpretirati ćete to na svoj vlastiti i jedinstven način. Osobno, smatram da sve vezano za ljubav nije potpuno zdravo. Najčešće se u toj osobi izgubimo i zaboravimo na svoje potrebe i želje samo kako bi zadovoljili tuđe. Ja to recimo znam, ali probajte vi zaljubljenom čovjeku objasniti kako ne smije zanemariti sebe kao osobu zbog nekog drugog. Vjerujte mi, ne ide.To prvenstveno znam po sebi. Kada se neka od meni bliskih osoba zaljubi u nekoga, tko ju najčešće po mome mišljenju ne zaslužuje, iz petnih joj žila to pokušavam objasniti i dokazati. Na kraju su naravno sva moja muka i trud uzaludni jer u nekim slučajevima ta meni draga osoba ostane povrijeđena. No, nisam ni ja daleko od toga. U istom slučaju, da se sad ne ponavljam, meni ljudi kojima je stalo do mene mogu pričati bajke koje će mi ući kroz jedno uho a izaći kroz drugo. Čovjek nije zadovoljan i neće stati dok neke stvari ne osjeti na svojoj vlastitoj koži. Zadovoljiti ga mogu jedino stvari koje same iskuša, bez obzira bile one ugodne ili ne. Ne kaže se bez razloga da se na greškama uči. Da donesem ipak nekakav suvisao zaključak iz cijelog ovog monologa, sve vezano za ljubav kao pojam, a i kao osjećaj, možda nije posve normalno, no dakako se isplati. Bez obzira doživili mi dobro ili loše iskustvo i kakav god da zaključak izvukli, ljubav nikad nije besmislena. Jer ipak, svako iskustvo je dragocjeno. Ako ju nikad ne doživimo, možemo sa sigurnošću reći da isto tako i nikada nećemo biti potpune osobe. U svakom slučaju, ono što nas ne ubije, ojača nas. |
28.03.2007., srijeda
Ljubav U Kartama
Vjerujemo li u vremensku prognozu? To je vjerojatno i logično, naravno da vjerujemo.Vjerujemo li u horoskope? Većina nas naravno. Vjerujemo li u tarot? E, o tom bi se već moglo razgovarati... Naime, oni koji vjeruju u tarot zasigurno nisu mogli odoljeti a da im barem jednom nije gatano iz karata. Pravo je pitanje – je li to sve što nam proriču istina? Oni koji vjeruju rekli bi da naravno je. No, mi ostali... Po mom mišljenju, nitko ti ne može sa sigurnošću tvrditi što ćeš učiniti, hoćeš li se razboljeti, kada ćeš umrijeti, pa ni u koga ćeš se zaljubiti. Sudbina nije nigdje zapisana, niti ju itko može znati unaprijed. Sudbinu stvaramo sami. Može meni netko reći što će se sutra dogoditi. To se i može dogoditi, ali ne zato što je to netko rekao, nego zato što sam ja tako odlučila. Ljubav u kartama je namještena ljubav, a pretpostavljam da nitko ne voli da mu se upravlja životom. Zato ne smijemo mariti za ono što nam netko kaže, nego se prvenstveno moramo usredotočiti na ono što želimo. Jer jedino ćemo tako to i uspijeti ostvariti. |
Tko Je Izmislio Ljubav?
Ljubav kao sama ne postoji. Nju je čovjek izmislio kao pojam kako bi pojasnio njene simptome i prije svega suzbio dosadu. Ona se očituje kroz te simptome koji nastupaju prvenstveno nakon tjelesne privlačnosti. Pojam same ljubavi je najvjerojatnije izmislio nekakav usamljeni čovjek u nastojanju da objasni svoju situaciju i osjećaje nakon što se zagledao u pripadnicu ljepšeg spola. Ili je to možda bilo obrnuto, ne bih točno znala. No ono što zasigurno svi znamo da nas ljubav često muči i stvara nam probleme, ali ipak moramo priznati da bi nam bez nje životi bili prazni i dosadni. |
Ljubavne Metafore
LJUBAV JE NAJVAŽNIJA STVAR U ŽIVOTU?Ljubav je važna, ali postoje i druge stvari u životu u kojima je čovjek uživao prije ljubavi. Smisao života je sam život! SAMO JEDNOM SE LJUBI? Svatko ima pravo na pogrešnu i na novu ljubav. Ljubavi su međusobno različite, poput različitih boja ali su sve prave. Uvijek je najnovija ljubav-prava ljubav. Nemoguće je voljeti samo jedamput! LJUBAV JE BOL? Ljubav nema veze s boli i s patnjom. Ljubav ima veze sa zadovoljstvom, srećom i ispunjenošću. Bol i patnja pokazuju samo ovisnost o drugoj osobi. PRAVA LJUBAV MIJENJA LJUDE? Osoba se može promijeniti samo ako je to sama odlučila i ako to želi. Mi je ne možemo silom promijeniti. Možemo joj jedino davati podršku. PRAVA LJUBAV JE SUPER SEKS? Iz ovog vjerovanja proizlaze tri tipa ponašanja: 1. PROMISKUITET-izjednačavanje ljubavi i seksa. 2. SEKSUALNA PSEUDOLJUBAV- Osoba ostaje sa osobom radi dobrog seksa. 3. SEKSUALNI RASKID LJUBAV JE ŽRTVA? Ljubav potiče osobu na razvoj, a ne na žrtvu. Tko je spreman da se zbog ljubavi odrekne svega, ne voli sebe. |
Vino Je Tekuća Ljubav, Dragi Kamen Čvrsta...
