Crashdown v.2.0........................................................reloaded.
ponedjeljak, 27.08.2007.
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Danas mi je opet loš dan. Jako loš dan. Ekstremno loš dan. Možda sam sva edgy i nervozna i preosjetljiva zato što pijem pilule... mislim da je to stvarno razlog. Dovoljna je slučajna kriva riječ koja upali neki krivi gumbić u meni i - bum. Eksplozija. Elementarna nepogoda. Smak svijeta. Svijet se ruši. Iako sam svjesna gore opisanog procesa, ne mogu izracionalizirati to što se u meni događa i slegnuti ramenima i normalno živjeti dalje... ne mogu. I ne mogu prijeći preko te neke slučajne krive riječi ili namjerne ili bilo čega što je u meni započelo na početku spomenuti bum. Nisam prije bila takva... a sada si ne mogu pomoći. Zaboli me svaka sitnica... I tako, danas imam loš dan. Iako je tek prošlo četiri popodne, najradije bih se uvukla ispod pokrivača i spavala... dugo... Čak ni ne znam što bi moglo biti riješenje ili lijek za ovo... postoji li uopće... Da stvar bude gora, kompjuter me ponovo muči i nakon ovog idem sve ispočetka instalirati, a onda ću do HgSpota kupiti neke sitnice koje možda pomognu boljem radu kompa. Ako ne... morat ću kupiti novu matičnu ploču i proc. Onaj dan kad mi se desila havarija s kompjuterom u jednom sam trenu zgrabila škare i ošišala šiške od muke. I needed a change. Sad sam si užasna i ružna i mrzim svoju kosu i najradije bih se ošišala... Jučer se on osjećao izdanim, a ja ne shvaćam zašto; ja sam se osjećala napadnutom bez razloga i oboje smo se naljutili... Još se ljutim... ljutila sam se malo manje, a onda se dogodila kriva riječ i bum, eksplozija, smak svijeta.... Tužna sam... Osjećam se kao da sam izgubljena unutar nekakvih debelih zidina i ne mogu izaći... Možda postoje vrata, ali ja ih ne vidim; a možda postoje vrata koja se mogu otvoriti samo izvana i ja sam zarobljena i nema izlaza... A možda samo moram odrasti. Ali ne mogu racionalno promotriti situaciju, ne mogu odmahnuti rukom, nasmiješiti se i poći dalje. Ne mogu jer se osjećam kao da se srušio sav svijet... zbog jedne krive riječi. |
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Kelly Clarkson - You Found Me Is this a dream? If it is Please don't wake me from this high I've become comfortably numb Until you opened up my eyes To what it's like When everything's right I can't believe You found me When no one else was lookin' How did you know just where I would be? Yeah, you broke through All of my confusion The ups and the downs And you still didn't leave I guess that you saw what nobody could see You found me You found me So, here we are That's pretty far When you think of where we've been No going back I'm fading out All that has faded me within You're by my side Now everything's fine I can't believe You found me When no one else was lookin' How did you know just where I would be? Yeah, you broke through All of my confusion The ups and the downs And you still didn't leave I guess that you saw what nobody could see You found me You found me And I was hiding 'Til you came along And showed me where I belong You found me When no one else was lookin' How did you know? How did you know? You found me When no one else was lookin' How did you know just where I would be? Yeah, you broke through All of my confusion The ups and the downs And you still didn't leave I guess that you saw what nobody could see You found me (You found me) (When no one else was lookin') You found me (How did you know just where I would be?) You broke through All of my confusion The ups and the downs And you still didn't leave I guess that you saw what nobody could see The good and the bad And the things in between You found me You found me |
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