Kada kažu “volim te” različiti ljudi pod tim ne razumiju isto.Ljudi pod ljubavlju razumiju različite stvari i iskazuju ljubav na različite načine. Ljudi obično vole onako kako sami žele biti voljeni. ZALJUBLJENOST Zaljubljenost je romantična ili strastvena ljubav koja ima jaku komponentnu seksualnosti i zanesenosti. Nju karakteriziraju neprestalno razmisljanje o osobi, velike promijene raspoloženja i proučavanje osobe BLISKOST Bliskost ima tendenciju da se sama održava ili pojačava. Bliskost kao trenutni osjećaj i bliskost kao trajni odnos. Bliskost povećava naš osjećaj dobrostanja, zadovoljstva i sreće. U slučaju bliskosti početak je u sviđanju. TJELESNA PRIVLAČNOST Jako važna kod prvog dojma. Ljepotu smo skloni povezivati sa drugim pozitivnim osobinama ličnosti. Fizički jača osoba ima snažniji dojam kod ljudi nego ona koja je prosječna. Drugi važni faktori osim tjelesne privlačnosti su: -INTELIGENCIJA I ZNANJE -PROFESIONALNI STATUS -VJEŠTINE SLUŠANJA -UREDNOST SLIČNOST Mnogi ljudi tvrde da se suprotnosti privlače, ali ono što nas privlači drugima su sličnosti, a ne razlike. Sličnost potiče razvoj bliskosti. Ponašanje u društvu bliske osobe karakterizira: -OTKRIVANJE OSJEĆAJA, POTREBA, MISLI, UVJERENJA, STAVOVA, FANTAZIJA I MISLI O SEBI. |
Što Je Zapravo Ljubav?
Da li postoji bilo koji drugi osjećaj koji može biti ljepši, prožetiji ili potpuniji od ljubavi. Ali da bi osjećaj ljubavi bio upravo takav ljubav mora biti oslobođena od svega. Mora biti neuvjetovana i potpuno oslobođena svih drugih skrivenih osjećaja, naprosto mora biti čista. Ako tako volimo ili ako tako vole nas - to je doista ljubav. Da li tako volimo i da li itko tako voli nas? Doista, duboko se upitajmo! Ljubav za koju mi mislimo da ona to jeste ponekad nije takva. U nju ili kroz nju su utkani mnogi drugi osjećaji, mnoge skrivena ili jasna uvjetovanja. Npr. - "Beskrajno te volim, zato što mi činiš dobro, što paziš na mene, što mi kuhaš i spremaš...što brineš o meni". Jeste, i to je ljubav ali nije bezuvjetna već uvjetovana. Što bi bilo kada ne bi kuhali, spremali i brinuli? Da li bi takva ljubav ostala beskrajna ili bi se možda pretvorila u nešto drugo? Možda u osvetu ili u mržnju, ili u nešto drugo...! Mislite li da možete voljeti bezuvjetno, bez ikakvih očekivanja? Bojite li se voljeti beskrajno i bezuvjetno? Jer, možda si mislite: "Što će biti ako se se beskrajno predam? Što ako ta neuvjetovanost ne bude prepoznata, i kako će mi biti ako budem iskorištena, izmanipulirana ili bilo što drugo, što će mi nanijeti bol? Što bi se desilo kada ne biste ispunili partnerova ili recimo roditeljska očekivanja. Oni vas uvjetuju, vi morate biti onakvi kako oni žele i kako njima odgovara, jer ako nije tako oni će učiniti sve da vas prisile na to. A služe se mnogim oružjima. Od ucjene, pritisaka, osvete, bolesti i mnogih drugih načina do šutnje koja vas ubija i zahlađenja odnosa koji vas razdire. A zašto sve to? Iz vrlo jednostavnog razloga - u ovom slučaju ljubav je uvjetovana. Ona jest takva, topla, nježna i krasna dok vi ispunjavate očekivanja - ona je uvjetovana. Ali čim to nije tako, budite sigurni ona će doći u pitanje kad tad! Ljubav je ljubav dok je ljubav. Čim to prestane biti, ona je nešto drugo. Nešto što smo se na neki čudesan način dogovorili da bude. Uključimo li bilo što osim srca to više nije čista ljubav. A malo je čiste ljubavi! Ako je ona bezazleno čista, budite presretni. Ako nije......mijenjajte nešto, i vi imate pravo na život. A život se živi samo kada je prisutna ljubav......ostalo je patnja! |
27.03.2007., utorak
I Surrender...
There's so much lifeI've left to live And this fire's burning still When I watch you look at me I think I could find the will To stand for every dream And forsake this solid ground And give up this fear within Of what would happen if they ever knew I'm in love with you 'Cause I'd surrender everything To feel the chance, to live again I reach to you I know you can feel it too We'd make it through A thousand dreams I still believe I'd make you give them all to me I'd hold you in my arms and never let go I surrender I know I can't survive another night away from you You're the reason I go on And now I need to live the truth Right now, there's no better time From this fear, I will break free And I'll live again with love And know they can't take that away from me And they will see... Every night gets longer And this voice's getting stronger baby I'll swallow my pride And I'll be alive Can't you hear my call? I surrender all... Right here, right now I'd give my life to live again I'll break free Take me, my everything I surrender all to you |
Right In Front Of You
LifeIt can twist your heart Put you in the dark I was cold and lonely Doubt It can close you in Build the walls within I let fear control me I let go Didn't know Where the answer would be Faith It can lift you up And we've got enough To reach a new beginning Love Can withstand a storm In the final hour We'll find the joy in living Don't let go 'Cause I know Pretty soon you will see Right in front of you Right in front of me We were looking For somehow, some way We couldn't see That the love was always there It's been around us everywhere I had to fall to finally see That you were right in front of me You are my tomorrow There's safety in your arms Where you go, I'll follow 'Cause you're the world where I belong |
24.03.2007., subota
I Can't...
No I can't forget this eveningOr your face as you were leaving But I guess that's just the way The story goes You always smile but in your eyes Your sorrow shows Yes it shows No I can't forget tomorrow When I think of all my sorrow When I had you there But then I let you go And now it's only fair That I should let you know What you should know I can't live If living is without you I can't live I can't give anymore I can't live If living is without you I can't give I can't give anymore |
I Want To Hold You Once Again
You knowHow it feels Lying here without you baby You could never understand, what's happening to me So alone Nothing's real I just dream about you baby And forever wonder why you had To break free It's so hard To believe I don't have you right beside me As I long to touch you But you're out of my reach And my heart doesn't feel It's so very cold inside me Just a shadow of someone that I used to be Even though you're not my lover Even though you're not my friend I would give my all To have you here Just to hold you once again You were the only one (only one) That I allowed inside my heart Now I'm just holding on To something so far gone Where did I go wrong |
I Want To Love You More
Take me back in the arms I loveNeed me like you did before Touch me once again And remember when There was no one that you wanted more Don't go you know you will break my heart She won't love you like I will I'm the one who'll stay When she walks away And you know I'll be standing here still See me as if you never knew Hold me so you can't let go Just believe in me I will make you see All the things that your heart needs to know I'll be waiting for you Here inside my heart I'm the one who wants to love you more You will see I can give you Everything you need Let me be the one to love you more And some way all the love that we had can be saved Whatever it takes we'll find a way |
I Could Never Be Sorry For Love
Forgive me for the thingsThat I never said to you Forgive me for not knowing The right words to say, to prove That I will always be Devoted to you and me And if you can't feel that in my love Then I'm sorry for not giving you enough Well, maybe there've been times That I let you down Looking back on all those moments I know that I should have found Love is to be for you And now I will promise to you And if you don't see that in my eyes Then I'll be Sorry for the rest of my life And we all make mistakes No matter how hard we try But hearts can't only break When sorry comes all around But I'm not sorry for my love I'm not sorry for my touch The way it made your hands Tremble and my heart rush I would do it all again Wouldn't take back a thing, no Cause with you I've lived A thousand lives in one But I could never be I could never be Sorry for love |
Greatest Reward
So suddenly, so strangeLife wakes you up, things change I've done my best, I've served my call I thought I had it all So suddenly, so strong My prejudice was gone You needed me, I found my place I'm different now, these days Now the greatest reward Is the light in your eyes The sound of your voice And the touch of your hand You made me who I am You trusted me to grow I gave my heart to show There's nothing else I cherish more I stand by you for sure Now the greatest reward Is the love that I can give I'm here for you now For as long as I live You made me who I am So suddenly, it's clear to me Things change Our future lies in here and now We made it through somehow |
When You Looked At Me...
Laugh and cryLive and die Life is a dream we're dreaming Day by day I find my way Look for the song and the meaning Then you look at me And I always see What I have been searching for I'm lost as can be Then you look at me And I am not lost anymore People run Sun to sun Caught in their lives ever flowing Once begun Life goes till it's gone We have to go where it's going And you say you see When you look at me The reason you love life so Though lost I have been I find love again And life just keeps on running And life just keeps on running You look at me and life comes from you From...you |
Should I...
I'm scaredSo afraid to show I care Will he think me weak If I tremble when I speak Oooh - what if There's another one he's thinking of Maybe he's in love I'd feel like a fool Life can be so cruel I don't know what to do I've been there With my heart out in my hand But what you must understand You can't let the chance To love him pass you by Should I Tell him Tell him that the sun and moon Rise in his eyes Reach out to him And whisper Tender words so soft and sweet Hold him close to feel his heart beat Love will be the gift you give yourself Touch him With the gentleness you feel inside Your love can't be denied The truth will set you free You'll have what's meant to be All in time you'll see I love him Of that much I can be sure I don't think I could endure If I let him walk away When I have so much to say I'll Love is light that surely glows In the hearts of those who know It's a steady flame that grows Feed the fire with all the passion you can show Tonight love will assume its place This memory time cannot erase Your faith will lead love where it has to go Never let him go |
It Would Be Hard To Live Without Loving You
If you ever leave meLife will go on Stars will still be Bright as diamonds in the sky now Even if you said goodbye now Oh, the clock wouldn't stop, no That sun would keep shinning down If you weren't here with me This world would still be spinnin' 'round But baby there would be If you ever walk out this door What would I have left to live for What would there be left to do now What would I be without you now Oh, the clock wouldn't stop, no Each day would go on just the same There would still be air to breath It wouldn't stop the sun and rain But baby there would be Just no living without loving you How could i ever survive Just no living without loving you It would be like living without being alive without you |
It Can't Be Hard To Say These Words
I must be crazy nowMaybe I dream too much But when I think of you I long to feel your touch To whisper in your ear Words that are old as time Words only you would hear If only you were mine I wish I could go back to the very first day I saw you Should've made my move when you looked in my eyes 'Cause by now I know that you'd feel the way that I do And I'd whisper these words as you'd lie here by my side So today, I finally find the courage deep inside Just to walk right up to your door But my body can't move when I finally get to it Just like a thousand times before Then without a word he handed me this letter Read I hope this finds the way into your heart, it said I love you, please say You love me too, these three words They could change our lives forever And I promise you that we will always be together Till the end of time Well maybe I, I need a little love yeah And maybe I, I need a little care And maybe I, maybe you, maybe you, maybe you Oh you need somebody just to hold you If you do, just reach out and I'll be there |
Love Don't Ask Why
Don't ask me if this feeling's right or wrongIt doesn't have to make much sense It just has to be this strong 'cause when you're in my arms I understand We don't try to have a voice When our hearts make the choices There's no plan It's in our hands Now I can feel what you're afraid to say If you give your soul to me Will you give too much away We can't let this moment pass us by Can't question this chance Or expect any answers We can try But love doesn't ask you why So let's take what we found And wrap it around us Love doesn't ask why It speaks from the heart And never explains Don't you know that Love doesn't think twice It can come all at once Or whisper from a distance |
If You Asked Me To
Used to be that I believed in somethingUsed to be that I believed in love It's been a long time since I've had that feeling I could love someone I could trust someone I said I'd never let nobody near my heart again darlin' I said I'd never let nobody in But if you asked me too I just might change my mind And let you in my life forever If you asked me to I just might give my heart And stay here in your arms forever If you asked me to Somehow ever since I've been around you Can't go back to being on my own Can't help feeling darling since I've found you That I've found my home That I'm finally home I said I'd never let nobody get too close to me darling I said I needed, needed to be free Asked me to, I will give my world to you baby I need you now Ask me to and I'll do anything for you baby, for you baby If you asked me to I'd let you in my life forever If you asked me to... |
19.03.2007., ponedjeljak
Should've Never...
I've been soCaught up in the though of me and you Even though I love Someone else I know my heart belongs to you Tell me how did we Ever let the situation get this far Maybe we should just Try to hide things we feel inside Things I know we can't deny What did I Do the day I let you slip into my soul It was then when I Realized that I would always want you in my life No one else can know Of the things we've been saying on the telephone It would be so bad If they ever knew that me and you Were secretly into each other Should've never told you That I cared about you Didn't think it would be, so bad Should've never kissed you Should've never held your hand Got to find a way to let these feelings go I'm so scared, trembling inside 'Cause I'm feeling like somebody else already knows Oh my God, I love you darling so much And knowing maybe you don't feel this too Is hurting me so deep inside |
Could I Be Loving You...
If you only knew, what i've been going throughWaiting and wanting you Could this be love How, tell me how will I know Will my heart make believe it's so Or can I trust the way i feel If you could read my mind You see how hard I've tried Still I can't decide Do you know if it's true That real love lasts a lifetime Does it shine like the stars up in the sky And do you know if you can fall for just a moment Is a moment for all time Why, why am I so unsure Is that love knocking at my door Or the sound of my beating heart If you could read my mind You know i just can't hide What I feel inside |
Just Promise Me You'll Try
Where do we go from here my loveWhat are we doing baby Boy you gotta let me know Why can't we live the way we want I want the world to know I just gotta let it show What do we stand to lose If being together I what we choose Oh my love I think we should talk about us I know it's on your heart That a love like our's shall never fall apart You're so afraid of the rain So I'll take your hand And I'll love you in the best way that I can And I only expect the same Though I'm sure of what I feel Never though a love so true that felt so unreal And I'm a little afraid myself But if you love me day by day With all honest heart and just a little faith Baby time will tell the tale Don't promise me forever Don't promise me the sun and sky Don't predend to know you'll never make me cry Just hold me now And promise me you'll try |
Don't Keep Me Waiting...
Why are you leaving me with all this painPlease return to me this love Can't you see I am going insane To live without you I don't know how Some things go Some things stay Darling, to you I can show That my love will never fade away If you care just a little for me Let me be around you I hope one day you'll see That we're suppoused to be together I know you will find out We are perfect for each other I am just scared it would be too late Because we wouldn't live forever |
18.03.2007., nedjelja
Why...
Why do you give me hopeWhen there is no point for you Why do you give me strenght When you don't love me too Why, oh why You don't care how I feel How, oh how Can you tell me what is real Why I think there must be something wrong If you act like you don't know me Why does it makes me strong If you don't feel a thing There must be something that after all of this time Keep me alive Can't you see I am trying to tell you that I'm In love with you |
14.03.2007., srijeda
Still...
There are this nightsWhen I don't recognise hights I just keep on walking I just stop caring Everything seems like it doesn't matter anymore Suddenly I come across a hole As I keep on falling In the same time I am calling I'm calling out your name But I am not the one you can blame It is not my fault anymore Why don't you care for me Why can't you see That I am fading away There must be something you could say Please, please, I beg you to help me How could you do this to our love I just want to know how Even it would be a lie I deserve to know why Why do you keep on destroying me I am not the one I used to be All this time I dream of one thing How you don't mean anything to me I don't even have a strength to sing You keep on destroying me... You are not even aware that you do But after all I love you... Still... |
Neobjašnjivi Strah
Vec dvije godine razmišlja o samo jednoj stvari. Zasto je se on boji? Koliko zna, nije mu ništa rekla, niti mu ništa nažao učinila. On je se jednostavno boji a što je najgore, ona nema pojma zbog čega. Sa drugima normalno razgovara, s njom ne. Sa drugima izlazi, s njom ne. A ona još uvijek ne zna razlog. Kadgod mu priđe on se ili odmakne ili ju ne doživljava. Rijetki su trenuci kada joj se obrati, ali to je najčešće u par riječi. Zna da on nema pojma što ona osjeća prema njemu, jer da zna drugačije bi se prema njoj odnosio. No, opet s druge strane, mozda je baš to razlog njegova ponašanja. A tko bi ga znao?! Ona je uvijek znala pročitati muškarce, no on...on joj je potpuno nepoznat slučaj. Možda ju baš zbog toga i privlači. Zato što joj je on ''zabranjeno voće''. No nju najviše od svega muči to što ne zna na čemu je. Uglavnom, on se u svakom slučaju boji s njom ostvariti bilokakav kontakt kako se slučajno ne bi osramotio, a svima nam je poznato da je to jedna od najgorih stvari koje se mogu dogoditi pripadniku muškog roda koji sebe smatra nekakvim ''frajerom''. Njegovo ju ponašanje izjeda iznutra te prije svega zbunjuje. Ne zna na čemu je na kraju, da li mu je stalo ili ne, kako ju doživljava i hoće li ikada između njih biti išta više od nekoliko sramežljivo jedva razmjenjenjih, ali prije svega dubokih pogleda. |
13.03.2007., utorak
I Want You To Need Me
I want to be the face you see when you close your eyesI want to be the touch you need every single night I want to be your fantasy And be your reality And everything between I want to be the eyes that look deep into your soul I want to be the world to you I just want it all I want to be your deepest kiss The answer to your every wish I'm all you ever need I want you to need me Like the air you breathe I want you to feel me In everything I want you to see me In your every dream The way that I taste you feel you breathe you need you I want you to need me Like I need you 'Cause I need you More than you could know And I need you To never never let me go And I need to be deep inside your heart I just want to be everywhere you are... |
When Will You Find Me
So, here we areThat's pretty far When you think of where we've been No going back I'm fading out All that has faded me within You're by my side Now everything's fine I can't believe And I was hiding 'Til you came along And showed me where I belong You found me When no one else was lookin' How did you know? Is this a dream? If it is Please don't wake me from this high I've become comfortably numb Until you opened up my eyes To what it's like When everything's right I can't believe You found me When no one else was lookin' How did you know just where I would be? Yeah, you broke through All of my confusion The ups and the downs And you still didn't leave I guess that you saw what nobody could see You found me Oh cuz I don't know I don't know what he's after But he's so beautiful Such a beautiful disaster And if I could hold on Through the tears and the laughter Would it be beautiful? Or just a beautiful disaster |
I Want To Feel You
I don't believeIn the smile that you leave When you walk away And say goodbye Well I don't expect The world to move underneath me But for God's sake Could you try? I know that you're true to me You're always there You say you care I know that you want to be mine Where is your heart? 'Cause I don't really feel you Where is your heart? What I really want is to believe you Is it so hard To give me what I need? I want your heart to bleed That's all I'm asking for Oh, where is your heart? It seems so much is left unsaid So much is left unsaid But you can say anything Oh, anytime you need Baby, it's just you and me |
How Come You Don't Care
You think I'm stupidBut the truth is That it's cupid, baby Lovin' you has made me this way So before you point your finger Get your hands off of my trigger You need to know this situation's getting old And now the more you talk The less I can say I'm looking for attention Not another question Should you stay or should you go? Well, if you don't have the answer Why you still standin' here? Hey, hey, hey, hey Just walk away I waited here for you Like a kid waiting after school So tell me how come you never showed? I gave you everything And never asked for anything And look at me I'm all alone So, before you start defendin' Baby, stop all your pretendin' I know you know I know So what's the point in being slow Let's get the show on the road today Hey I wanna love I want a fire To feel the burn My desires I wanna man by my side Not a boy who runs and hides Are you gonna fight for me? Die for me? Live and breathe for me? Do you care for me? 'Cause if you don't then just leave I don't understand Your love is so cold It's always me that's reaching out For your hand And I've always dreamed That love would be effortless Like a petal fallin' to the ground A dreamer followin' his dream |
I Need You Near Me
You gotta be out thereYou gotta be somewhere Wherever you are I'm waiting 'Cause there are these nights when I sing myself to sleep And I'm hopin' my dreams Bring you close to me Are you listening? Hear me I'm cryin' out I'm ready now Turn my world upside down Find me I'm lost inside the crowd It's getting loud I need you to see I'm screaming for you to please Hear me I used to be scared of Letting someone in But it gets so lonely Being on my own No one to talk to And no one to hold me I'm not always strong Oh, I need you here Are you listening? I'm restless and wild I fall, but I try I need someone to understand Can you hear me? I'm lost in my thoughts And baby I'm far For all that I've got Can you hear me? |
Destroyer
Seems like just yesterdayYou were a part of me I used to stand so tall I used to be so strong Your arms around me tight Everything, it felt so right Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong Now I can't breathe No, I can't sleep I'm barely hanging on I lose my way And it's not too long before you point it out I cannot cry Because you know that's weakness in your eyes I'm forced to fake A smile, a laugh everyday of my life My heart can't possibly break When it wasn't even whole to start with Here I am, once again I'm torn into pieces Can't deny it, can't pretend Just thought you were the one Broken up, deep inside But you won't get to see the tears I cry Behind these hazel eyes I told you everything Opened up and let you in You made me feel alright For once in my life Now all that's left of me Is what I pretend to be So together, but so broken up inside Swallow me then spit me out For hating you, I blame myself Seeing you it kills me now No, I don't cry on the outside Anymore... |
I'm Addicted To You
It's like you're a drugIt's like you're a demon I can't face down It's like I'm stuck It's like I'm running from you all the time And I know I let you have all the power It's like the only company I seek is misery all around It's like you're a leech Sucking the life from me It's like I can't breathe Without you inside of me And I know I let you have all the power And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time It's like I'm lost It's like I'm giving up slowly It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me Leave me alone And I know these voices in my head Are mine alone And I know I'll never change my ways If I don't give you up now I'm hooked on you I need a fix I can't take it Just one more hit I promise I can deal with it I'll handle it, quit it Just one more time Then that's it Just a little bit more to get me through this It's like I can't breathe It's like I can't see anything Nothing but you I'm addicted to you It's like I can't think Without you interrupting me In my thoughts In my dreams You've taken over me It's like I'm not me |
When Will The Heartache End
Once in a lifetime you findSomeone to show you the way Someone to make your decisions And I let you lead me that way I was the one you were fooling Said you were missing me blind But the truth is I knew you were lying You were using me time after time When the heartache is over I hope I won't be missing you Won't look over my shoulder 'Cause I hope that I could live without you Time to move on with my life now Leaving the past all behind I can make my own decisions It was only a matter of time Sometimes I look back in anger Thinking about all the pain But I hope that I'm stronger without you And that I'll never need you again |
12.03.2007., ponedjeljak
Kada Ne Može Jače Boljeti
Nije ni sanjala da može postati tako teško. Gledala je kroz prozor i razmišljala o tome što joj se dogodilo. ''Na neki sam si način sama kriva'', pomislila je. No, svejedno je smatrala da nitko ne zaslužiuje tako nešto. Osjećala se prevareno, prljavo i prije svega bezvrijedno i beskorisno.Već je duže vrijeme bila zaljubljena u njega. Mislila je da se i ona njemu sviđa, no on se ili bojao to priznati ili je sve bila jedna velika laž. Ona je osjećala kemiju između njih dvoje. Svaki put kad bi mu se približila koljena bi joj klecala a dah zastao. Ostajala bi bez riječi. Jedino što je on mogao dobiti od nje bio je jedan mali smiješak. Možda je bio malen, no govorio je sve. Nažalost, on ništa od toga nije mogao shvatiti. Nije nikako protumačio nijedan od signala koje mu je ona davala. Je li to bilo zato što nije gledao? Ili možda nije želio vidjeti? Vidjeti da mu je prava stvar zapravo pred nosom. Možda nije siguran je li ona prava, no mnoge stvari u životu ne možemo saznati ako ih ne probamo. Nema garancije da će nam sve ići od ruke i da ćemo uspijeti u svim svojim nastojanjima, ali to je normalna stvar koju zovemo rizik. On naime nije bio spreman riskirati i povući potez, nego se radije povukao. I to nakon noći koja će im oboje ostati u sjećanju. Njoj u lijepom, a njemu... E, to nitko ne zna. Možda zato jer je njega teže dešifrirati nego hijeroglife. Ona je to cijelo vrijeme pokušava, a kad bi joj se činilo da je na dobrom putu, on se povuće i razočara ju. Tu noć ona pamti i dan danas te ju i dalje smatra najljepšom u životu. Ali na njenu žalost, on se slijedeći dan izvlačio na pijanstvo, što je usput rečeno tako netipično za muški rod. Boji li se on nje? Vjerojatno. A što je najgore, ona osjeća da je i njemu ta noć značila nešto, čak i više nego što je pokazivao, a osjećajima se ne proturiječi. Tom ju je izjavom razočarao i slomio joj srce, a sama ga ne može izliječiti. Još se uvijek nada da će shvatiti što može izgubiti, trgnuti se i pomoći joj preboliti svu bol koju joj je prouzročio. Uvijek je ljepše imati nekoga tko ti je spreman pomoći nositi taj teret. Teret zvan ljubav. |
I Say A Little Pray For You
The moment I wake upBefore I put on my make up I say a little prayer for you While combing my hair now And wond'ring what dress to wear now I say a little prayer for you Forever, forever you'll stay in my hear And I will love you Forever, and ever we never will part Oh, how I love you Together, together, that's how it must be. To live without you Would only mean heartache for me I run for the bus now, dear While riding I think of us dear I say a little prayer for you At work I just take time And all through my coffee break time I say a little prayer for you My darling, believe me For me there is no one but you Please love me too I'm in love with you Answer my prayer Say you love me too |
Why Don't You Notice Me
You are killing me inside when I'm with youBut when we are apart I feel it too And no matter what I do I feel the pain With or without you I'm lost inside And never will be found You are not my lover or even my friend Oh God, when will this end If I'm lost or away You are always here to light my way But every time I try to talk You don't care and just start to walk Why are you running away from me Why can't you see You should know that I care And I shall love you all the way Why are you just standing still Just look the way you've made me feel You have no reasons to hide Oh why don't you let me inside Do you still remember moments we've been sharing Magic moments when two hearts are caring Time can't erase the memory of These magic moments filled with love |
Kad Bi Barem Znao
U životu postoje stvari koje nas čine sretnima. Stvari koje nas ispunjuju iznutra i daju nam osjećaj neovisnosti i moći. Učine nam nešto tako da mislimo kako bismo sve mogli nadvladati i kako nam nijedan problem nije dorastao. S druge strane, postoje i one druge, koje postižu suprotan efekt u čovjekovoj psihi. Čine nas nesretnima, bezvrijednima i bezvoljnima. Više ničemu ne vidimo smisao i svejedno nam je kako se odvijaju inače nam bitne stvari u životu. No, opet nije loše proživjeti nešto loše. Prvenstveno zato što tako naučimo cijeniti sitnice koje nas ispunjuju, a koje inače ne primjećujemo.Nikad nisam mislila da će mi se ovo dogoditi. Zaljubila sam se u nekoga koga prije nisam primjećivala niti ga shvaćala. Naprotiv, smatrala sam ga odbojnim i nadasve čudnim. No, kako vrijeme prolazi stvari se mijenjaju. Kako prolaze dani, izmjenjuju se godišnja doba te dan i noć, tako se mijenjaju i ljudi. Kako izvana tako i iznutra. Osjećaji su prilično neobična stvar. Mogu se promijeniti iz sekunde u sekundu, a trajati vječno. Moji su se osjećali mijenjali postupno i polako te tada doživjeli nagli prijelaz, onu iznenadnu promjenu koju mogu usporediti samo sa biokemijskom eksplozijom koja uništava sve živo, a ostavlja samo temelje unutar čega se sve to nalazilo. To je zaljubljivanje. Izvana ostavlja osmijeh, no hara sve iznutra. Sve što sam ikada osjećala, umrlo je s ovom ljubavi. Odjednom u sebi nisam našla mjesta za ništa drugo osim čežnje, potrebe i strasti prema njemu. Odjednom nisam znala definirati sebe. Sve me podsjećalo na njega, sve je imalo veze s njim, sve je bilo on. Dotada se nikada nisam osjećala tako izmučeno. Kadgod bi mi se obratio, izvana bi možda izgledala hladna, no iznutra bih cvala jače od svibanjske ruže. Najviše mrzim kad me ignorira. Tada u meni stvara takav osjećaj da bih ga najradije mrzila više nego najgoreg neprijatelja, ali ne mogu jer za takve osjećaje u mom srcu više nema mjesta otkad mi je on ušao u život. Najgore mi je kada je žalostan, a ja mu ne mogu pomoći jer mi ne želi reći u čemu je stvar. U tim trenucima mogu čuti samo zvuk slamanja. U tim mi trenucima srce puca na više milijuna sitnih komadića koje sama ne mogu skupiti. A on mi ne može pomoći jer ne zna što osjećam prema njemu. Možda naslućuje, ali ne zna. Ali što je najgore, ja mu ne mogu reći. Ne mogu vjerovati da ću ovo izjaviti, ali moram priznati da se pomalo i bojim. I to ni više ni manje nego njegove reakcije. Bojim se da će me odbiti, poniziti i ismijati kao nitko dosad. Voljela bih najviše na svijetu kad bi znao što mi se mota po glavi ili mi otvorio svoje srce tako da saznam barem najmanju sitnicu o kojoj razmišlja. On je jedan od onih osoba koje rijetko tko može shvatiti, a oni koji i misle da ih razumiju na kraju saznaju da nikada nikome nisu bili toliko daleko. Nadam se da će mi jednog dana pomoći vidjeti barem mali dio od onoga što se događa u njegovoj glavi. Smatram da nakon svega zaslužujem barem malo pažnje i povjerenja. Ne doživljava me kao osobu kakva zapravo jesam. Ponekad imam osjećaj da zanemaruje prave vrijednosti koje dolaze iznutra, a oslanja se na ono što mu oči pokazuju. Kad bi porazgovarao sa mnom na nekoliko minuta shvatio bi neke stvari koje je prije ignorirao. No, tko sam ja da određujem što će tko osjećati i na koji način. Što treba biti, biti će, a ja tu ne mogu ništa. Možda sam preoptimistična, no imam osjećaj da ću i ja dobiti svojih pet minuta. |
When You Say Nothing At All
It's amazing how you can speak right to my heartWithout saying a word, you can light up the dark Try as I may, I can never explain What I hear when you don't say a thing All day long I can hear people talking out loud But when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd Try as they may, they can never define What's been said between your heart and mine The smile on your face lets me know that you need me There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me The touch of your hand says you'll catch me where ever I fall You say it best, when you say nothing at all |
From The Heart
I know you've heard this words a hundread other times beforeAnd you've been hurt and so your heart has chosen to close the door Love broke your heart and brought you lies Look in my eyes you'll see a love that's deep and true Tender and strong and all for you You can trust this love honest, that's truth I will protect you and respect you and be all you need And when you reach for love you'll only need to reach for me These arms will never let you down They're staying around I'll walk with you through every storm I'll keep you safe, I'll keep you warm And you'll have no doubt You are the one I'm living for I'll provide you the love you need just trust my touch Believe in me I'll never make you cry Giving all I got with all I got inside From the heart I'm giving you everything, everything From the heart I promise you that I'll be there I'll be there to love you From the soul I'm showing you all I feel, All I feel is From the heart, from the heart |
Have You Ever Been In Love
Have you ever been in loveYou could touch the moonlight When your heart is shooting stars You're holding heaven in your arms Have you ever been so in love? Have you ever walked on air Ever felt like you were dreamin' When you never thought it could But it really feels that good Have you ever been so in love? The time I spent waiting For something that was heaven sent When you find it, don't let go I know Have you ever said a prayer And found that it was answered? All my hopes have been restored And I ain't looking anymore Have you ever been so in love, have you? Some place that you ain't leavin' Somewhere you're gonna stay When you finally found the meaning Have you ever felt this way? The time I spent waiting For something that was heaven sent When you find it, don't let go, I know 'Cause have you ever been so in love, so in love You could touch the moonlight You can even reach the stars Doesn't matter near or far Have you ever been so in love? 'Cause have you ever been in love? Have you ever been in love? So in love? |
11.03.2007., nedjelja
Invokacija
Ako bi me netko prije par dana pitao hoću li otvoriti blog, odgovorila bih nepristojno bezobraznom uvredom na račun mentaliteta određenoga. No, okolnosti su takve da se u meni rodila potreba da izbacim iz sebe tjeskobu koja me muči. Ako tko ima kakvih problema i nađe ovaj blog, neka se to ne ustručava podijeliti jer ima nas još takvih, a to ovdje nitko ionako neće čitati. |
